You know how sometimes its all becomes clear, your life as it was, where you are now and the future ahead, I think I had one of those moments on Tuesday just gone.

I have been going through a a period of doubt about my job, I know my boss's boss doesn't like me one bit, it's so obvious in the why he talks to me on the conference calls to the US (where he is located). I'm totally sure he would like to see me gone and I've been playing justify my position for the past year and a bit, having any errors I make magnified, and successes downplayed and just generally its making me pretty miserable in a job I have always loved.

Well I took a mental step back Tuesday night and realised that my current position in life is such that I don't need this pressure - economically I will not be any worse off if they manage fire me (no way I'm quitting and giving in) in fact I would actually be better off as I could then write off some pretty major debts.

So that has really made me much happier at work - the release of pressure is amazing and I've actually managed to get more done ironically.

On a negative - I got sir'ed in Byron Burgers at a team lunch today, but I think it was just a mistake rather than on purpose, the rest of my team is male and I had my back to the waiter in question, so I'll let it pass.

Hugs

Caroline xxxx