Male to Female (MtF) Transsexual Discussion

Hi New to this forum, I am Stephanie Elizabeth Anne Butterfield, I am a campaigner for TS awareness in my home town in North East England. I am 44, was diagnosed in January 2007, and started HRT a month later, my responsiveness to my oestrogen has been quite good, being "B" cup going ontowards "C". I have my 3rd appointment with my Gender Psychiatrist on the 29th this month. I hope to get my first opinion letter for surgery as well as have my Estradiol raised to further boost my feminine development. yours Stephanie

Since the majority of mtf are "lesbian" and the ftm will continue to be lesbian is it safe to say lesbian is the choice of sexual orientation? I guess it's true that women are not totally hetero. They are either bi or lesbian. I am a hetero woman. I know I will be sexually active with just men when I have srs. I am married and have sex with my wife only. So does that make me bi even though I am a virgin when it comes to men?

Hello everyone! I am new here and thought I should introduce myself. My name is Megan and I am a transexual woman living in Virginia. I have known all of my life who I am, but for the better part of 30 years was too afraid to embrace it for fear of hurting people I love. I still have that fear but am more afriad of what might happen if I continued to live a lie. Right now I am working with a therapist, having my facial hair removed, am newly active in a support group, hoping I will be given the okay to begin hormone therapy and living as a woman about 25% of the time. I am out to the people I am closest with and all have been more accepting and supportive th…

My therapist is in the processing of preparing my recommendation letter for hormone therapy. She asked me how long I was full time. There was suddenly silence on the end of the line. I thought hormones were supposed to help me pass so that I could do the real life test? If I do real life on the jobs and with my current customers I have had for years and I were to fail the test, than I have told people that never would have had to know. I have extreme difficulty wearing thick make-up and my fast growing beard. I need the hormones to help slow future growth for the follicles that get missed in electrolysis. Do hormones make electrolysis more difficult to …

This last week has been rough on me physically. My body has made some incredible progress in the last couple of days. It hasn't been easy. I'm really happy but it I never expected to feel so wiped out. I am achy and very fatigued. Becoming a woman is not easy. I love my widening hips,rounded but and blooming breasts. I just didn't expect it to hurt this much and be so exhausting.

Out of curiosity has anyone had the following happend with hormone treatments? Teenage like acne breakouts in a person who is middle aged? I hear your supposed to develop b cup breasts if your lucky after years. I'm getting huge fast. I'm between b and c cup after 3 weeks. Anyone have similar development? How about nausea? Anyone have bouts of nausea? My doctor doesn't seem alarmed but seems suprised at the pace of development of many of the changes. He also seemed suprised my genitals have shrunk and my testicles are ascending at a couple of weeks. Should I be alarmed at the rapidity of change? My small town doc admits he's not very experienced regarding these…

Ok I know this may sound odd but I don't know wheather to get excited or go to the doctor. I have been taking climara (patches) for 3.5 months now and the other day when I went to shower OMG my breast area was red (the shape of a female breast). The next day it was nearly gone but a day or so later and now my nipples are getting tough and more sensative if that makes ant sense. and the nipple area tingles a bit at times. So my question is should I jump for joy or rush out to find an endochinologist ? Any thoughts here would be appreciated . Thanks ladies.

So situation: You have to go to artificial means to increase passability. Only: No going to doctors. No buying anything from stores in person either. You are an adult, but you do not live alone. Do you anonymously order things over the net then check your real life mail? Is there some safe way to buy anonymous electrosis which is mailed to you then you use it in real life? Also are there SPECIAL hospitals particularly for transpeople with competent doctors who can do various surgeries for a price? It would also have to be in a pretty isolated spot. I wouldn't want to exactly walk into some building in a very busy public spot with "Transgendered people enter here!" righ…

I am curious to know if anyone has any information about either of these two doctors. I am asking because I am trying to find a reliable doctor for SRS. In particular, I am looking for someone who's had their surgery with one of them, or knows someone who did. Doctor Gary Alter Doctor Christine McGinn Any information, whether positive or negative, would be helpful. Thank you, Angela

OK. I'm just working out my problems on your forum. The biggest problem for me is giving up my male identity. He's there, he won't go away. I love him to bits cos he provides the butter on my bread. I don't know. How did you girls sort this out. Another thing, I have a significant other, She's a bit of a Tom I must admit. But if I come out it's going to totally change the the power relstionship. At the moment I'm in charge, but if I accept a female role she'll be in charge. It's not that I mind her being in charge, in fact I find that rather comforting. I'm just afraid she'll make bad decisons. I suppose I'll have to use my feminine wiles on her/him. Take care, HL.

Hello, everyone! My name is Jocelyn, but you can call me Joss, Lynn, or whatever else strikes your fancy (I've heard them all). Much to my shame, I haven't really even begun to transition because there are simply no resources in my hometown. I AM trying to save money though, more to get out of this town to someplace where I CAN transition. It's a nuisance but kind of a necessary first step, I think. Despite this though, I actually practically live fulltime as a woman (excluding at my job). I have a loving wife who knew everything about me going into our relationship, and my friends are also perfectly accepting, so really, I guess things could be a lot worse, all t…

Hi everyone. Ive been lurking around and reading posts on this forum for several years. I will have my first appointment with my endo next week to begin hrt. I've enjoyed all the topics I've read here over the years and find this forum very insightful. I hope to get to know you all better during my transition. Nice to meet such a nice group and hope that I will have something to contribute myself. your sister in transition, Tessa.

I am 6 ft and at 160 pounds. I was just wondering your folks sizes before you transitioned. Am I just to big to transition if it is what my heart desires. I ask because I do have a thin, muscular build. Thank you so much for your input. Bye Bye ^_^

I am still waiting to get some more advanced professional counseling with my desire to transition but through the years I have given much thought to Sex Reassignment Surgery (SRS) because I have always been so uncomfortable with the male genitalia. Most of you have coped with the problem for some time and I am curious if any of you can relate to these thoughts. I will do my best to present the rated G PG version by being more technical in the language please let me know if there is another place to transfer this post. When you have made a loving commitment to your wife and then hit her with the truth about being unhappy in your body it raises all kinds of questions a…

Me, im confused and hurting Hi i posted some info on myself on the internet well not all, after reading some of the storys Well, I feel a little more confortable about explaingin who I am. First of all I am a Veteran, Desert Shield. I am living as a man. and Im Male/female. I question my own gender daily. I was raised as a boy, served in the USMC as man. Found out during an MRI examination of my lower back(I was shot in Iraq) that I was intersexed. I was 24 when that happened. Im 39 now. Single, I dont date, Because women generally dont understand how complex it is. I have had plenty of testing done. I've attempted to get my childhood medical records. And while I've g…

I was recently discharged from the Marines due to my growin boobs. Before that I had transitioned at 12 years old and been kicked out of my house at 15 by my parents for it. Dropped out of highschool, started college, enlisted as an officer when I hit 18 after 3 years of trying really hard to be a dude. 2 years later and this is me. I just got to civilian life. I'm in a new city, full time, haven't been on hormones for months, just trying to figure out what to do with myself and waiting for acceptance into the pharmacist program at USC seeing as I have my bachelors in biology. I ride motorcycle and like to shoot guns, I'm impatient and don't like people too much. …

Hi All, Well I have been in extensive therapy with my gender counselor and psychiatrist. They have both agreed that I'm a transgender. All the feelings I have had in all my life have been running on a female level in my brain. I came out to my wife about 1 1/2 months ago. She kinda new since I would hint on it all of our marriage. She wants me to be happy in life and told me that at the age of 34 I have a lot ahead of me and should not be miserable. She has seen me through so many problems with alcohol and prescription drugs. Well, we that being said she has told me that she will seek a divorce. Which I cant understand. Se married or thought she married a man as she tol…

well i guess this is kinda stupid... but i took some pictures today (you can see them in my gallery) and it like shocked me.. for the first time, i actually saw a little bit of a girl in my face. i mean it could just have been good angles or something, but its never looked that way to me... i was just like omg and idk it was amazing feeling. i know its only been 10 weeks on hrt. but ive been waiting forever to feel like this and i was beginning to think i never would. hope everyone is doing well and i just wanted to put up an update where i was actually happy and not bummed about something:) jesslyn=)

Hello I am a married man and I have a few questions maybe some of you will be able to help me with. I have been married 25 years and I have just told my wife that I am not sure what I am as cross dresser or a Transgender. I have felt all of my life that I feel like a woman but I was born a male. I dress in womens clothes maybe about every 2 years on and off but not all the time. I will dress a few times be satisfied then wait maybe 1 1/2 to 2 years and dress in womens clothes again just enough to be satisfied but not completely because I know in my mind I feel and look very feminine my hands are small my face is babyish I don't have a lot of facial hair. My mind thinks fe…

so ive finally had enough and im leaving this website and others that i use, this whole transition is killing me and ive had enough. basicaly ive had enough and i dont care anymore and being on these websites dont help me at all. goodbye

I really have no desire to increase breast tissue/size (too afraid it will be noticed) but I have always wanted the increased sensitivity that woman seem to enjoy. Is there any way to get the sensitivity with little to no growth? Thanks.

I don't know where they came from, if they're mostly fat or real breast tissue, whatever.. but I have enough of a chest to get a little concerned lately after hearing some of my lady friends talk about sagging. I know, I know... and there's probably not enough there to worry about yet. But besides that... they sort of stick out and jiggle more than ought to be there for a man's chest; and, well, I'm still pretending to be a man around things like work. So I've taken to wearing sports bras on a regular basis. It flattens me out a little for someone not doing a close inspection, it actually gives more definition to my chest from my angle (which feels good) and it puts to r…

I'm a voracious cyclist. I have been putting in about 24 miles a week for the past few weeks to start gearing up for the not-so-rainy-and-cold season here, and during the nice parts of the year I've been known to put in a couple of 30+ mile (one-shot) trips per month. I've got a 60 mile, multi-day trip I want to do some time when it's nice. Some day if I'm ever in shape and have the time I'd love to do one of the across-the-state type events. I got to thinking about something today though. Does SRS cause problems with things like this where that crotch area gets a lot of pressure and/or friction? My wife's a GG and she complains about it. I know I have problems sometim…

I've kept my nature between only myself and my wife mainly because I've been so intent on making my marriage work by acting as a man. Things have gotten a lot better lately as communication has grown civil and two days ago, I finally came out to a friend of mine. Since then, I've let two other friends know and I know it's a cliche, but I feel like a weight has been lifted. I am going to see a therapist as soon as money is stable and, as much as I'm dreading it, I'm going to talk to my parents about it, too. Everything finally seems to be working out. I'm absolutely terrified of the social repercussions of transitioning, but it's what I need to do to be true to myself…

Well, tonight after our usual family dinner I asked my sister to step outside with me so that I could talk to her. and I have asked her to come over to my place tomorrow to talk about some "private issues" I've been wanting to discuss with her. I know shes a very curious person so now that she knows theres something I have to tell her she won't let me get away with chickening out. so I have written her a letter which I will give to her and let her read, I figure it is best that way because I know myself and I will most definately get tongue tied and nervous so I won't say what I need to say or I won't say it how I want to say it. So I will let you all know tomor…