Male to Female (MtF) Transsexual Discussion

Hello everybody! It's been a while since I've checked in here. Life, and my other internet haunts, have kept me busy. I see there are still a lot of familiar faces here, so in a way it's like I never left. A lot has happened in my life, and I don't intend to bore you with the details, but one major event has occurred which I intend to share with you all. I have a girlfriend! Not just any girlfriend mind you, but somebody who is taking much the same path I have taken. We are both trans women, all be it in very different stages of transition. While I have completed transition, she is just beginning. She still presents male full time, and is right now in the process…

I was switching channels a day or two ago, trying to find something possibly interesting to watch. There is a doctor, I believe his name is Dr. Oz, who has a program about human health. He was talking to a woman who seemed to have had breast reduction surgery because the weight of her large breasts were causing back problems. She said she felt more comfortable with more moderate size breasts.

I want to start by saying that being trans gender is not a choice. I am pondering life as my wife just told me on Thursday she was leaving. I ran the gauntlet of emotions since then. I am torn into two sides, one side of me is broken and sad the other side is a little happy to be free. If I could have changed my mind somehow and stop being trans tomorrow I WOULD. That being said I reflect on the negatives of being trans. Lieing ....we hide everything about everything til I guess it's too late. Are we to blame, is society to blame for making us hide who we are? What choice did I have when caught as a child many times by my parents and told how horrible it is. How it was mo…

I sit along the Cross Roads looking into the night with such a heavy heart , The nights cold grip starting to take me to the darkest places I have fought to escape so long ago..... I feel the grip of dispare tightening around my chest and through my souls very strong energy I can taste its sour notes on my tounge yet again.... I am sorry To have to say That I feel like I am slipping away, waisting in this body giving my breath to the very thing that will consume me if I can not fight it away as I have in the past... I dont know if I can... I cry more , I feel my progress slipping from my grasp, can I get a hold of it? Will I be able to recover from another cold winters…

Hi-My endrocologist wants to send me to the Minneapolis area for future possible surgery; but I have a few questions. I've heard good things and I've heard bad things and I'd like to find out from you girls here if you have any information that doesn't come in pamphlet form. thanks. Jolene.

You've Arrived ©2009 Joanna M. Phipps Someone told me youve arrived I looked around but had not left where was it I'd arrived how did I arrive what did she mean it felt no different then I go to thinking for years upon years stuck in the rut of societies blindness finally to wake finally to realize that all I'd been taught all that I'd done was to please others to do as expected never mind the misery never mind the emptyness never mind it wasnt right to behave as a male when all inside me knew that too was a lie finally later in life the time came upon me the need, the desire could be nolonger denied then came that day th…

Boo! Did I scare you? If I did, I'm worried. It's a forum post you big silly. If I didn't? ...I'll try harder next time, hehe. Hi everyone! I used to lurk here ( and post occasionally ) when I was younger! Recently, my thoughts have wandered to all you lot and I was curious, so here I am checking in. New look to the forum and it's awesome! The familiar faces I remember are still present, Hi Annie! For those who remember, I'm Melissa, I am a male to female transsexual ( that's why I'm posting here! ) and I started my therapy around 16 and my hormones just before 17, if I recall correctly. I am now halfway to my 21st birthday, time has flown, and my oh my I often f…

Ok, now I am posting this ponderance for consideration..... There are so many unanswered questions that rattle around in our heads how do we know that there are any true answers , well I think that for every person the answers are different, For me the question I most often ask is when will this end ... Does it ever end and the answer I have continually come across is No , we will always be striving for the ellusive acceptance for who we are ....Not every peron in this world will accept us for who we are , they may humor us and let us carry out our lives as we see we need to , but they wont completely accept us as our genetic counter parts , is this a bad thing.... No …

I was dreading ever getting to the point where I'd ask this question, but here I am. So I guess I'll ask. What do you do while you 'wait'? There are a ton of things right now that people keep telling me, oh, it just takes time. You just have to be patient. Hormones, learning voice (which occasionally hits awesomeness and very rarely has any usable consistency, still). Electrolysis, weight loss, and of course vain attempts to save up some money for FFS and/or GRS later. I'm probably dumb and I'm probably doing this all wrong. I dunno. I don't think I'm in much of a position to say one way or another anymore. What is indisputable is the following: I'm too femi…

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My son is in the other room slurping down his first solid foods (cereal in formula). It's freakin' hilarious ... he's grabbing at the spoon to try to get it in his mouth faster, and then once it's in there he shoves his fingers in to aid in the process... I think... Ahhh I live a strange life. It's a little like an ink-blot, depending on who looks at it and from what angle, it looks like two totally different things. I had some real momentum and steam built up in March, last time I posted on here, for giving up the last of my guy pretenses. Then a random set of occurrences happened. First, my relationship with my spouse developed some fractures. (Thankfully fixed n…

So, today I found some free time and decided to finally get the ball rolling on the name change since my family is now more or less on the same page as me and that I now live completely full time since I now *also* work as a woman. Now, the reason I only focused on the name is due to the fact that PA, where I live, states that you can only change your gender on state identification if one of two things occur: Your birth certificate, in the state you were born in, states you are of the gender you are changing it to.. or You have documented proof from your primary care physician as well as the doctor who performed the surgery that state you have undergone complete…

I have been lurking here, and on other tg related message boards for several months now. It feels so strange to finally post somewhere, I guess, this is a major milestone, as I have never communicated with anyone about my condition, ever. I'm just going to rant, I hope someone reads this, this boards seems pretty dead. There have been a few big changes in my life that have forced me to re-examine myself. I just turned 24. I went through a bad breakup. But mostly, a friend of mine recently came out as transgendered. In-fact, she had been taking hormones for over a year, and I was going to say something anyway it was becoming very obvious. She seems to be doin…

Every year I have a medical check-up in great hospitals. I always explain that I am a transsexual woman, as they always register me as female (according to my legal status). So far, I always had good results. However, these past few months I have been feeling depressed and for some reason I thought that it may have to do with hormones. I remember I have had periods of depression throughout my life. I always thought it was a psychological problem, never a fysical. I am taking progynova daily. That's it. Last week I went to see an endocrinologist specialised in transsexuals. She told me that my depression and lack of motivation didn’t surprise her. She said that 5 y…

Hola im new to this forum im a male teen from bolivia i saw this pic on the internet: http://images.encyclopediadramatica.com/im...e_as_female.jpg i would love to do this but i dont really get the single steps =( does anyone knows the guide belonging to this pic or a similiar guide?

Life is becoming increasingly complicated. When I was younger (childhood), I remember wearing my mother's clothes when I could (that is, when I was alone) and feeling wonderful, but scared and ashamed at the same time because "that is not what little boys do". I would repress most of those feelings and impulses during high school (at least the cross dressing) and I thought that maybe it was a phase...I thought that since I was attracted to women that it was natural to want to know what it was like to be a woman and maybe that doesn't describe what I was going through accurately, but it's the best that I can do. After college, I married a woman and during my marriage I …

I am looking for longer vaginal dilators and am having lots of difficulty with it. I need at least 9 inches if not more as I want to continue the depth increase I have noticed and the 7 1/2 inch dilators I have are very diiffciult to even keep inside due to the inadequate length. ANy resources? all that I have looked at are shorter than the ones I have.

I read a blog this morning and went to reply to it but it was recognized as apam so here it is this way. Posted by Dee_is_me63, Feb 13 2009, 01:01 PM How intelligent is humanity really? Replying to a friends message got me thinking about it.If one were to base it on it's actions one can only conclude it's quite limited.If not,it appears it wants to be viewed that way.Whether you look at it from a logical point of view or simply looking at it from a common sense point of view.Common sense tells us that in the reality of humanity everyone is different and everyone perceives things differntly from one another.Common sense also tells us that humanity can be good and ba…

The title refers to the legendary Phoenix, of course. The ashes are less legendary but still there metaphorically. They are the ashes of the "bridges burnt" during my "successful" career as a Software Engineer. I hadn't known HE was burning bridges. I was told this recently by a recruiter who let me know that he'd submitted my resume to clients who informed him that they never want to work with HIM again. Now I've been unemployed more than 5 months. The unemployment benefits will run out in a few weeks. I have no savings and no other income. As it stands now HE has nothing left. Sometimes HE hasn't even wanted to live any longer and could have taken ME with HIM…

Where to start.... I first started 'dressing up' around the age of six or so, would find my older sister or my mother's clean panties in their dresser and change into them... would also occasionally change into other items they had as well. This sort of thing just always felt natural to me, around the age of 13 or so I first started to talk about my love for feminine clothing and makeup to some understanding female friends and all throughout Jr. High and High School had regular access to anything and everything feminine because of this. In a lot of ways I feel like I'm nothing more than a cross dresser, though at the same time I'm just not sure. I remember lying …

Y'all were so cool here, and althought I haven't been around much for a long time now, I figured I'd let you know, I'm finally at the end of this segment of my journey. This Thursday is my official "work announcement" by management to my department. Friday's a half day in male mode. Saturday's my last day in male mode altogether (spending it with my family). Sunday's the first day of the rest of my life as Jen. And Tuesday is my first day back to work as Jen. Legal name change is in the works, will come through fairly shortly. Scared to death, along with excited. And sort of dazed -- hard to believe the last two years have gone so quickly. And that I've go…

Well, tonight after our usual family dinner I asked my sister to step outside with me so that I could talk to her. and I have asked her to come over to my place tomorrow to talk about some "private issues" I've been wanting to discuss with her. I know shes a very curious person so now that she knows theres something I have to tell her she won't let me get away with chickening out. so I have written her a letter which I will give to her and let her read, I figure it is best that way because I know myself and I will most definately get tongue tied and nervous so I won't say what I need to say or I won't say it how I want to say it. So I will let you all know tomor…

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wat would be the best hormones for ppl who dont not want to become fully transgendered but to gain weight but to have more feminine skin and female pattern fat deposit (butt thighs and other) ..feminine figure...if there is ...how long on average does it take a 16 year old.boy ...about 5'3 and really slim build to notice changes.??i thank all for you answers in advance..

I read an article at a website about male to female transsexuals where the author said feminization of the body, when using female hormones, especially breasts, will be noticed by others, even if the person does not want her feminization noticed. An article at another website said feminization of the body will be hidden from others, if the person makes proper efforts. This either/or outcome seems dubious to me. I think one's age at the onset of beginning estrogen and progesterone, genetics, clothing often makes it easier or harder for sufficient feminization, especially breast development, to occur to be noticed by others of male to female transsexuals, who are not t…