Male to Female (MtF) Transsexual Discussion

*warning, long, meandering and more or less pointless, read at your own risk* For the first time since I started my current job, almost four years ago, I took a vaction. That's not remarkable, but it triggered a lot of feelings that I don't understand. For years now I've been depressed, drinking heavily, cutting myself and living in near complete isolation. I had decided that I wanted to change that but nothing really changed (well, the cutting and drinking part, but that didn't lead to any other changes.) Medication and therapy haven't made much difference that I can see. Being away from my day to day life was shocking. I made some decisions about my life that…

Transgender journey: recovering from surgery The Guardian When I got the date for my sex reassignment surgery, I wasn't so worried about the operation itself (I'd be asleep, right?) as its aftermath: how I was going to look after myself during the two months it would take to recover? I called my parents and...

Hello! I am 22 y/o college student. I am physically male but am move between states of a female, androgynous, and male minds. It is one of many reasons why I have been hesitant to decide if I sould transition from MtoF. I am bisexual and out to my family. They don't like it but they don't say anything to me about it much anymore. I would like to find someone I can talk to about transitioning. I have many fears and concerns about it. Anyone willing to be like a transgender parent would be great. I don't have many people I can talk to about it. I just need someone that can give me hope that life as a transiuioned women can be good and safe, and not these dark tragic stories…

i hope someone will lend an ear to this... i identify to myself as transgender... and this is why; since i was a child i never felt right in my body... when i was 3 or 4 my moms favorite story was when she asked me how her little boy was, i told her i wasn't her little boy... she never probed any farther... in school i would rather read a book, play hopscoth, or be with the girls, not playing football, or other things with the guys.. when i was 10 or 12 i started wearing my moms undergarments... panties, nylons, etc... i felt like i was supposed to, it was comfortable to me. then i went into the army at age 18 "had to be a man" i kept myself busy, got married and ra…

Well the 18Th is around the corner , I cant wait to begin my life . I finally talked to the HR dept. last week and there is no problem with the company so all my worry has been for not . I am truly the luckiest woman . Seriously , I have a loving supportive wife who continues to be my strength and I have now come out to all my friends and family save for my uncle (I am planning to do that soon , my Aunt just had kidney surgery so the timing is not good)and I have not had any bad reactions , no rejections only support and I have even made a couple of new friends in the process and I have not lost my job ! I have now had my second electrolysis appt. and am now going 2…

I know that some of us have had counseling and have gotten through what has happened to us in the past. I know i have but i still don't hide it and i am open to talk about it. Hey oprha winfrey also talks about her past abuse. I just think that much of this potential abuse does direct us in our preferences both pre and post transitioning. Personally, i was sexually abused ( / beaten naked with a radiator brush and my body was aligned to get erection with the use of the nuns habit/cloth) by a nun at 12 yrs old. I ended up in a mental hospital at 13 and 14 for two times of 4 months long. Once it was for wearing womens clothing. I was also sexually abused by other ki…

Transgender journey: 'I sit with teeth gritted, fists clenched and toes curled' The Guardian (blog) In her final consultation before sex reassignment surgery, Juliet Jacques is told exactly what will happen to her body - and what could go wrong...

Although I have begun HRT and I am also using T-blockers it seems that my facial hair is still growing faster than I want it to. I plan on getting a laser removal later on but in the mean time do any of you know of a good way to retard or slowdown the growth of facial hair? I was under the assumption that the hormones and T- blockers would slow my facial hair growth by themselves. As far as laser treatments are concerned are they expensive and do they work well?

Hi All, Well I have been in extensive therapy with my gender counselor and psychiatrist. They have both agreed that I'm a transgender. All the feelings I have had in all my life have been running on a female level in my brain. I came out to my wife about 1 1/2 months ago. She kinda new since I would hint on it all of our marriage. She wants me to be happy in life and told me that at the age of 34 I have a lot ahead of me and should not be miserable. She has seen me through so many problems with alcohol and prescription drugs. Well, we that being said she has told me that she will seek a divorce. Which I cant understand. Se married or thought she married a man as she tol…

Hi Everyone, Sorry for starting a new topic. I'm dealing with a lot of jealousy issues with my gender therapist. For years I have felt jealous towards other women. I guess it started back when I was in Grade School and seeing girls going thru puberty and all. I wanted to be them. Then HS I wanted to be the cheerleader. I even was jealous on my wedding day. Although my wife knows all about me I refuse to tell her about things I have been jealous of with her. On my wedding day I wanted to be the Bride. I hated not being the bride. I wanted to be the woman that my wife was that day. Through the years of marriage my jealousy grew stronger, everything from her GG body, to w…

Me, im confused and hurting Hi i posted some info on myself on the internet well not all, after reading some of the storys Well, I feel a little more confortable about explaingin who I am. First of all I am a Veteran, Desert Shield. I am living as a man. and Im Male/female. I question my own gender daily. I was raised as a boy, served in the USMC as man. Found out during an MRI examination of my lower back(I was shot in Iraq) that I was intersexed. I was 24 when that happened. Im 39 now. Single, I dont date, Because women generally dont understand how complex it is. I have had plenty of testing done. I've attempted to get my childhood medical records. And while I've g…

Hi everyone Im rather new to this site, but not to the trans community. I have been struggling with my own GID for a very long time now. I was ready to start councling about 3 years ago but then I ran into financial issues and have had to put it on hold. Now that I have saved up a good amount of money I am ready to start the process again. I am just absolutely amazed at the strength and courage many of you ladies have, especially the ones that have started HRT, and I hope within the next year or two to begin my own. I am 26 and don't want to start my transitioning too late in life to not enjoy it. I would love to hear from all of you about your experiences and…

HEYA EVERYONE! I just wanted to pop in here and kinda introduce myself to the forum, I just recently joined and have gone over some interesting reads so far! I have been following the Transgender Guide on twitter and if you tweet then we should follow each other if you would like to be friends with me! But anyway, that led me here and so here I am :] A bit about myself.. I am 24 and I am of hispanic / icelandic descent. I am a professional web designer / developer and run my own web firm. I am always doing garage projects and am currently tied to building my own transgender community website that is going to offer all types of resources and valuable info for those in t…

I read in a post that Annie wrote that a majority of TS are non-op. It may have said pre-op, but I was wondering if the majority are pre-op or non-op? When I first visited here, i assumed that most were post-op, but learned this was not true. I'm not sure that there are any post-op regular posters here, am i wrong? If you are a TS and will want to be with a straight male as partner, you would then *need* to go for SRS. Would that be a common reason for SRS, or are there deeper reasons that are different for some even though all should have been *born* female. I'm still learning! -Kim PS) I have to go for a magnification mammogram tomorrow, Dr said it's to err o…

See my latest photo Amie 5 months HRTToday I took a little extra time getting ready in the morning and thought I would take a picture of myself to show the progress on the hair removal. I have not shaved for over 3 months and I pluck sporatic hairs every other day. Initially My beard was so thick that I had to shave 2-3 times a day. I have very light sheer make-up on except for a little concealer on my blemishes and upper lip area. I will always need to deal with some shadow until completing electrolyis or possibly after years of plucking. i have not yet had any professional electrolysis. I am very impressed with the results I was able to achieve in only a couple …

I had an appointment with my endrocologist and he said he will give a referral for ANY procedure. I am still on cloud 9. After all these years of self loathing and doubt, of losing my job and getting divorced, of thinking that I was crazy or some k ind of pervert, I find out that I am not crazy or perverted and that that the light at the end of that tunnel is getting brighter. MY words keep running off the page so I'll get to hte end and say for everyone going thru this Keep your head up. Now the expensive stuff begins. A question. Would an orchide…

does anyone know what the statistics are for parents who accept their (adult) TS children vs. those who do not? example: "79% of parents accept thier child's transsexuality," or "Only 18% of parents are accepting of thier child's transsexuality." please include your source(s). thanks -michael

Hi everyone. I'm an 18 yr old mtf who's been on hrt for a little over 17 months. Some of y'all probably already knew that. I don't doubt that one day I'll get FFS and SRS, along with a good voice coach and some electrolysis, but it's what happens afterwards that I don't know about. Anyway, I'm in college and I'll likely graduate in 4 years. But, the thing is, I have no idea what to do with myself in life. I already know what I want -- friends and, if I'm lucky, a lover, but I see no prospects for me ever having either of those. I've been a loner since pre-school, and people don't ever let themselves come close to me. Now, I'm out about being TG, and I definitely…

there have been a few posts made in recent weeks about wives, and female partners and SOs. and it dawned on me that while women are more likely to be accepting of TG/TS individuals...heterosexual and homosexual women react differently in relationships. some heterosexual women make it quite clear they want nothing to do with their MTF partners. they want the "man" they married, or the "woman" can get the hell out. and then there seem to be quite a few very accepting wives, who've decided to stay and build a new and/or different relationship. they stay with their MTF spouses despite the fact that these women are not lesbians, knowing that is probably how the outside…

I'm having kind of a tough time right now. I have to go off of my hormones in preparation for surgery. I've been off of them for about four days now and I'm really starting to feel tense. It's like I have all of this pent up destructive energy that's tearing me apart from the inside. I'm just plain angry for no reason and it's driving me nuts! Does anybody have any advice on how to get through this? I can't relax, I certainly can't sleep, and I'm having violent fantasies about beating up local gangsters (who I ironically despise because they are violent). This is just not good. I don't know how long I can put up with this.

Hello all! As I'm a new member here, it's high time for me introducing myself. I'm Sophie Taylor, or just Sophie. I'm from Hungary so it's the English version of my name, but it sounds much better than in Hungarian. I'm pharmacist by my profession so probably I'll meddle in topics of medication, hormones and such. If you have any questions about medicines just ask me, I'll try to help. Although registered names can change country by country, Internet helps to find out the active agent so I can tell some details then. Probably I can't reply quickly every time, so please, be patient. My main priority now is finishing my Ph.D. studies. This together with my day-to-day…

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“COMING OUT TG” Hi I’m Georgia. I am a Trans Gender person, and to be more clear, Bi-gender, and Bi –Sexual. This means I can appear as male, female, or a combination of both. I can have sexual desire for male, female or any combination of gender orientation. I am in a most wondrous relationship, and am totally monogamous, mating for life like the swans, or at least I have attempted to all of my life, but my former partners would eventually throw me out of the nest thinking I was an ugly duckling, whereas my swan-ness had not yet “come out”. I will turn 60 years old shortly and am beginning the process and getting the courage up to be “coming out” as my TG Self a bi…

I discovered about six years ago I did not have any sperm. Last year I began trying to ascertain the possible causes of this condition. One of the possibilities seemed to be Kleinfelter's syndrome, as I seemed to exhibit in much of my life some, but certainly not most, of symptoms associatd with this condition. A lab test last summer confirmed I did not have Kleinfelter's. However, it was discovered my Y chromosome had two copies of the short arm and some loss from the long arm, which resulted in me being infertile from birth. Neither the physican who prescribed the lab test, a gender therapist I went to last summer nor a genetics specialist who later contact…

Hi All, Just wanted to follow up on the post I made a few days ago. I came out to my sisters and brother. Well, my sisters took it well and even my one sister said she was proud of me that I had the courage to do it! She has also said she would love to help me with any makeup tips, clothing, ect. My Brother took it bad and refuses to talk to me. My best friend since 2nd grade has really been suportive he and his wife have really supported me and they are looking forward to see Kellie coming along! Also even though my wife and I are getting a divorce, she said she will be one of my closiest friends and even made the comment that if I was to get married as a post-op that…