Male to Female (MtF) Transsexual Discussion

That's right friends, my name is now legally Carla Michelle B*******. Yay! The hearing for my name change was yesterday at 9am. I was up at 5am. lol Nervous much? More excited, really. The hearing lasted all of 10 minutes. All of my paper-work was in the Jude's hands. I swore to tell the truth. He asked how long I'd been a resident (near 6 years) and if I'd ever been convicted of a felony or misdemeanor (nope). There was lots of shuffling of papers and scribbling. I stood there quietly, still as a statue wearing 1 inch heels, nice fitted jeans, a light blue blouse with diagonal stripes of white and (very thin) silver, a water bra (leave *no* doubt), an hour's …

Hi girls! I'm a 15 year old transgender from the United States, and I have some questions about the dangers of estrogen. I've been taking spiro for about 8-9 months on and off (I turned 15 a couple of months ago). Like, I'll stop for a week or two because I run out and order more. I'm going to start estrogen in about a week. I don't know how to get medical help. Would a doctor just help me for free? And is 1mg safe?

Hi Girls, I have a swimming pool-issue. It's like over 90 degrees in Bangkok and every time I look down from my balcony I see this fabulous swimming pool in the garden and I really want to have a swim. Actually, it's never busy at the pool, though there must be like 500 people living in this building, but I have no idea what to wear when I want to have a swim. For a month or so I go out into the world as a girl. That is, I don't really dress very differently from what I was used to or use make up (because of my long hair and feminine face/body people already assume I am a girl). It's interesting, because before, I would leave my home thinking: I am a feminine boy, but …

hi, Lately i've been quite interested in the subtle differences between male faces and female ones and as such have been noticing that females tend to have fuller lips than males. do hormones have much effect on lips? or am I stuck with my really thin ones lol

For those of you not familiar, that's a "Partial Hospitalisation Program". In practical terms, it's a 7 hour per day, five day per week, program of intensive therapy. This should last for 2 weeks. There might be an additional 2 weeks of half days also - "Intensive Outpatient" in the hospital's terminology. The reason I'm there is because my depression is bad enough that I can barely get out of bed in the morning, eat, or bathe. Suffice it to say that seeing my psychologist once every two weeks, and taking my meds, wasn't enough by itself. Things just kept getting worse and worse. This is good though. It provides structure that I desperately need, and active th…

So, it seems like things are going a little better with money lately and I was thinking of trying to open a discussion with my wife again and bring up the possibility of my starting hormones. We don't have any insurance whatsoever. Does anyone know how much I should expect to pay or if there are any online companies (legitimate) that would be cheaper than the local pharmacy?

I have been lurking here, and on other tg related message boards for several months now. It feels so strange to finally post somewhere, I guess, this is a major milestone, as I have never communicated with anyone about my condition, ever. I'm just going to rant, I hope someone reads this, this boards seems pretty dead. There have been a few big changes in my life that have forced me to re-examine myself. I just turned 24. I went through a bad breakup. But mostly, a friend of mine recently came out as transgendered. In-fact, she had been taking hormones for over a year, and I was going to say something anyway it was becoming very obvious. She seems to be doin…

I went to the post office to pick up a registered mail package today The lady said, can I see your drivers license? I said sure, here's my license. (keep in mind I haven't updated my legal stuff yet to have my new girl name, or new girl pic yet, but will soon) The lady at the counter said: well, this is all very nice, but who are you? I need to see your drivers license. LMAO. I said, well, that is me, for a little bit longer until I get all of my legal paperwork changed. She said, Oh my goodness, I am so sorry, you look great, I didn't even suspect anything at all. She apologized, went and got the package After she came back,. we talked f…

Im 17 years old. Im going into my Senior Year of High School. I have been small all my life. I often felt inferior to my fellow Students. i attend a private high school just for males. I was a late bloomer and still to this day people think i am in grammer school. I can relate to females more then my fellow man. Sometimes i think to my self why i am not a female. i often find my self fantasizing on the possibility of being a women. I also find my self very sloppily applying make up and i sometimes cross dress. I Really like female clothing and i have a sense of color then most men do not have. Unless my parents did not tell me something im fully a male. Sear…

Like the topis says im TS mtf and im in a 12 step program. the thing is i live in a very conservative town and know of no other transgendered people who are in recovery. im struggling with how spirituality relates to my struggle with my soul not matching my body. Id appreciate any feedback on being transgendered and having spirituality weather youre in a 12 step program or not. thanks =) <3 Allie Jay

I found this to be pretty interesting. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phytoestrogens http://www.dietaryfiberfood.com/phytoestrogen.php Phytoestrogens are chemicals produced by plants that act like estrogens in animal/"+human" cells and bodies. They are often trace substances in food, and can also be found in cannabis. These chemicals mimic and supplement the action of the body's own hormones, estrogen (the British spelling is 'oestrogen'). They are a comparatively recent discovery, and researchers are still exploring the nutritional role of these substances in such diverse metabolic functions as the regulation of cholesterol, and the maintaining of proper bone densit…

My wife finally admitted to lying about me committing sexual abuse to her, I feel so relieved, god I just want to cry. She confessed to my father and to her solicitor after he said to her, if this is a lie then you will get found out eventually, so it looks like her nerve went, I mean a person who lies about stuff like that to me should carry the same sentence for committal of the act, but anyway. Just glad that the truth has come out. I have an appointment with my Solicitor on Monday so we see where we go from there. Hugs Melanie x

Does anyone have much experience or advice on how to help older children of those who proceed with transition, in terms of providing them with a positive role model of the gender no longer "represented" in the family? Some of us might see the parents' genders are irrelevant; and yes, I do think a best outcome is two parents who love and can show love effectively to their children, regardless of gender. Still, children are developing and looking for role models of both genders. A traditional family provides one female adult role model and one male adult role model. Regardless of my issues, my children still view me (currently, not knowing of my situation) as the male…

Hi Everyone, I am a MtF currently living on the east coast. My lease is up here in 6 months, so late September of this year. I'm early in my transition but expect HRT progress will make this area unsupportive on many fronts soon thereafter. For that reason, I'm considering relocating to PDX. I lived in Eugene for several years so I spent some time in Portland. It seems like a very Trans-friendly city relatively from what I've read. I'd really, really appreciate anyone's advice or opinions on this plan including: - How trans-friendly is Portland? - What neighborhoods in the city or in the outskirts are most accepting and safe? - Therapist recommendations? - …

Goodday Everybody, I am new to this forum. I have lived half my life keeping my gender-variety a secret to everyone, fearing rejection and discrimination. I pass well (pleased with size of hands, head, hair, body and feet). Generally I am doing fine and face very few problems. Only very few close friends know about my being a transwoman and they also know that I live in stealth. If there is one thing that might give me away is my voice. I have had years of vocal training, and although I do not sound like the average man, my voice is deeper than the average female voice, especially when I am tired or after giving long lectures. Because of my work and active social life,…

This was a hard weekend. On Friday, my wife and I had a wonderful time while the kids were away -- but the prior nights had included two-hour fights and that night we finally got to the stage where I openly was very clear about moving ahead with everything, unless something drastically changed. It killed me to say it out loud and be 100% committed to it, but there it was. The rest of the weekend has been her asking questions on and off; attending a family event Sunday where she was internally very sad and upset but had to put on a happy face for all the relatives (not very good for her ), and today some crying spells. I feel like we have turned a corner and I ha…

Ok so again, I feel timid to post since my last time speaking I did more than just put my foot in my mouth. Even though my initial point came out wrong, I have since realized that I hold myself to some pretty rediculous standards in hope that it will keep me grounded in the reality that, well, passable or not, my life will often be met with adversity and skepticism from others. I found that not only did my views that not BEING a genetic woman somehow devalidated my womanhood, when applied here, offended many people (and rightly so) but that I also realized much of my shame and agony that I internalized was from *ascribing* to such generalizations. Before I begin this p…

I am currently 20 and plan to go on hormones before or by my 21st birthday. I know the earlier the better for HRT in terms of passibility and overall effects. I was wondering if anyone could tell me 1. at the age of 21 would hormones have a very positive effect? 2. What are the early effects and when would i expect to start feeling/seeing them? 3. From any experience, i know i wont look 100% like a girl, but assuming my body excepts hormones well at this age how well will it effect my passibilty/look of femininity? 4. How long does it take for your body to over come the "T" and really become accustom to the estrogen? 5. What effect/what will happen to eja…

hi i am racheal and i have chosen to become female and live my life as a full woman im seeking any useful help you can offer me in supportof my choice

hey everyone.. ive been on hrt for almost 5 weeks coming up and ive got some changes and im happy about that. but yes im being paranoid cuz really i havent lost much muscle at all almost nothing.. in the next few years i know it will go away but will the hrt actually make the muscle shrink to female proportions.. i know i cant change my bones, but i can change the muscle and fat areas with hormones right? if anyone knows help is welcome jesslyn:)

I just recently got started on Hormones :-D, but I've only been on them for three days. Now I know they say you shouldn't notice any real physical changes till 6-8 weeks on hormones. Now I'm not particularly overweight but I have some fat on me, and it seems like a little fat has redistributed to what will soon be my breast area. Definately no tissue growth but it seems like my nipples are a little more sensitive and there's a little more fat there...is this possible or am I imagining things?

Err, I guess I was spelling that wrong! (whoops) I found this video (they're not shy with showing the surgery, so, if that makes you queasy, avoid it) on Yahoo about the subject. I was sort of amused looking at the video of the guy who was going in for surgery. I was just like.. wait.. is that the "before"? *Looking down* I thought it was funny too that they mentioned "blood pressure medication". I was just like.. hmm.. yep.. I know what that probably is.. :)

On two occasions, I have had what I refer to as 'transsexual feelings'. My journey toward the transsexual conundrum has begun. Last year in June I declared myself as a transgenderist. I felt equality comfortable as masculine and feminine. A few days after that declaration I had the transsexual feelings. Fast forward to June of this year and those feelings came again only stronger this time. The feelings happened again a week or so ago. When I came out as a cross dresser over five years ago, I felt a kinship with transsexuals. I had two incidents which may explain what I'm feeling. I was ma'amed by a man while coming out of a store. I was dressed in male clothi…

I've been watchng a TV show lately about how humans evolved etc etc. This got me thinking to where Transpeople come in to evolution. I mean we must be here for a reason, if we served no purpose evolution/Natural selection would have discarded us a long time ago, but it seems transpeople have always been here for tens of thousnds of years, even in the most ancient of tribes we see trans people. Anyway thanks guys/girls for your replies, just a real mind boggler Melanie xx

Hi Girls, Reading about the family problems of Chen Ming, I almost feel hesitant to write about my own situation. The things I am experiencing seem insignificant compared to his. I spoke to my parents on the phone for nearly an entire minute. I wanted to tell them about my plans to start HRT at the end of the month and the appointment I made with one of the best SRS surgeons in Thailand. They weren’t interested. They said they were too busy to speak to me. Fortunately, Pantau wasn't too busy to see me and we spent some significant time together. These days I identify with transsexuals and I start to feel upset if anyone consider transsexuals to be freaks. Opening up…