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Wow, just about ten months since my reassignment surgery. In no special order somethings I have noticed. Yes I admit this, have gained 20LB since December when I was weighed last. My doctor said it's the hormones. So without hesitation I started running for 45 minutes each day and completely cut out anything one would consider food that encourages weight gain. The nice thing (if there is any) is that the weight is evenly distributed because if nothing else I still fit into my clothes and only really feel it slightly in my legs. My goal over the next six months is to lose not only the 20LB but another 10LB. A nice thought, while getting my nails done this week one of the girls there said I rocked it with my outfit last time I was in. I admitted to her about my weight gain and she said you look fine for your height and would not worry about your weight sigh, give that girl a hug.Last year at this time I would always put on jeans or leggings for the weekend day but now have changed to tights and shirts, for me at least they are much easier to do when I am lazy. Speaking lazy, I mentioned this before but will again, after work and not planning to go out I disrobe and go about my business in my underwear, something as a male I would never dream of.My emotions were never all over the place like I hear from some who are transitioning or have transitioned, still waiting for it but has not happened. Perhaps (and thinking what my doctor said two years ago) it's because I mastered to some degree my emotions be it good or bad or it's how I was made and raised. Sure I get emotional from time to time and sometimes can not control them but that is once in a blue moon. This morning I was watching a movie and yes the tears came rolling down my face so yes the hormones are surely working.Genital stuff, not much going on inside my vagina but boy or boy is there a lot going on with my clit, there are times when I can't keep my hand off it and times when a partner will take advantage of me while pleasuring me. Marci Bower's assistant told me that don't expect much going on inside and that it takes 10 to 12 months to see. So I believe I have enough there, could had more but heck I am happy as a clam with what I got woohoo.I never have to think about things like "is my voice okay" or "does my attire suit someone of my age". Speaking of age I am 59 and passing for 45-50 which is great.I decided that even though my voice is acceptable voice lessons are going to be done starting in a few weeks. There is a good deal going on in that department to pass with tone and resonance plus a tad more. I am fortunate to have found someone close by that has experience with male to female clients.Still not into wearing makeup but do love a nice perfume. Yes permanent cosmetics for eyeliner and brows was one of the best decisions I have made.More electrolysis, I am so done with shaving underarms so I am having them done.Passing and being made, distant fleeting words. Over the past year or so nobody has given me a look like "male or female".Have not lost any friends over the past few months and actually had two co-workers who did not talk to me for around four months now making conversation with me with them starting it "What".I am sure there are things I am missing, sure hit the publish button and they will come screaming out, go figure. So there you have it, spilling out the good and bad, it's good to get things out into the open if not for peace of mind but to let others know and if it happens to you it's okay but please don't hold it inside as it will only hurt thinking about bad things. Now off to do my daily run and day dream about an attractive female I am having fun with recently and questionable thought about a new male friend on Facebook.

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I really don’t get it, over the past year men send me friend request on Facebook that are looking to date. Guess may be (not really) it partly my fault, should have a banner saying “Hey I was male but now female” in that I have no desire to date men but will admit to having a fling with one is just fine, otherwise I am on the other end of the spectrum, lesbian with a smidgen of bi . When I was male and wanted to date a female I first make sure she was into men on her profile and was not currently dating someone. Seems that the men who ask for friend request never think to look at a woman’s preference in regards to does she like men, woman or perhaps both. Instead they seem to simply come back with something like the following which I got today. Him: I was searching for old friends here and came across your picture and have to say you are beautiful. Now stop there, I consider myself average or below average in looks so don’t give me that kind of talk. Keeping with the above I came right back at him and said “I was born male and now female”, I am mostly into woman. I thought it would stop there but he comes back without saying anything about me once being male and says “So are you available, I would love to take you on a date”. Me: Just to make this clear, you got the part about I was male. Him: Thanks for telling me, I did read that and was taken back for a second or two but you are now female now right? So I am still interested, no need to bring up your past unless you truly want too. So I replied back (truthfully) that I was heading off with a sports car club for a morning ride. He comes back and says okay. So I stopped the chatting but thought to myself (yes I am lesbian/bi) God he is handsome, I would be a fool not to give him a chance but need to exchange more email messages first to get a handle on him.

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I think this is the most honest article i`ve yet read... thankyou for sharing .. xx

Thank you for sharing your story...

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Thank you for revealing some of the things you have gone through in a manner that is touching, to say the least. I really do not have the words to express what I mean. I hope things get better for you.

Hi Cindy, We all need to be courageous in order to fulfill our dreams in order to turn them into reality. Keep on going and do not let anyone get in your way. Always remain an optimist. Love and Admiration, ladianalisa

Cindy thanks for putting it in words thought i felt the pain n pressures of life on you. It really puts transitioning girls like me on guard and to think about setting things in order before the changes...well i ve been thinkin about it and i feel each girls situation is unique and each of us like u say ought to take it at a time and move on...Really happy that you moved to MT and living better there without the abuses n others...and i m sure you will get ur breast augmentation and others on u in time. Hope is a good thing !! dont let go of it...i suggest you put out a advert online in someplaces for help with ur profile and attitude i m sure you will have the goodness showered on you !! with love and kisses, kavita

Yes, I did. I moved to MT, but I am in ND more then I am anyplace else, I love it up here. No one knows what I am, and its difficult not to try to meet someone, but i cannot let anyone know. All in all, I love it up here. Thank you for the blog post and please, message me anytime.

Hello Cindy: I must say that it was a rather interesting story but just keep you head up and continue with your journey towards womanhood. Maybe what you need is a complete change of scenery where you can start a new life and where no one knows you. It may difficult to leave family and friends behind but you should look into relocating some where else. Wishing you all the best - - -ART.