Bree, I love NyQuil, at least when I have a cold! Such a wonderful way to drift off into lala land... What a treat when one feels so crappy. I'm delighted to hear that you and Nikki are doing so well. You are so right that Nikki's revelations and discoveries are affecting you as much or more than for him. You deserve and want warm hugs too. I think you're both right now in kind of a whirlwind. For Nikki it's such a tremendous relief to be accepted and not rejected. For you, maybe kind of the same although also on edge about what is right both for him and for you. I think what you will find is that over time you will both settle back into some more comfortable patterns. Maybe a bit different than before but comfortable nonetheless. So hold on tight to each other while also trusting that you'll be fine. I have a good feeling about you two. Warm hugs and NyQuil, Emma