Wow Dana, thank you for sharing this insightful struggle. Being transgender is a tough road and we all have to find our way through the complications, especially relating to family. I found that having a strong support network including my therapist, mother, friends and a local TG support group helped me work through the maze. Online resources weren't even available at that time. It was one step at a time and sometimes the going got tough, but it worked out pretty well in the end. My best wishes for you. I hope you have the support you need.