Will these feelings of emptiness quit when fully through transition or do they still persist , does it mean I loose who I am or is it simply a apart of me ..... I look in the mirrow and there I see myself but then again I am gone again in an instant where do I go why must I leave ... So many questions in lfe so few answers .... The time I live without feelings and thoughts scares me will I loose my caringness and empathy for myself and humanity .... No I wont I haven't yet and dont truelly believe I ever will at least I hope I dont if I do then I as a person am lost as well ....unable to feel is a scary time Usually when it is over I fall pre to deep anxiety and depression the weight once again crushing down on my chest and heart at times unbearable , but I over come their forces and manage to make it to tomorrow , Why do you suppose this happens is it the coping mechanism we all have within our selves or is it some thing else.....
Constant Highs and Lows takes a toll on us all but how we deal with them is individual , I try to ride them out anticipating the good times returning to me , the time they take seem to be farther and fewer between but I wait with angxt for I know they will come eventually , I work my mind so heavily I suppose it needs to restart from time to time ... its always on so I guess its a good thing that it has some down time to reboot .... My ponderances and daily workings take a toll on it so good for it take the time rest and come back refreshed and ready to start again... I accept this and have learned to expect it I just wonder does it make me better or worse ?
Away to sleep.....
Quiet and weak ....
I take a break ...
I leave my cares behind ....
I rest within ....
Caring no more ...
Caring no less ...
I loose myself ...
I find a place ...
A place to rest ...
Come again I will ...
Return with you I shall ...
But for now ....
I rest ....
S.P.
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