Dawn13

Hello Cristi, Glad to have you in the group. I see you visited my page. You have great photos posted. Best Wishes. Dawn13 in Germany

Hello Bonnie, I was going to send you a message about second life - Let me know when you can receive mail?

Hello Bonnie,

I will publish several of my recent dress shots this evening. Thanks for your comments.

Dawn13

Have spring fever - Been away a while - I see there have been many changes - Hoping all the best for everyone.

Have been following all the Jenner news.  This has stirred some of my recent thinking.  What is the core of why we have our feelings and want so much to change.  I think there is a certain desire to see ourselves as beautiful.  Women express this better than almost all men.  When I put on a dress I feel changed.  When I see other men I see most of them as lazy/unkempt, fat/heavy and scuzzy.  This is the excepted image of most men.  I do not fit this image and I know I am stared at a lot by other men, usually in restrooms, who do not expect a beautiful looking man.  When I look beautiful (Handsome) day-to-day, I am often mistaken for a girl, even when in unisex or masculine clothing.  I usually do not go out of my way but I am well groomed, very tan, fit and now have longer styled blond hair.  I think some of why I wish I could change is rooted in the concept of beauty - and if men could also be beautiful in what is currently a woman's norm early in life - I think fewer would be unhappy with their body image and fewer would want to change.  Here is another thought.  I think is more acceptable to be changed completely into a woman than it is to dress and adorn ones self in a similar fashion.  Yes, I would love to wear a colorful attractive dress and show off my small waist and still not try to hide that I have a somewhat feminine looking male body.  However, I feel less anxiety when I go through the complete effort of hiding any maleness as I look completely like a woman.  Also, I actually feel safer in woman mode as I do not see myself as a homosexual; not wishing for men to lust for me in this fashion.

Got to 140 last week - Only a couple pounds to go. Losing weight seems to take forever.

Glad to hear you got a job. I too am a Christian. I wish you the best. Dawn13

First June Thought - Spring weather now! Went running as a girl yesterday. Wore cap sleeve shirt & run shorts,hair in a pony-tail. Really felt the wind on my shaved legs

Second May Thought - Got called ma'am yesterday - driving through a gate - not trying to look like a girl but still do

Ears just pierced, wearing two small Zirconium ones - Hard to believe I waited 6 decades to get this done - What a feeling of freedom.

Early August - Called ma'am yesterday - The guard corrected himself when he heard my voice. Riding in bike day tomorrow.

End of July - Rainy today - Ready to wear my women's Levi 519s stretch jeans today to all of my outings.

First July Thought -Almost Summer - Still cool here - Got a new vintage leotard yesterday - Just love the colors and the nylon feel.

d18,

Glad you have joined the group. I see you visited my page. Have a great day and best wishes. Dawn13

Called a lady at a running expo - I think both my hair and body contributed to the comment as I was wearing normal male clothing.

Bonnie, (I tried to send this in a message to you but was bocked)

I want you to know I am thinking of you and your family. If we never meet in SL - but you worked out things with your family - it would be OK - Actually great! If there is anything I can do let me know. Dawn13

Bonnie if you get a chance to log in to SL - I asked if you would be my friend.

Amie,

Look at my post to your Photo experience Blog. Sub: Suggestions about my bikini shoot. Cheers.

Amie, let me know if you have a name in Second Life. I could add you as a friend and maybe we can meet there. See my latest post in SL.

AmazingCKLOve,

Welcome to the group. I too have similar feelings and experiences. Please feel free to view my profile and you can know me better. What is the CK? part of your name if you can tell me. Writing from Germany - as the snow is falling outside.

A new name this weekend - Called "Babe" by one of the life guards as I was heading for the pool.  My hair was in a pony tail and I was in red biking outfit.

A little about myself – Part 1

I am a happy male who has been mistaken, even wearing male clothes, as a girl most of my life. Several doctors and other people in the know have told me I have a feminine bone structure and body characteristics. A few years ago, I took female hormones and had some laser hair removal. I have since stopped those treatments.

Wow wearing a corset today -  It has been quite a while since I tried one of my corsets on and now that I am losing more weight again I am quite happy with the fit.

Side note,  I just had a massage and leg wax, two days ago, and my therapist told me my "thin" legs would be the envy of many of the women she does as she made my legs bikini ready, smooth and silky, and she really noticed I had lost weight; called me "stick" person. She also noticed my arms were much smaller.  (definitely smaller, more feminine and less muscular than hers)

Anyway - So I have a wonderful size 28" corset - Today as I schinced it down I started at about 32" waist and to get to 29.25" was the best I could do.  Still really does change my figure a lot.  Photo below.  Wearing my new Sweetheart Leotard. I have gone about half way now in losing weight to my goal of 138.  I am quite sure I will be able to make the 28" corset size when I get there.  Yes looking more feminine every day and loving it.

Went in to a Horton's yesterday and the woman there said to me and my wife "how are you doing ladies."  I was dressed a bit feminine but not overly so.  Still being coded almost daily as a woman and I really an not trying to go out of my way to make myself look like a woman.  Dawn

Was jogging with two of my girl friends last Saturday.  And a middle aged lady drove up by us and said she said to us "glad to see three pretty college girls out running" was "proud of us" for running.  (Yes, I was one of the three) 

Was described as a "beautiful ... lady" last week by a waitress at a restaurant I was at in Florida.  I did not even have any makeup on.  Here is a recent photo of me with my own hair, near the time of this neat encounter.

Update on the herbals supplement effect - My wife mentioned that my breasts had really expanded and were now a "hand full" as she touched them yesterday and that my hair has grown to reach the bottom of my shoulder blades.  What I have noticed the most lately is I appear much softer and more rounder lately. My weight is still holding about 160 (Still want to get rid of 15 pounds) but where the weight has moved into my hips and breasts and a layer of softness overall is what I notice the most.  Dawn Wearing a blond wig below but you can see my softer more feminine body. 

Tomorrow I return to my normal unisex life.  I have had a great time on this last trip to Florida.  My greatest fun was my time on the beach but I also had great fun at the stores and restaurants I went too as I was addressed as "mam" and "lady" at most of these locations.  These encounters really helped me to embrace myself and how I felt.  It was really liberating the feelings of freedom I felt. At the beach, I was at ease the whole time, aware of my form fitting swimsuit and my tuck made me have the ultimate feminine shape, aware of my long hair as the wind caught it, aware of my shaved and lotioned body, aware of my woman shadow/sillowet on the beach; knowing I was being looked at and coded as a female by all around me.  Yes, I was sure I was passing.  As I walked over a mile on the beach I felt deep feelings and the feeding of my woman inside.  I was quite natural in my walk and most of the dozens of beach walkers I passed would wave or say, "good morning" or "hello." There I was just another somewhat pretty older woman walking on the beach with a slight arm swing and lifted sway in her hips.  I also collected some shells and tested the water for swimming. I did get in knee deep but the water was really cold.  For the walk I had just purchased a really nice swimsuit cover-up.  Because of this, I did fit in quite well with those around me as it was cool 60's and as I mentioned the water was fridged.  Thanks Monica for this great idea of the cover garment.  The cover up I bought fit loosely and was almost a beach dress. With this on I really was able to be myself  - natural and confident and I am sure this is why I appeared to pass so well.

I did get a little bit of attention, however. There were some work men who I know were looking me over, my feminine radar could sense l was being checked out.  One of them actually called me to get my attention twice.  Because I was on the other side of a work barrier I was able to keep my distance and not respond to his advance.  

My favorite portion of my 2+ hours of beach time was laying/sitting on my towel and soaking 🌞.  I had a sea gull buddy that stayed about 10 feet away and just hung out with me the whole time.  There were several joggers who went by the "sun babe"  - they all looked and I looked back - they smiled and moved on.  We were all having a wonderful day at the beach. Dawn

I took several dozen photos and will share them soon - sample one below.