Markita

On Saturday I gathered the courage and showed my daughter Markita.  I knew she was ok with it because she told me she was, but wow I didn't expect how welcoming my daughter was toward me as Markita.  After she gave me a huge stamp of approval, we chatted about how long it takes to become Markita, what type of clothing do I like. My daughter even had me model my entire wardrobe of woman's cloths. Just glad that right now I don't have many - else I would still be modeling them for her.  She wanted to see all my wigs and the bob-cut gray haired wig is her favorite, but funny it's my least favorite.  We both agreed on the should length brown wig I have and I wore that for most of the day with her.  After I was done modeling for her, we just sat down and did our usual stuff we do every time she visits me just like nothing was different.  I got to say when I had to change back into Mark, she got upset because she did not want to see Markita go.  Once I changed back into my male clothes and went back downstairs to be with my daughter she jokingly said, "Dad where have you been?  You missed seeing Markita". That brought out a good laugh for me and for my kiddo.

Then Sunday night I had the talk with the girlfriend and it was decided to not go any further with our relationship.  She is a strict catholic and believes that whatever sex you were borne is the sex you should stay.  She asked that if I was to fully transition would I like guys or women and I said I more than likely will like women.  She then said she could not deal with that because she is straight and could not be with another woman.  Honestly I am not sure how I feel.  On one hand I do feel relived that we talked and came to a conclusion; however, on the other I am upset because I caused my significant other heartbreak (as she put it)and I am fairly sure I will be doing the same to others who are not able to accept that I am trans.  

About an hour after ending the relationship with the GF I got a call from my very good friend and he asked me if I had a secret about cross-dressing and I am not sure how he found out because I never told him and this is the only web site I post as Markita and I am sure he does not visit this web site.  He in passing did mention a video where I went away but then came back as Markita but I cannot find this video anywhere and if I did make one, i am pretty sure I would remember it so for now it is a mystery how he figured it out.

I didn't lie to him in fact I said yes I do and he said that he was ok with it.  To be honest he was one of my friends who I thought for sure would not be able to handle it and would want to break off our friendship but to find out he really doesn't care was the lift I needed after breaking up with my GF.

After carrying this secret of mine around for so long and finding people who are alright with it, is giving me the courage to tell others even though they may feel more like my Ex-GF rather than my daughter and very good friend.  All in all... not a bad weekend.