Another journal entry I would like to share.
William had taken over the last few days and we went downhill. I could not break through until early this morning. Finally I rested back control. I had to reaffirm my femininity.
I am a female,
I embrace being female,
I love all things feminine.
I kept repeating this mantra for a few minutes after I woke up, before I got out of bed. My mood lifted immediately.
These are critical emotions for me to understand.
If William takes to much control and suppresses me we go into a funk and if I let that funk continue it will quickly turn into full blown depression, that blackness comes and with it the dark thoughts, we cease to live and simply exist
It is only when I take control that we come alive again. It is only I as Elsa do we
become whole, depression lifts and my thoughts are bright and well
It is only as by me being female that I live and not simply exist.
I take great heart that when I take over and William fades we become a more complete person and I know that being female is the right path.