Dawn13

Hello Monica, You mentioned a while back you thought my bra size should be a B; larger than the A+ bra I was wearing above, just a year ago.  As of just last week, I tried this bra on again and I am now larger.  Most noticable = increased breast size on the sides.  I am still growing and I thought I was done.  Slow and sutile but expanding. I actually like this surprise. Dawn

Thanks - Actually this photo was taken in Flagstaff AZ.  One of our overnight stops in route to the wedding in Berkeley CA

My trip to CA for the wedding was awesome.  Over three quarters of the clothes I took with were women's.  And the rest were unisex. I presented as unisex or as a woman most of the week. The conversations were wonderful.  It was quickly apparent that all at the gathering knew I was transgender.  (OK - One person thought I was gay as this was how he understood who I was. Still was a very open group and I was not the only one there - there was also at least one transexual - was a very supportive and understanding group) I will have a detailed report with some of the great photos of me taken at the wedding. (One quick pick of one of my jogging excursions attached)

Thanks Monica - you are so supportive.  Here is my latest life update.  Firstly, I have really enjoyed lately getting new clothing items as I am able to get a good fit in more women's items than ever.  Just yesterday, trying to go boy mode to the pool, I put on a old men's swimming training suit I had and I could barely get my hips in them. I know they used to be my larger go-to men's suit.  My wife and I are now getting me new women's jeans as all of my male jeans no longer fit.  Don't think my waist is much smaller - but my hips. wow! I will have to measure soon.  I am thinking 42 inches now.  Second big news, I will be going as a woman to an upcoming wedding in LA CA.  I have already put together the pant suit I will be wearing. (Is actually kind of unisex looking but all of the parts are women's wear.  Also, fortunate for me there will be several transgender relatives and friends there, so it should be a safe trip for me.  --- Yesterday I was called one of the ladies at a local restaurant - this now happening to me every day.  More soon and as always thinks.. Dawn

Recently finished a lip filler procedure to finish all of the first round of facial improvements. (So far I have done about 10 procedures) For my lips, it was hard to believe these are my lips, so sexy looking, as they are now about 1/3 larger. One more Botox treatment and my facial treatments will be completed until refreshing next year.  Then, I have done every major treatment for the face that Ideal Image provides.  The results will be most evident in the next three weeks.  Photo time then.  --- Today I was called mam while waiting in line at Lowe's.  Then I answered the door today and the service man thought I was the wife of the house. (This one I had to clarify)  I normally do not correct anyone anymore.  Just go with the flow that I am typed as a woman. Yeah!

Thanks Monica,  I wear women's athletic shoes mostly as my foot is very narrow; yes actually is the shape of a woman's.  This is true throughout my body.  I have almost the entire bone structure of a woman, (extremely small hands, knee and hip displacement of a woman, small feminine sized and shaped skull, arm length matches a woman's) and if I had not gone through male puberty likly my hips would have never closed so I could have had a baby structurally.  These are the reasons I think I am intersexed.  Something happened to me in the womb.  My brain is a woman's brain and my body stayed mostly female.  Well I am more in-line to this self now.  Again Thanks.  Dawn

My favorite photo from my photo shoot yesterday - Yes a lady said I "looked cute."

True - I never thought other men could scare me - but just a few days ago - a man in a passing car shouted at me and told me wanted me.  I am sure it was not what I would have wanted.  Sadly, this is a new life experience I am not used too.  The more I have become feminine, I am guessing this will continue to be common when I am out but I wish this would not be the case.

Monica Thanks - I love having nice clothing to wear when I run.  I actually think a lot about making sure everything is coordinated and is comfortable to wear.  Because, I now weigh and have measurements close to an average/almost petite woman my height, I fit/can wear a lot of really nice feminine sportswear.  (Not woman style clothing modified for a male body - in fact I am a bit turned off by male lingerie sized for men) 

When I am out running, I am so concerned that I appear relaxed and that I do not show that I am nervous about what I am wearing.  I do feel like a woman and this is what I want those around me I encounter to feel - so I now avoid wearing necklines or bra tops that show off too much of my new development/cleavage.  Modest is better.  Better to have more coverage so I am not concerned about possible wardrobe malfunctions or too much concern about people speeding too much time looking at me and then maybe reading my gender.  So my persona is female and I am now living and experiencing it.

Monica - Thanks for the comment - I do feel very feminine lately when I run now. Almost every time I am out lots of whistles and comments.  I remember one not too long ago - someone commended me for being "a beautiful and fit runner."  These are comments that help me know that I am getting so much closer to where I want to be.

Another day of jogging, just being myself. Today I was jogging, wearing a blue bra tank top and women's; running shorts, Sun glasses, shoes and hat, near a construction site and a worker who was trying to make me turn back called me "Misses" two times as I told him that I could make it around the location without getting in their way.  I said "I can get safely around."  Still, as I did continue he and several other workers seemed to be staring at me.  Just tried to act normal but I did not want to have to go back away from the road they were closing down for traffic.  On another jog I had the below photo taken, from a few months ago; I finally had the courage to wear this pink running outfit on a 5 mile run and maybe it was too much pink, but I really liked the way the bra top and running skirt formed to my body shape. Dawn

Would love to do this - However,  I do not think I could do it while my wife is home.  She only partly supports the feminine body changes I have made.  She told me that she already sees me much more as a woman. but rather would not.  My wife was supportive for me going to a local counseling service for transgender people.  However, this along with everything else is currently closed.

Actually - I/we currently live in the Mid-West - But I/we used to live in Vancouver WA years ago and still own one Time Share in Redmond OR.

Hello Monica - Thanks for your comments - I did go ahead and order the blue suit also.  Size 12 - Will do a comparison when I get it in - you are so good at helping me with my best colors. 

Thanks Monica - I am concerned that my shoulders are still a bit large and that I need to have my hair flowing over my shoulders to better frame my face.  Still swimming in the ocean will change everything as I am sure as I get wet and covered with salt water.  And of course I do not want a suit malfunction.

I believe that Tractor is in the High Desert Museum?  I have a Time Share in Redmond. Small world.

Dawn

Thanks Monica - you are right Shapermint has some great styles.  I priced the same swimsuit and theirs was $160+ for the Oceanus style but I was able to get mine at less than 50% of this price at Rue Lala.  (Another great store.)  Still I signed up for discounts with Shapermint and I saw several great looking dresses and swimsuits. Thanks so much for helping me shop.  I am getting much better at this, but I still have a lot to learn about selecting the best clothing for myself as a woman.  However, I feel I have always had the artistic and feminine mind that enables me to enjoy shopping for beautiful things. Lately with these feelings I have had no problem shopping in the women's section in various stores, including trying on dresses and sportswear.  I have also moved away from just going to thrift shops to buying from better stores new items that makee feel good about my image.  Yes, my confidence as a woman has really grown lately, and I know part of this is occurring as my body now fits better with my feminine mind; has become more reshaped; softer and rounder.  For this trip because I have been a bit heaver than I wanted to be I decided wearing a 👙 bikini was not best for me, until I am back to 140 or less.  The swimsuit I just bought will help me cover up my belly and will be a good starting point for me for future days on the beach when I may be ready for a bikini in the future. When I go to Florida on this trip I will be alone most of the time and I will have several days I can totally be my feminine self.  I am looking forward to the freedom and being able to express myself as a woman for these days and I will be totally free to do my makeup and wear my best, yes sexy, beach wear - still I do not plan to go overboard wearing high hills and extravagant night wear.  I just want to blend in, be noticed as a woman, but not draw too much attention; not get too excited about this opportunity for fun as a girl.  Dawn 

My suit just arrived and it fits phonemically.  Other than my just being a little larger in the shoulders and having to do a small bit of a tuck, it flatters me greatly.  Because I have not been able to diet myself to 138 pounds I was concerned that I would look too fat in it.  I was almost in tears when I tried it on and saw myself in the mirror.  It really makes me look trim. Will post a photo/s when I have time.  I am planning a day at the beach in Florida next month and I hope to get to swim in the ocean in this suit.  The Miracle suit really does what it says.  See attached Tag.  Dawn

If I like it I may also order the blue.  Thanks

I was just thinking back today about how confident I was after having this particular salon makeover.  With only adding a bit of lip gloss I felt like a woman all day and went out and walked around the farmers market knowing that in everyone's mind they only saw a lovely woman.  In fact I barely noticed anyone checking me out at all.  I was just blending in and I was not nervous at all that I would/could possibly be mis-read as a male.  It is days like these that make me wish I could be a woman forever.

Thanks - you made my day - I really try to find clothing that coordinates well and is not too sexy to draw out too much attention/notice.  Always concerned I am not overly noticeable; that I just fit in.  Also, about my smile. I am finally out of my braces - first time in over a year. I so appreciate your comments about how attractive I look.

I was not wearing this blouse at the time, just women's sportswear and I always wear a bra now as my breasts are now size B+.  Have some great photos from the trip I will post soon.

Did we fix this?

Hello Lori - the site was off line for a few days and when it came back on I could not load photos again; into the albums.  Is there a new clue that I need?  Dawn

Having problems loading photos again - Dawn  Photo I am trying to add attached.