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Emma: I am really glad to hear that you have found a medicine that works for you.
I have a lot of problems finding medicines that work for me too. some time ago I was diagnosed with narcolepsy, but all the stimulants that they tried for me would work for a short few weeks and then loose effectiveness, but a couple of months ago she finally prescribed one that works pretty well. At first it caused my mind and body to go super fast. I would just keep busy, busy,busy and wouldn't stop to eat or drink.
Finally it leveled out and I'm on a ,somewhat, normal schedule.
A lot of medicines don't work the same way for me as for others. Now they just recently started using some sort of genetic coding to help them find medicines that work better with my body. 
I hope it goes well. Also I hope that your retirement goes well. Just be sure to keep busy. I heard that some people that retire go down hill fast.
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Briannah: I used the title as an attention grabber just to pull in readers.A tactic that is used in the media trade, (I've read a couple of books).
I never meant for it to scare any one. I know that I am listed as Female and that is because that is what I truly identify as and as a whole consider myself to be. However I haven't begun to transition yet. No, not even H.H.T., and I am quiet the stout girl at 6'3", 300+ lb and (at the moment) still looking like a man, I don't think that anyone is going to mess with me even when I come out to the world as the real me unveiled. BTW my avatar is a representative of what I intend on transitioning into as I also love the goth style and always have although I always dress as the all american country boy. Please forgive me of any deception, to you or anyone whom might be reading this or any of my other Blogs.Thanks xxxx
Bree
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Hi Bree,
No problem about deleting my reply! And, like you, I love purple. In fact, I'm going to use it myself here and now.
LOL
Hey girl don't try to steal my style! he he he 
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Dear Freebree,
Am concerned about your inability to connect with people. Is this all people, or just some people? If it is all people, I strongly advise you to learn all you can about Asperger's Syndrome, most of whom have difficulty connecting with people. Many of them can not look people in the eye.
About your depression . . . is this transgender related or have this been an issue in all areas of your life? There are forms of depression that is caused by situations (ie, poverty, unemployment, loneliness, etc.) and other forms caused by biochemical imbalances.
Generally, I give a therapist six months to help me "get to the bottom" of things, and, if I don't see improvement, go on to another therapist.
Hope this helps.
Yours truly,
Monica
I'm sorry Monica I'm getting tired, but I know about Aspenger's Syndrome my 17 y.o. had been diagnosed with it and after living all these years I can say with much certainty that I don't have it. Now to tell you where I think my depression is rooted I'm going to quote myself;
Oh wow, Veronica, that's it "Simply, your emotionally closed off." The weird thing about that is that; when I was about 5 I wanted to turn my feelings off because I thought that they were too feminine. Then for whatever reason all the other kids at school shunned and ignored me so I began to collapse emotionally and, I guess that I never learned to interrelate socially. Although there are those very rare times that I meet someone that causes me to come out of my comfort zone for a time.
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Simply, your emotionally closed off. That nasty little self defense mechanism that lets you go through life like a drone, until your all done with the day and you are by yourself and it starts to sink in. This is what healing feels like. Emotions HURT like a big dog when they start to come back! Like when you've out been playing pond hockey too long and you have to thaw your skates before you can get them off! OWIE!
Oh wow, Veronica, that's it "Simply, your emotionally closed off." The weird thing about that is that; when I was about 5 I wanted to turn my feelings off because I thought that they were too feminine. Then for whatever reason all the other kids at school shunned and ignored me so I began to collapse emotionally and, I guess that I never learned to interrelate socially. Although there are those very rare times that I meet someone that causes me to come out of my comfort zone for a time.
BTW I never had to..."playing pond hockey too long and you have to thaw your skates before you can get them off! OWIE! "
Start with the smallest, most important step. Your wife. It's plain to see she is the center of your Universe. Start there. Fix that part of your life first. That's the hardest one. Sounds like you and your wife have been through a lot together. Maybe she needs a change too? And I'm not saying as in leaving you. I am saying as in your married life.
I'm sorry. but as long as I'm trans she will never allow herself to stay with me, (it's her land, I'd leave). she is hard core disciple, (as she prefers) of Christ and very set in her convictions. Only God would be able to convince her otherwise. T_T. I am never going to be able to turn away from this Dysphoria its too hard T_T T_T T_T
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Hi Sweet!
Hi Bree! I like to think of myself as a Statistical anomaly!
Because I am. Which means I am normal, just a little off center! OK, MORE than just a little, but well withing the standard deviation. We exist. Always have. Are part of the historical record. We can be diagnosed and treated. In enlightened societies, we wouldn't even register on most peoples radars. We don't live in an enlightened society. We live in the USA! That is right Veronicabeta. and it's hard to convince others of what we know in our hearts to be true. especially here in the "Bible belt" Where nearly everyone throws bible verses at you and even then they misunderstand the actual context and take it to literal. Uhhh I guess that bible verses is better than rocks or maybe even bibles,
.No I don't think that I'm a Pinata I really kinda just happened onto that reference and felt that it made an interesting metaphor and wanted to share. -
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I"m rather relieved, from the title I was expecting something...darker.
I'm glad you're okay!Thanks for your concern Briannah. Yes I am quiet ok in the sense of the word that you mean. We all have problems in this life, but being beat up isn't one of mine.
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This is so crazy
I don't know... when I deleted the comment of EmmaSweet I was trying to clear this page and start over. 
I'll just come out and say that I'm not even thinking of hurting myself and if I don't use the cursive font can I still use the purple? I want my blog as friendly as possible.
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I feel so bad for you and your family. I know what it's like to loose such a dear friend.
A few years ago I had a miniature horse named peanut. We had been though a lot together.One day I found him with some really serious flesh wounds, some dogs had tore him up really bad. My neighbor gave me some medicine and told me what to do. Eventually he healed and grew his hair back. Well then a couple of years after that some stray horses came by and he found a hole in the fence and started running with them. I noticed him to be missing and went looking for him. It was so devastating to find his body and around my home I'm the undertaker if any pet dies. It hurt so much and I miss him a lot. -
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I can imagine Emma. Even if you don't believe in the Bible it does have some really good lessons on life and Global LOVE is the main message that Jesus talked about. Also, John Lennon knew: "All we need is love" and "Imagine" I think that Michael Jackson even knew it "Man in the mirror" and "Black or White" I'm sure there's others. Maybe that dream will come true someday.
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