Male to Female (MtF) Transsexual Discussion

Hi again everyone and thank so much fro all the great information.... i have struggle all my life with this and now i am ready for my surgery and both of my doctor will approve me for July 2010 i dont have any saving , as i used the money i did have on medical doctor and hospitals ,the last few years i been really sick ! i had a lung disease and a surgery! i almost died while i was sick and promised myself that if i survived i would take care of myself and be in the body i was intended and live my life as woman ....and die as a woman..... i only have enough money most month to pay my bills ..... i am a very talented hair and make-up artist, but unfortunately i live i…

Hi everyone! It has been a while since I have written much of anything. I have been very busy lately but I never stop thinking about the whole process of transition. Much has changed for me since I have been on hormones. It has been four weeks now and I am learning a lot. I am going to share my experience and it would be interesting if others felt similar to me but I also recognize that no two experiences between individuals will be exactly alike. The first couple of days I was excited an unsure of what I would feel. Soon after my first dose I felt light and giddy for the next few days after I would wake up in the morning very pleasant and happy What I did…

I was just curious, I was just prescribed a low dose of antiandrogen, and I was just curious what to expect from it and any changes that I can expect from it.

just wanted to let everyone know that i have just been kicked out of my house and basically my family. they dont accept what im becomming and said its an embarasment to the family. so i wont have internet but im looking forward to being on whenever i can. ill just be searching for a job and living on my friends couches and my car. its a wonderful life like this. i hate it, why we got cursed with this problem i have no idea but no one accepts it.

Hi everyone, just came across this website, very interesting. I just wanted to say hello and introduce myself. Ciao

Well, tonight after our usual family dinner I asked my sister to step outside with me so that I could talk to her. and I have asked her to come over to my place tomorrow to talk about some "private issues" I've been wanting to discuss with her. I know shes a very curious person so now that she knows theres something I have to tell her she won't let me get away with chickening out. so I have written her a letter which I will give to her and let her read, I figure it is best that way because I know myself and I will most definately get tongue tied and nervous so I won't say what I need to say or I won't say it how I want to say it. So I will let you all know tomor…

I'm perplexed and curious. I've read the surgical descriptions of how SRS is performed. The prostate is left. I have found nothing on the seminal vesicles so I assume those remain. So, since the testicles provide the sperm and just a minor fraction of the total ejaculate, then why does ejaculation stop after SRS? Not that anyone would want it to, but am curious what causes it to stop? Is something else done during the surgery, or is it just the hormonal change that prevents it just as after being on hormone therapy for a long time?

For those of you not familiar, that's a "Partial Hospitalisation Program". In practical terms, it's a 7 hour per day, five day per week, program of intensive therapy. This should last for 2 weeks. There might be an additional 2 weeks of half days also - "Intensive Outpatient" in the hospital's terminology. The reason I'm there is because my depression is bad enough that I can barely get out of bed in the morning, eat, or bathe. Suffice it to say that seeing my psychologist once every two weeks, and taking my meds, wasn't enough by itself. Things just kept getting worse and worse. This is good though. It provides structure that I desperately need, and active th…

Where to start.... I first started 'dressing up' around the age of six or so, would find my older sister or my mother's clean panties in their dresser and change into them... would also occasionally change into other items they had as well. This sort of thing just always felt natural to me, around the age of 13 or so I first started to talk about my love for feminine clothing and makeup to some understanding female friends and all throughout Jr. High and High School had regular access to anything and everything feminine because of this. In a lot of ways I feel like I'm nothing more than a cross dresser, though at the same time I'm just not sure. I remember lying …

hi, Lately i've been quite interested in the subtle differences between male faces and female ones and as such have been noticing that females tend to have fuller lips than males. do hormones have much effect on lips? or am I stuck with my really thin ones lol

It was emotional. I didn't break down and cry uncontrollably, but I went through a few tissues. My fellow patients did as well. They like to call it a "Graduation" when someone leaves after completing the program. I got to wear a tiara. I also got to hear from everyone about what they thought of me, and respond in kind. It was all positive. I'm not sure I've ever received that much praise at once. It felt good. Really good. Apparently I'm an inspiration, supportive, insightful, beautiful, strong, intelligent, and just all around "amazing". In turn I thanked my adoring fans, and reminded them of how far they had come since I'd gotten there. Regardless…

I want to use this forum to say thank you to all at the TG Guide for helping me to turn my life around. It was only a few short months ago that I stumbled upon this website, confused and a little afraid. I have known I am transgender since the age of five and had even chosen my name at that time, but I didn't have the language to express my feelings. I had felt ashamed of myself since being told I was depraved by my mother at the age of thirteen when she caught me trying on a pair of tights. This feeling of shame has haunted me all my life and caused the breakdown of my marriage as I was unable to talk about my feelings. since splitting with my wife I had been drinki…

When I was little, I wanted to be all kinds of things, but my wife wanted to be Aquaman when she grew up. So I started asking everyone what they wanted to be. Some of the bes responses I got were, "cashregister" and "dinosaur." The best answer I've heard so far is, "happy," but that's not what I was looking for; I'm looking for the fun and silly things then or now that you might like to be. My answer today would be, I wanna be a Pirate. So, what do you want to be? (I hope it's not too off-topic)

I am a crossdresser but lately I have had fleeting thoughts that maybe I am a transsexual. I still have no desire for surgery but I would rather wear feminine clothing all the time. I feel very comfortable being looked upon as a woman. I haven't made any decisions yet but I wanted to bounce these thoughts off to you ladies. What do you make of it? Gennee

Dear loving family of my new brothers and sisters, I was so depressed two weeks ago I thought I wouldn't see through to the next hour. My depression was not caused by hormones but by the severe blow to my entire being because I was finally beginning to see the people who really hate me. Despite all of the terrible words from my wife's family she is still living with me. We are now going to counselling both individually and together once a week. The most encouraging thing my wife has said to me is that she is motivated to work through this with me and that she does want to stay married to me. However, as the therapist told me she is going through a grieving pro…

That's right friends, my name is now legally Carla Michelle B*******. Yay! The hearing for my name change was yesterday at 9am. I was up at 5am. lol Nervous much? More excited, really. The hearing lasted all of 10 minutes. All of my paper-work was in the Jude's hands. I swore to tell the truth. He asked how long I'd been a resident (near 6 years) and if I'd ever been convicted of a felony or misdemeanor (nope). There was lots of shuffling of papers and scribbling. I stood there quietly, still as a statue wearing 1 inch heels, nice fitted jeans, a light blue blouse with diagonal stripes of white and (very thin) silver, a water bra (leave *no* doubt), an hour's …

Hi girls! I'm a 15 year old transgender from the United States, and I have some questions about the dangers of estrogen. I've been taking spiro for about 8-9 months on and off (I turned 15 a couple of months ago). Like, I'll stop for a week or two because I run out and order more. I'm going to start estrogen in about a week. I don't know how to get medical help. Would a doctor just help me for free? And is 1mg safe?

Would anyone like to swap bodies with me? Looking for attractive FtM in good shape who has not begun transition. Meet attractive MtF who has not begun transition but anxiously waiting a appropriate match. What if we could pick the perfect body and just transfer our minds to it. There would be a whole new industry of shopping for a body that fits. We know that this is currently impossible but in philosophy it is sometimes helpful to imagine the impossible to help us deal with the present. What if I could have the perfect body for me. Would I take care of it? Would I do the work required to keep it going. How would that perfect body change over time. How…

Let's see, I wonder how long it wil take someone at work tomorrow to notice the fact that I got my ears pierced today, and that I'm wearing cute gold earrings. any bets ? I'll say it takes them an hour to notice. Bobbie Jo

Hey everyone I’m somewhat new to the forum and currently I am in the debating stage of coming out to people about my GID. There are definite reasons to and not to, but I would like some input. A little history about myself ~ I’ve felt like I should have been a girl ever since my very first memories. Growing up I’ve always felt like I was born in the wrong body. When I was young, I never knew about people being able to alter their sex and I have always thought I would just be stuck with what I am born. It was very depressing for me growing up thinking that I would be stuck like this forever and knowing that we only live once, my life was such a waste. But in light of tr…

Having begun my transition nearly eleven years ago I've had to deal with coming out to a lot of people--and I've gotten relatively comfortable with doing so. One person I never got the chance to come out to, however, is my best guy friend from childhood, whom I will call Dan. Dan and I pretty much hung around together all the time from when I was about 7 until we lost contact with each other when I was 18 (which was 28 years ago). I have been trying to locate Dan for many years, but since he has a very common name I was always unsuccessful in my search, that is, until now. Yesterday I managed to track down--and talk with--an old mutual friend of ours and I got Dan's phone…

I am getting a little concerned, I think it is a valid concern; my psychologist doesn’t seem to be worried about it. So here it is; is it normal to become forgetful after you’ve gone onto hormones? I have been on hormones since January and am doing fine otherwise, but I find that I am becoming forgetful, how to say it, well I am a blond and.....well the comparison is becoming reality. I am worried about it however because I simply forgot a whole week (in reference to my analyst's appointment), Needless to say she was very surprised when I showed up thinking I was on time and she knew I was a week late. Any help here would be much appreciated, am I worrying about nothing…

I received my passport today, and it says FEMALE ! YEA ! Now, to get the rest of my finances together for my surgery in August. Life is good. Bobbie Jo

I have to share this my comming out story. In the early years I got married twice to cover up my TG but always soon after, I got caught with woman's clothes that was my "stash" so to speak. Dressing as a girl gave me some relief as I could express my sexual idenity. Sometimes I got caught red handed. It all started when I was about 4 when I found out that my anatomy would not grow into a girl. I got abused because I got caught wearing my sister's cloths. On that day the coverup began. As I grew older, I still wore girl's cloths and wandered around at night in my neiborhood. At the time I didn't know there were other people like me that felt like a girl trapped in a boy's …

Today's show included Angelika and Jake (I think I saw them before on an MSNBC transgender special once), plus Dr. Marci Bowers. In two weeks, the topic is "Fathers and Husbands Who Became Women." Woo-hoo!!!