Male to Female (MtF) Transsexual Discussion

Like the topis says im TS mtf and im in a 12 step program. the thing is i live in a very conservative town and know of no other transgendered people who are in recovery. im struggling with how spirituality relates to my struggle with my soul not matching my body. Id appreciate any feedback on being transgendered and having spirituality weather youre in a 12 step program or not. thanks =) <3 Allie Jay

I am curious as to after how many years taking estrogen and possibly progesterone, did other transsexual women's breasts no longer became bigger. Secondly, I wonder if transsexual women's breasts, particularly without breast augmentation, are erotically sensitive, less so or nearly as much as those for genetic females. This is an area where I have been disappointed so far and wonder if I will ever experience noticeable erotic sensations.

I haven't really started looking into HRT "officially" yet but continuing my other post, I'm trying to see what I'm getting into here, if anyone has some advice. First one (I hope this is within the forum rules, my apologies if not) -- why does the standard HRT regimen call for spironolactone instead of something like androcur? I guess they both have different side effects, but is there something that makes spiro safer overall? Second one.. what the heck do you eat?! I understand spiro causes potassium retention, which means you can't have a lot of high potassium foods.. but looking down a few lists of recommended "high potassium" foods for people with normal diets…

TODAY IS MY TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF BEING OUT FULL TIME. I AM A VERY HAPPY GIRL TODAY. I got up at 6, went to the beauty parlor at 7, got my hair and makeup done, then I went off to my therapist at 11. Tonight I am going to a party to celebrate being out full time for 2 years. (and now getting letter #1 for SRS) At my appointment with my therapist this morning, she did the one letter I need for SRS. She also gave me a congratulations on your "graduation" card with a nice note inside and a couple of beautiful keepsakes as well. On May 1st, I should get the second letter approving me for SRS. YEA, SRS in 2011 here I come. Bobbie Jo

Ok I am trying to remember the name of a video I watched A Long time ago , very good helped with alot of questions and the real life of those who transitioned and those who are in the middle so to speak , I think it was Beautiful sisters or sister cousins but for the life of me I cant find what I am after I was going to let my daughter and grandaughter watch it to give them an idea of other real life transition stories and such , but frigg I have a brain lock and cant remember it was about six ladies who are and live at different stages and aspects of transition can any one remember I went through all the old posts and didnt find what I was after I know I have shared it …

Hi ithought that the attachment might be useful for folks, It's from Charing Cross Hospital in London which carries out the F to M GRS operations for Charing Cross Gender Idemtity Clinic. GRS.pdf

I know that some of us have had counseling and have gotten through what has happened to us in the past. I know i have but i still don't hide it and i am open to talk about it. Hey oprha winfrey also talks about her past abuse. I just think that much of this potential abuse does direct us in our preferences both pre and post transitioning. Personally, i was sexually abused ( / beaten naked with a radiator brush and my body was aligned to get erection with the use of the nuns habit/cloth) by a nun at 12 yrs old. I ended up in a mental hospital at 13 and 14 for two times of 4 months long. Once it was for wearing womens clothing. I was also sexually abused by other ki…

Out of curiosity has anyone had the following happend with hormone treatments? Teenage like acne breakouts in a person who is middle aged? I hear your supposed to develop b cup breasts if your lucky after years. I'm getting huge fast. I'm between b and c cup after 3 weeks. Anyone have similar development? How about nausea? Anyone have bouts of nausea? My doctor doesn't seem alarmed but seems suprised at the pace of development of many of the changes. He also seemed suprised my genitals have shrunk and my testicles are ascending at a couple of weeks. Should I be alarmed at the rapidity of change? My small town doc admits he's not very experienced regarding these…

I have an appointment to see my gender therapist on the 2o=0th July. That's cool and everything but my wife wants to come along to the sessions, to hear what the therapist has to say and to hear what I say to the therapist. She said she still doesn't believe I'm transgendered and that we haven't explored all avenues and she won't quit on me until we've explored every avenue. I was like WTF, it seems as if I'm a kid and she is my mom taking me to see a docotor to find out what is wrong with me. How do I talk her out of this or what do I say to her. I have no idea what to do ?

As i start my journey into womanhood, i just have a question for all! You know the whole story about penis envy......is vagina envy possible. I have always been that way. Just wondering what your thoughts were!

Hi there, I am new to this site so hello all. :-) I'm a 29 year old post op woman, who had surgery in 2000 with Dr. Meltzer. I'm writing in hopes that other MTF post-op gals could share how they care for their "parts." Unfortunately, I have had a seemingly continuous discharge (sorry to be graphic) for the last five years and I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I long ago lost the post op care literature that the doctor gave me, and so I don't know how often a TS is supposed to douche (I do it very rarely) and as I said, if others could post their vaginal care "regimens" (how often do you douche and with what solution, etc) I would be truly grateful. Perhaps by hearing …

Like, oh my God, I have a varicose vein on my foot. It kind of sticks out and it's blue. Now my feet have always been one of my best features. People have commented on how beautiful they are (or were). And that's not the only thing, all kinds of weird bumps and blemishes are appearing all over my body. How do you cope wiv this? The ageing process I mean. I'm lucky, like I look 10 years younger than my biological age, but it's all starting to catch up wiv me. Things are starting to droop and sag. Should I just accept it as part of the natural ageing process, or should I fight it, wiv surgery or what have you? My own opinion, grow old gracefully. This opinion is partly driv…

My day began with a visit to my therapist who said she would have my letter of recommendation out the last week of the month. She asked me when you plan to change your name. I said after surgery is performed. She responded with, no need to wait, I will write you a letter for DMZ and said she is on a list with them for this. I am moving up the date to change my Driver’s license and official name change in general to December instead of March or April as originally planned. Got home and while in the bathroom noticed my bangs were getting long and for the first time decided to have my bangs trimmed by my regular hair stylist. I walk in and the owner gives me a strange loo…

I received my passport today, and it says FEMALE ! YEA ! Now, to get the rest of my finances together for my surgery in August. Life is good. Bobbie Jo

I was reading an article online and it was basically saying that. Men who have GID and suppress it, are often violent, take extreme risks with their lives, and may even have OCD and other controlling behaviours. I will try and find this article, but I found it interesting because I had most if not all of these behaviours listed.

I was just wondering how everyone learned how to talk sucsessfuly as a woman, pitch and language. So far anytime i try i just sound like a guy making fun of a girl :/ is there any thing out there that helps?

Yesterday, I was on a date in Atlanitc City when my phone rang. It was my mom, but i didn't answer it because she'd never heard my voice as shannon before and I really didnt want to put on the joe voice in public. Unfortunately, when I don't answer my phone when my mom calls, she just keeps calling every five minutes. So I answered and my mom was like "Hello? Who is this? Is Joe there?" and I said that it was me and I wasn't home. She said later after she got off the phone with me she felt like an idiot for not picking up on it. So, being able to fool your own mom is definitely a great way to build confidence.

Has anyone tried waxing their beard area, or is this as stupid an idea as I think it might be? Or both? It sounds painful at any rate... although its still oddly tempting...

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This post is primarily in response to Pantau's question about western therapists. Do they really help or do they try to "fix us". I have only been seeing a therapist for 6 months. I found my therapist on my own , I was first refused a theapist as I am not able to come in as often as they wanted. With a bit of persistence thet recommended a therapist to me , she is wonderful , very understanding and supportive . Most importantly she is not trying to "fix" me , and she has helped me to find confidence and courage to be myself , I am still not completely out yet but I am miles ahead of where I started. I do know however that there are those who will just put there stamp on y…

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I'm simply courious what you girls have found to be the most difficult asspects of transitioning, Is it the facts that you loose the friends you have known your entire life, Is it the facts that the good job you have worked your butt off to get and keep, only to loose because you are now someone that they cant trust with thier clients ( what would they think about this sort of thing ) Is it the facts that our relationships will be torn into shredds by the fact that our partners didn't get together with us to be with someone that is the same sex as they are, ( they are curious at first but it will end badly to all our dismay it does happen that way) or is it just the facts…

I've been reading a book about depression and helping oneself through it, learning to avoid ways of thinking and situations that make oneself depressed. So when I get a night like tonight, where I would usually just shut down and do something as mindless as possible until I can sleep (say, reading) .. I guess a commonly recommended strategy is to refocus one's energy towards activities that usually make one feel good about oneself, encourage positive feedback and so forth. This comes and goes for me, depending on who knows what. I have a pretty good idea what started it tonight. There is some part of me that finds this dispassionately interesting because it's just an e…

When I was little, I wanted to be all kinds of things, but my wife wanted to be Aquaman when she grew up. So I started asking everyone what they wanted to be. Some of the bes responses I got were, "cashregister" and "dinosaur." The best answer I've heard so far is, "happy," but that's not what I was looking for; I'm looking for the fun and silly things then or now that you might like to be. My answer today would be, I wanna be a Pirate. So, what do you want to be? (I hope it's not too off-topic)

A lot of gays (A LOT) think that we are plain freaks. You just have to enter a gay chat or go to a gay restaurant dressed up and you'll see their reaction. A lot of gays just hate us and it doesn't make any sense to me. In fact, the worst (unwarrented and unrequested) comments about my physical appearence and ability to pass came from gay guys. When asked what they think about men who date post op TS women, gays like to think that these men are closeted gays. It makes me so sick that a lot of hatred and phobia against our community comes from gays.