I agree completely with Karen but I also certainly understand your feelings. TG Guide is so great but it's not a replacement for getting together with friends and, possibly, making new friends while fully being ourselves. I hope you do look in your area for groups. Even here, you could tell us where you are and there may be recommendations.
You may be "getting to be a pro" at not letting your feelings come out but that's a hard way to live. Good for you that you told us about what's going on for you. At least we can try to offer some help or a patient and accepting ear.
Be well,
Emma