Well put Hun , these are things we all suffer from , at What Point .... Yeash that is such a biggy no one can say accept the one asking the personal question , when will I be complete and not so insecure of my outward appearance , well mine was just about two weeks ago when I looked long and hard in the mirror , what is it that everyone is seeing that I cant, I constantly asked myself this , and there it was right in front of me .... I turn this way It's my mother , I turn that way its my father , I turn like this and hey its Both it's Me ... Stephani Paige Ryan , I smiled and looked all directions guess who I saw Yes ... Me no one else Just me no longer Him as I once saw , but the woman every one else on the outside is telling me stands before them ... Will you ever find this happiness , I truelly Hope so I struggled for so many years after being full time that I simply wanted to crawl in a cave and turn into the little gollum from the hobbit .. searching for My precious ... who has taken my presious , it turned out I was blind to see I had my precious with me the whole time ... Find yours hun and live happy no matter the cost or surgeries you will always see the male if you dont find inner piece with who you are ..
Take care and thank you for your post it is a help to not only you but to others not so lucky as we .. those who may never even step outside , those who may never even dream it is possible .
Stephani