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Since my teenage years I always wore breast forms when out. Back then they were foam forms as I was not aware of anything better. Clothing, I wear the same thing cisgender females wore so that I would blend in, not call undue attention to myself. Since I got the tucking down pat I could wear tight jeans which I favor to present time. Many who are cross dressers favor mini-skirts, pantyhoses and high heels which are in direct contradiction to what the average cisgender female wears yet I can understand the attraction to these garments and at all cost avoid them like the plague for casual outings. If one is to go out as a female it is critical to first work on your female voice followed by covering up the five O'clock shadow and by all means work on mannerism of a cisgender female. I like many others did these things and will greatly increase your chances of not being made. Once on hormones and removal of facial hair begins one can concentrate more on voice and mannerism. I can not stress too much how important mannerism and voice is too becoming at ease when out. Looking good is one thing but being able to communicate with others is paramount else you will end up in one or more uncomfortable situations which makes it more difficult to go out again. The more you are out the easier it gets yet many have issues stepping out the front door, get into their car and enter the world we were comfortable as male now is a place where one turns white with fear because they have not practice the techniques and skills needed to be comfortable when out and if you are not comfortable others will pick up on you and focus on those vibes. I honestly forget when the last time I was nervous going out, may be ten years ago but do remember prior to that time I was in the same boat as others and learned quickly that (as others have done) that it's a whole lot easier being out in stores and such where people would not recognize me. When I was 18 I went to a store in the next town over, dressed no different than any other female. Walked into the store and everyone stared at me. I truly believed I was made until a sales person tapped on my shoulder and said something like "you can't smoke in here". I then realized when she addressed me as female and told me to put the cigarette out my heart slowed down and I spent quality time there. The funny thing is I still have a pair of underwear I purchased in that store on that trip, a reminder to myself I could do this. Another memory was walking down the street over a long block where a man on a motorcycle kept circling the block and realized I was being watched and thought he had made me as a cross dresser and who knows what he wanted. Ended up at a stop light he asked if I wanted a ride. I was still learning my female voice but took my time to get it right and said something like I was not interested. As he rode off I called me a foxy lady, I of course grinned. In both cases and similar cases I did it right clothes-wise, mannerism and voice while other times earlier in life I did not and saw that people wondered if I was a cross dresser or (and this did happen) people believing I was a tom-boy.

Hi, GenderFiasco I am so happy that we are able to help. We are a community of women who certainly care about each other. The most wonderful thing about transition for me is finding a wonderful community of so many women who share similar experiences. You are beginning your journey and even without much money, you can progress. As Karen suggests, you can work on your voice and mannerisms as you as also developing a wardrobe and experimenting with makeup. It's a beautiful journey to becoming a butterfly. Enjoy it. If I can offer any advice or you just want to chat, I'm willing to share my experiences with you. Warm hugs, Alana

Thanks so much to everyone for taking the time out to reply! I havent been able to comment until now but rest assured I have been reading them and they're making me much more comfortable and much more eager too! I'm not 100% certain about breast forms yet, also I don't have a whole lot of money right now but I imagine I will spring for some eventually... It's really comforting to know that theres so many others like me out there who were at my stage at one time or another and heart warming that you would all take the time out of your days to share your stories with me I have so many questions it would seem and no one around me personally to answer them, this sorta thing doesnt happen to everyone I can understand why it would be a good idea to wear skirts, I recently bought some leggings, a top and a couple other bits and the leggings dont exactly hide the crotch area, in fact they probably make it more obvious. I'm definately going to look into a skirt or dress, although I still have all of my leg hair so thick tights? As I said so many questions... Really if any of the commenters are reading this I truly do appreciate your help, it means a lot to me!

Hiya Gender Fiasco. I have one Bandeau Bra, which has a Bra Pad each side. I have bought some cheap bra's with pad's, and used several each side of the strapless Bandeau Bra. I wear another Non-Wired Full-Cup Bra over the top, which is Size 38B. I have several of these, which are of the same size, style, and pattern. So I wear Bra's, which are Very Comfortable. I wear Lovely, Sexy, Pretty, Bra's; Knickers; Suspender-Belt's; and Stocking's, all the time. I also wear Female Jeans, or Female Leather Trousers, or Skirts and Blouses or Top's, or Pretty Dresses. I do NOT wear Male Clothing. at all now, and I have NOT done so, since I started Fully, Full-Time, Female-Dressing, and Living, on 1st. May, 2015. Gender Fiasco, I Now Regularly Go To the World-Famous UK Nightclub, Pink Punters, at Fenny Stratford, near Milton Keynes, Buckinghamshire, in The United Kingdom. It Is a Fully LGBT Friendly Location. Gender Fiasco, if You have an LGBT Friendly Location, try Going there as well. I Love going to Pink Punters, because it is so Safe, Comfortable, and Relaxing as well. Gender Fiasco, Keep in Touch, if You would like to. Good Luck, Take Care, and Very Best Wishes, Stephanie. xoxo

I started by wearing casual things around the house, jeans, androgynous tops, non-descript sneakers, etc. As I became more comfortable, I began to wear these same clothes out shopping. No one knew the difference. I was comfortable in clothes that fit so I wore them. Wasn't long before I added a wig, breast forms and makeup, purse. Soon the jeans became a bit more obvious as I wore jeans with designs on the back pockets and more colorful tops. I'm very comfortable going out shopping and running errands in casual clothes. When I have an appointment or interview, I wear a dress or skirt and sweater. Although I am in mid-transition, I don't feel male or want to appear male at all. I am a woman now and will live everyday as myself. Enjoy your journey as you become more comfortable with yourself. Others will accept you for who you truly are. Hugs, Alana

Dear Gender Fiasco, I used false breasts and then when my boobs started to grow large enough I used chicken fillets to supplement them. Try wearing stuff that doesn't attract too much attention, you don't want to get noticed when you are starting out on your journey, later on if you decide that you want HRT and you start developing a more feminine shape you can start to wear the more attractive styles of clothing. If you use a full cup pre-formed bra without seams, you can stuff it with whatever you want, however be sure not wear low cut tops. Cheers, Eve

What about names? How do I pick a new name, that is like the hardest choice ever! Do I just girly-fy my name or pick a whole new one? Do I keep my last name? I imagine I would keep my last name, provided my family don't disown me when and if I tell them. I like Olivia, I knew an Olivia once, she was nice but I don't want to just cop out and pick any random one. I like anastasia because I read 50 Shades and loved it! I also don't want any of that silly nonsense like 'North West', what is that?! Tricky stuff, it'll be a long time before I need that fortunately so I have some time to decide. Thanks for reading :)

I think that with my blatant lack of make up expreience it's going to be a real hardship. I have some and some more coming (it's so expensive!) but not a clue how to do it really... I kind of know a little through watching people do it and a couple of youtube videos (the source of all my learning) but I imagine I'm going to look a state when I first have a go ;) I haven't tried any of it yet but I think the beard will be interesting to cover. Obviously I'm going to shave as much as possible first but I'll never get right down to skin. Another thing is contour? I have a man face pretty much and I believe this contour thing makes it look like you've got shape or depth? I don't know, I'll focus on not looking like a 4 year old just painted my face first ;) So I bought all the stuff I think I'll need. Foundation, eyeliner, blush, eyeshadow and some brushes, if theres anything I missed or some hints in how to use these items please do let me know :) Thanks for reading, any input would be much appreciated, in any aspect of this whole thing.

So, while I am at the beginning of my journey, I'm trying to think of everything. Right now I'm focuses on appearances and finding out how I might look. At some point I will try and test the waters outside, maybe go to the shop at first then venture out further. Before that I need to really know what to wear, make up, all that great stuff. So I guess my question is this, to anyone else out there that has already transitioned or anyone going through the journey too: What did you wear? How did you wear it? How did you know you were ready to go out? I look forward to talking to all of you Edit: Just wondering, if there are any cross dressers, drag queens or trans folk out there who have worn bras as a male? If so what did you stuff them with, I know you can get like fake breasts but just thinking of right now... Socks? I have tried socks I'm just curious...

Seeing that I have the time on my hands let make this one clear. For 5 days out of the month, I am on a lower dosage of estrogen, and it kinda makes me cranky as hell. Reason being is that I have decided to go the medically induced period cycle, and I know it is motha of all hell pain cramps, because I've always had these cramps from my 9th birthday. Some months it's good and I'm just cranky as hell. Other months it is so bad, I cramp and start crying from the pain. But I know it is now in tune with my body cycle and I will just have to deal with the cramps, being pissy to people, crying for no apparent reason, and being needy over those days. Oooh don't let me go into the don't touch me mode. Then not even Thor with all his strength will be immortal, as I will crush his spirit into a painful mere mortal death. What does this mean for me as in a whole with a relationship??? Okay, it's the first time we together and this cycle has come, so I warned him of the possible side effects. Yes, FX is on. What I believe and what Jazz's mom tells her in I am Jazz is right. Be honest about who you are, because there are evil people out there. And her parent's are constantly worrying about her ever finding love with a guy or girl that respects her. I also hope that she gets what she needs in life, and I hope that for me too. Would it have been easier if I was medically inducing my periods from a young age like Jazz, maybe. But on the other side, I would not have known that people can be so cruel because they don't understand the changes we as transgender persons have to endure just to feel whole. But I also hope that the earlier changes for the young teenagers are going to put them on a more level playing ground with the rest of the world. My cramps and my pms, on the other end of the scale is unique. As I don't think many transgender females naturally produced so much estrogen like I did which put me on an advantage to feel body changes on the inside that others had to wait to experience... Okay I struggled to grow breast, am still on only an A cup and at least the cups are the fuller A's then the partial A's they were. But I also knew that I would end up here. Because my family has breast sizes ranging from A cup to FFF Cups. The ones with the big breast are also the idiots in my family. I stood in the line for more smarts then a voluptuous body. No I am not saying that big breast and blonds are idiots by nature, only the big breasted women in my family are idiots. And they think that sex sells and men will do anything just because of some breast and giving them the cookie jar. I love that I can still creatively thing of names for things that would just sound to crude at any given moment. Okay, the last thing about me being on the period cycle of hormones are, I want my body to simulate a natural female body with hormones and in doing so assist with the development I am going through. And it has made a big difference from the 18 months of straight hormone high to period cycle. I have developed more, and it has kept my migraines more at bay. To all have a good day. Be safe, and think before you do. I have discussed this before I did it. Cheers for now Michele with love

I haven't posted in a while. I don't know why exactly. I've been in a rut this summer. The intense anxiety that I experienced in April came back on Tuesday. I had it all day into Wednesday morning. Almost went to the ER. I cried all day long. I did get Xanax and Zoloft. It will take a couple of months to get my levels right, I'm sure. I feel better at the moment, but it comes and goes. I had problems on Thursday, Friday and today. I know what the reason is. Gender Dysphoria. I don't know exactly what triggered it. However, I did spend time out this weekend, had a great time but had to go back to guy mode in order to go to work. So the reason is clear. I need to transition to full-time at some point.. The meds are just bandaid. So I had a long talk with my wife. I told her that I will need to transition earlier. She cried. But I told her that eventually this will kill me. The meds are just a bandaid to get by. She agreed. We talked about telling her family, our children, my work, about her getting a job, neighbors, me possibly moving out, surgery, finances. It was a tough, tough conversation. She did so well though. She is so calm, understanding an smart which is amazing considering what we discussed. Well I need to get to bed. I'll post more later. Love you all! Lisa

Following on from my previous entry whilst on holiday, we had a day out in southern Belgium, now most towns in the Ardennes have a castle, a church, a river, and a WW2 Tank (normally a US Sherman, although Houfalize has a German Panther but no castle!). La Roche en Ardenne must be a more important town than most as it has two tanks - a British Achilles Mk10 tank destroyer and a US Sherman, it's where UK and US forces met when pushing back the Germans during the Battle of the Bulge. But an even more important sign of the towns importance was the Bunting along the main street, it was made up entirely of bras, there was also a display on the town hall too. After walking around the town, we had a meal in an Ardennais restaurant, well if we have gone all that way, we want to sample the local food, rather than international food. We had Civet de Marcassin which is wild boar stew, and if you've never tasted wild boar and you like meat generally, you've missed out! Anyway photo's are of the bra bunting, I was amazed at it...............& of the WW2 reminders. Cheers, Eve

I've been sooo busy just recently, preparing for hols and also cramming in work, then going on Holiday to Luxembourg via the Channel Tunnel with our Land Rover and Caravan, stopping overnight in Northern France then driving through Belgium to Esch sur Sure where we spent just under two weeks. When we got back I had to attend a Charing Cross GIC appointment yesterday after catching up with two weeks worth of work e-mails, and then today again busy all day at work...............it's a hard life ! So Esch sur Sure, we pitched up the caravan and went out most days to other parts of the Ardennes including Germany and Southern Belgium which I think I'll cover with subsequent entries. The little village of Esch is situated on the River Sure which is a tributary of the Mosel (or Moselle en Francais), it also forms a large part of the border betweeen Germany and Luxembourg a bit further downstream. It's a in a lovely setting inside a loop of the river at the bottom (well aren't all rivers??) of a deep and steep gorge like valley, see the photo's and I hope videos if they can be attached? It rained a hell of a lot but it didn't spoil the holiday, we went out walking along the river and through the woods on the valley sides on days when we didn't go out farther afield via the Land Rover. Cheers for now, Eve IMG_1400.m4v IMG_1399.m4v

Hiya Michele. How are You Today Love, and have You managed to get rid of the Gastro ? I hope so, and I hope that You are feeling better ! I Am so Happy for You Michele, the fact that You have found Happiness and Love. Good on You Sweetie. I Am in a Marriage that is on the Rocks, and I Am looking to get out, But, when I see Good News, like You with Your New Relationship, it makes Me feel pleased, to think that somebody has found happiness, like You have. Michele, Good Luck Love, Take Care, and My Very Best Wishes, Stephanie. xoxo

​Hi Eve, not sure why but when I just clicked the link I was taken to the right page.

Karen, I searched twice on the page from your link but couldn't find your story............. Eve

This afternoon I was talking to a female friend showing off my Miata and this guy looks out the car window and says yells to me and says "nice butt", had to be me because my friend was facing the other direction. Then the other day my neighbor tells me her husband saw me walking down the street but did not know it was me and said she has a nice butt then she goes, that's Karen. Funny in that I never got this before and know full well that taking hormones has zero effect on how one's butt looks so not sure why all of the sudden I am having men yell to me about my butt. What I can say even thought I am not into men that it's feels great getting these complements and is a confidence builder if nothing else. On a side note my friend whom I was with today purchased a new BMW sports car, seems that I was the fire to ignite her to purchase the new car. I think for the money my car was a better bang for the buck but will never tell her that as she spent $50,000 and I spent $30,000. In these matters best to simply compliment and leave it at that.

It scares the hell out of me when men stare or compliment in general, unless I know them, however I must agree with you both that it does feel nice afterwards............However, I am getting remarks about my bum (Butt if you prefer!) from other women, and to think that I thought I needed to cover it up because I thought it was too narrow, not having female hips...................wtf, it's nice being complimented. Cheers Eve

Thanks Roxanne, Its a lovely name and thank you for sharing with me. I may have to do some digging when I see my mom next, brilliant idea!

I had found out years ago that my mom would have named me Roxanne if born as a "physical" female. When making the choice to transition I then chose that as my new name. My mom still doesn't know about my dysphoria but when I tell her I'm sure my name choice will help lessen the blow... But then that's just me.... Roxanne

For anyone wondering how im posting all this so fast i have another blog (thegenderfiasco.wordpress.com), i felt like this might be a better place to do it, might get feedback and theres people here that have been through the same types of stuff. So anyway thanks for reading all the same :)

Clothes are a bit of an issue I think, well, for now. Its not like a man can stroll into the womens department and start trying on clothes, it's a lot of guesswork. For instance I want to see what my body might look like as a woman in womens clothes. This is tricky for a few reasons.. I don't own any womens clothes nor do I have access to any.I don't exactly know my size, about a medium I'd say. Whats that? 8? 10?Bras? Naturally if I do ascend into being a real woman one day I'll have breasts. I think I'm roughly a 34 back, cup size is a matter of preference I guess. Start at C and see where that goes.Now shoes. As a man I have relatively big feet, I can get my toes into a size 9 man shoe but are they the same? No idea, again wing it.That being said I love online shopping and eBay so I won't have to awkwardly walk around clothes shops pretending I don't know what I'm looking at because 'their not for me'. So I went on eBay and bought a top, leggings (comfy as hell), nice underwear and a bra that I imagine will fit. They should all be here sometime next week so I will probably document some findings on this here world wide web. Some advice for anyone out there in a similar position to me (if anyone out there reads this) , if you're buying anything like this then go online, you can get really cheap stuff on eBay to test your size then it's all done. After that you can get stuff wherever you want. Thanks for reading.

Happy Saturday everyone! I just finished my second full week with my new position and my mood is so much better than just a few weeks ago (when I wrote about feeling any lack of purpose). The new position involves managing the school's website and social media accounts. I thought what I had been missing was making a meaningful contribution, and that was true, but more specifically what makes this so good is that it calls on me to make independent editorial decisions, rather than just doing clerical work. Of course I get feedback on what I do, but I enjoy a lot of trust from my supervisor (and her feedback has all been very good and constructive - and reasonable considering I just started). So between my transition and my new position at work, things feel so much better! (The salary increase helps too - ironic that after becoming a woman they started paying me more). As a quick side-note, on Monday i'll be finishing off donating my male clothing, which also feels good (and admittedly I had worried a little about how i"d feel doing it). I found a group in NYC that provides services to people with AIDS, the clothing goes to those with limited resources, so I feel really good about that! And one correction - in my last post I misspelled my new middle name, it is "Anne," not "Ann." Final bit, I bought the cape below today (and a couple of fall/winter coats). Xoxo Christie

Hiya Christie, So glad things are going so very well for you, as I recall it's an interesting and exciting time at the start of Real Life Experience. You might want to consider hanging on to a few of your old male clothes such as tee shirts, sweat shirts, jeans and trainers and generally non gender specific stuff, for times when you have to do practical things such as decorating, cleaning the house and DIY jobs etc. Cheers, Eve

XOXOXOXOXXO Michele

Hiya Michele. You Poor Girl. Period Pain, and Castro as well, Bless Your Heart Love. I hope You feel better soon Michele. Take Care, With Very Best Wishes, Stephanie. xoxo

Thanks gals. But I'm sitting with cramps. Why did my medically induced periods have to be from today, when gastro strikes too. So a double whammy and both is causing me cramps. And he is trying to comfort me although I told him not to be around me for the next few days. XOXOXOXO Michele

Hiya Michele. Good on You Honey. I Am so glad that You have found someone, who Loves You, for being You. My Marriage is all but over, with a "Cheating Wife" ! So, it is Lovely to hear some Good News, from You. Michele, You are a very Beautiful, Pretty, Young Lady, and Your Boyfriend Obviously recognises that too ! Sweetie, I hope that things go from strength to strength for You. Michele, Good Health, Good Luck, Take Care, and My Very Best Wishes, Stephanie. xoxo

Short and to the point "I am happy for you"

Bandaids' eventually in this context stop working and give way to you needing to make a decision to continue life unhappily or to take a step towards your true self. What your true self is can only be learned by being completely honest with yourself. Is transitioning right for me or can I find solus in dressing female? This is best done (and I am sure you know this) by working with a therapist that understands the nature of transgender. When my time came I was unwavering in my decision unlike many who struggle coming to terms with what path to take. This decision was a long time coming and just knew it was the right path else I would had would be going though life living a lie. One might think they can get by wearing female clothing and it may be right but if over time it's not and you should had transitioned one might find it is too late for whatever reason and that leads them to that dark place which there may be no returning from. There are countless stories written that tell a sad tale in that the person that did not make a firm decision loses hope, goes into despair on a downward spiral that might lead to one taking their own life, it is that profound what the brain of a transgender can do. Make your choice now before it gets to that dark place.

Hiya Lisa. I Came-Out, as Transsexual, to My Wife, on 30th. April, 2015, and I started Fully, Full-Time, Female-Dressing, and Living, on 1st. May, 2015. I have known, since I was 3 Year's of Age, that I Am Female, Trapped, in A Male Body. I have always hated My Male Part's, and I wish I could wake up in the Morning's, and that they were no longer there. My Transsexuality was Officially Registered, at My Doctor's, on 25th. June, 2015, and on that same date, My Doctor's Registered it Officially, at London's Charing Cross Hospital - Gender Identity Clinic. I want to Fully Transition, including Gender Reassignment Surgery. Coming-Oout, was like having a Massive Weight, Lifted-Off Both Of My Shoulder's ! I Am so much Happier, Now, than I have Ever been before ! Lisa, it is such a very hard thing to do, to Come-Out to a Spouse, and Family, and Friend's ! My Marriage, is Only alive on paper, and We have 3 Special-Needs-Children, so just for the time being, We are still under the same roof. She however, has been cheating on Our Marriage, for over 22 Month's, with other Men, and Women !! My Friend's have stuck by Me like glue, and Er-Indoors hates that fact. But then, I Am in the wrong for criticising anything that She says or does. Funny That, as I Am the one who does All the Washing; Washing-Up, and Drying-Up; Vacuum- Cleaning; and Most of The Cooking, ( A Woman's Work, Is Never, Ever Done ! ), whilst She Messages on Her Phone, mainly to other Women ! Lisa, the sooner that You are Full-Time, the Happier I think it will make You feel. The Gender Dysphoria, can be Nasty. I Now go One Night a Week, to Pink Punters, which is a Lesbian; Gay; Bisexual; Transgender; Club. It is in a place called Fenny Stratford, which is about 20 Miles, from where I Live, here in the UK. Lisa, try finding somewhere like that, which is Fully Welcoming and Accepting, of Transsexual People, Etc. You might find that it Helps ! Lisa, Good Luck, Take Care, and Like Christie said, if I can also help, Please let Me know, and Ibwill try. With My Very Best Wishes, Stephanie. xoxoxoxo

Hiya Christie Anne. I Am so Pleased that things are going well for You. You deserve it Christie, because You are such a Lovely, Sincere Lady. It is always great to hear of someone whose job, is going well. I have yet to start getting rid of My Male Clothes. They may well be bagged-up, and given to Our 3 Son's, as They are getting older. I Do like the cape You have bought. You can be Very Proud of How Far that You have come, and How Well that You are Doing. Clothes-Wise, I Love Female-Clothes shopping, as one girl who works in Our local Supermarket, said to Me, a few days ago, I Am a typical Female, as I Love retail therapy. Christie, Good on You for donating Your other Clothing to Charity. If mine don't get kept for Our Son's, then I Will wash them All, and Donate them to Charity, Myself. Christie, Good Luck, Take Care, and My Very Best Wishes to You. xoxo Stephanie.

Very nice I recall tthe first time i could tell a guy was smiling at me in a flirty manner it felt really nice (I wasn't interested, but it was nice)

Glad to hear things are going well for you, woohoo.

Lisa, I can't imagine going through this with a spouse, but if there's anything I can do to help please let me know Having gone full-time as a woman now for about a month and a half I can say that it makes a huge difference, i've never been happier and more positive in my life. Good luck! Xoxo Christie