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Bri, life has too many stresses and scary things. It's all well and good to call them challenges, learning experiences, and all that, but things can be so much better and easier in theory and mind or fantasy than in the outside world. it would be nice to weed some out or at least have safe refuges from them within yourself, your relationships, and immediate surroundings. You seem to have that so much with Nikki as you chart your future and find and create your beautiful yard. Hope you find a buyer soon so that big piece of non-peace can fall away.

Hi Blue! it's been a crazy ride, but as things are slowly pulling together I'm doing better. I have had my disorders so long, and generally function around them so well, that I mostly actually forget they are there until I make a dumb choice like that and poke them hard and jump off the emotional cliff as it were. It's why I always try to have backup plans for my backup plans, it's a coping mechanism for the terrorizing panic attacks I'm prone to. Life, no one gets out unscarred. ​ I am eyeing a nice Victorian, it needs a lot of cosmetic work, but the price is low, but I'm a bit worried about the yard. The yard looks like it won't work, and that's non-negotiable. I'll live in a plain uncharismatic ranch with a gorgeous yard if I have to. LOL Nikki says maybe two months to having this place ready to list, and then once we find a buyer a huge chunk of the current stress will lift off. I have paralyzing freakouts that no one will want the house. Nothing will make that go away until we close on the house. Then we can focus on buying the next one and setting up for the new chapter of life. Closer to my friend N happily.