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Thank you both for your thoughts and advice. It really helps me keep going and to keep my head on my shoulders. Monica, I had heard some time ago about Trans Lifeline, but it hasn't been on my mind in a few months (which I suppose is a good thing). But last Tuesday I think I may not have been far from calling them. I'll keep it in mind from now on, especially during the coming period, just in case things go poorly. thank you! Dee, it's so good to hear your comments about being yourself on the inside. After reading that my mind definitely stopped racing and going in circles. I'm doing much better now. I know what you mean about reflections, I'm just trying to ignore the mirror and try to finish whatever task I need to do in front of one. Luckily, yesterday I had a chance to go for a long run. That's really helped too! My original post was on Monday, and on Wednesday I couldn't take it anymore. I had gone through a deep dip. I decided to introduce my 4 year old to my wig. I'm trying to take notes of everything I do with my kids, and I'll try to post it here on TGGuide, just in case at some point it may be useful to someone. I had already introduced him to me wearing a skirt. I did that about a month ago I think, and I did it by just putting on a skirt, nothing else feminine, and I went about our daily business in the house (not outside, as the neighbors don't know about Emily yet). That day he complimented me at least 4 times that he really likes my dress. Each time I thanked him for the compliment, and then moved on to a different subject. The fourth time I wore the skirt in his presence he didn't comment on it anymore. After that I tried other skirts in his presence, and he hardly commented on those. In the beginning I made sure there were at least a few days in-between the times that I wore a skirt. But now I can just do it every day. A week ago I wore my heel in his presence for the first time, and he did not comment on those at all. So now it was time for the wig. I purposely had not shaved for a few days, so that I would be more recognizable. I was wearing a skirt, and a big bulky hoodie sweater. I told him that "I'm bald, and I don't like it. So I have a wig. It's like a hat with hair on it. And I like to wear it because then I don't look bald. It's kind of like dressing up." Then I showed him the wig, and right away he asked: "don't you want to put it on?" So I did. He looked at me for a second and then smiled, saying: "you look like a girl." Then he thought for another second, smiled bigger, and said: "And like a rock star." And then he went back to playing. Ten minutes later we were playing together and he said: "you look like a lady." And that was that. Wig accepted for the rest of the day. It felt wonderful for me, and hopefully not too disturbing for him. I'll wait until next week before I wear the wig again. But so far so good! Thank you all again for your support. I love the community here!