Truer words were never spoken Michele. Like you I finally attain - if only for limited time - a lack of concern about how the rest of the world perceives me. Achieving this more consistently seems so hard. It's hard to be trans, especially if like you and I, we transition. 

It's been particularly hard the last two days. You see, I have an appointment tomorrow in Chicago for "large volume electrolysis" where two electrologists will work simultaneously to clear my facial hair in one very long 12-hour day. They require that I have not shaved for at least 4-5 days so as you can imagine by yesterday my facial hair was quite noticeable to anyone who looked at me as I travelled from Seattle to Chicago. Today I'm holed up in a hotel room trying to survive on one rather expensive chicken salad from room service along with some nuts and instant oatmeal I brought with me. I can't stand the feeling of this beard and would be mightily tempted to shave it off if I'd brought a shaver and shave creme. Thankfully I didn't!

About breast growth, I understand that too of course. I've taken to using a Noogleberry pump system morning and evening for about 45 minutes each time. I guess they're growing but it's hard to be sure. Even if they are I don't know whether they are the result of hormones, Noogleberry, or both. I plan on "Noogling" through the end of 2018 at least in the hopes of at least full B's. 

You wrote: "People will.only be honestly happy for me if I'm honestly happy for myself." I believe that to be true too. In general I am pretty darned happy these days and I'm finding that people around me pick up on that and are happy with for for me right back!

Best wishes,

Emma

Dear Michele,

Please let me respond . . .

My looks - I focus on finding my voice, both physically and emotionally. Am a woman of size, so I work on feeling that people of all sizes and shapes are beautiful! 😉

Will I be loved for whom I am? - Always am seeking having a PURPOSE, that is, what can I contribute to my loved ones and community? 😊

Does my life matter? - Of course, your life and mine DOES matter, otherwise our Higher Power would not permit us to be on Earth. 😇

Do others like me? - Focus on having a FEW good, quality friends instead of winning a popularity contest. As for my family, I consider the T/LGBT community my family. The painful reality is that I can not make anyone like or love me. Even if I could, I wouldn't even try. 😄

Take your time to FIRST find a supportive therapist, support group and save up to attend the nearest transgender conference.

Likely, your cup size will be one cup smaller than your mother's and sisters. 😯

With the right surgeon, your vagina will be indistinguishable from that of a cisgender woman's, so much so, that a gynecologist wouldn't be able to tell the difference! Have seen the vaginas of two post open transwomen (not sexually), and I could not tell the difference! 😷

As you get older, you will be less obsessed about these things, as I have! 😊

Michele, don't forget you have many friends right here, and you'll make even more (face to face) friends as you gain self-confidence. Don't forget you are going through a second (female) adolescence as you transition. 😃

Your friend,

Monica

Hiya Michele, and Emma, and Monica. Michele and I do converse elsewhere, as well as on here, and We can talk quite openly. Michele, You have already blossomed into the most Beautiful Butterfly ! If People do Not see You, for the Beautiful Young Lady, that You already are, then they must be blind ! You are a Terrific Young Lady, and someone Who I Am Very Proud, to call My Friend !! Emma, You are also doing Fabulously. I too have got to get Laser or Electrolysis, done on My Face ! ( I was about to sort it out, when I had A Cancer Scare, and I was having Scan's, and other Medical Appointment's ! Fortunately, I have been given " The All Clear " !! What a Relief, that was !! ). Monica, Everyone is a Different Shape and Size, to each other ! The Motto of My Comment is, That We ARE All Different, but, there are so many similarities between US as well ! All 4 of Us, have known Each Other on here, for quite some time now, indeed I have been on TGGuide since Mid--July, 2015, and this is A Wonderful Community, and the 3 of You, are so Lovely to Know ! Enjoy the Rest of Your Day Girl's, Take Care Girl's because I Care, And My Very Best Wishes, And Lots of Love Girl's, Stephanie. ( Steph53 ). 

Hi there Monica, Stephanie, and Emma

Funny enough, my breast size is somewhere in between my sisters sizes.  Bigger then my oldest that has my body structure (not height but size wise in comparison to height), and smaller then my sister slightly older (the frumpier one).  Hey, they two fatties at birth are the two skinnies in adult.  The relative skinnies at birth are the fat children now, how I love not being their sizes, because my brother is slightly taller then me and around 50% heavier.  Wouldn't look right on me.

But then again I'm in my stronger phases of saying.  Sexy, super sexy model looks.

Have a wonderful and awe inspiring day ladies.  As nothing compares to who you were as a dead shell and now.

Hugs

Michele

Stress is not good, it destroys our body and nervous system. Once my classmate was in constant stress for several months in a row and this led to the fact that she was diagnosed with a deep depression, from which she still comes out. I would also like to say that for several years she took very heavy medications, but over time she began to feel only worse and decided to change her usual pills to enhanced kratom. She feels better, but there is a long therapy with these capsules ahead of her. I hope that it will come back to normal. She's almost recovered now

Dear friends,

Michele, you share the name of one of my beautiful nieces!

Love the picture of you in your home! (above)

Maria, yes, too much stress is destructive. But we require a minimal amount of stress to activate us to get things done.

All you ladies are demonstrating how to make the most of your lives, and I admire all of you for it!

Yours in Sisterhood,

Monica