Female to Male (FtM) Transsexual Discussion

Hi there, I'm new to this forum so hopefully I'm posting this in the right place. Ever since I can remember I knew I was different. I knew I had the wrong parts "down there". It was so unfair, when I was very young I didn't even realize I had something else, I thought I was just missing a penis. At that age (starting to use a toilet) I don't even know how I knew what a penis was, I just knew I didn't have something I should. As I grew up I always felt uncomfortable with my body but I never really felt particularly male or female. Now that I'm older I'm finding I have to do something about this dilemma if I'm ever going to be happy or have a satisfying relationship. I'm…

A wonderful article in this morning's edition of The New York Times: A Transgender Groom Sees Beyond What He Ever Imagined

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Summer of 1980, Location: Middle East, Saudi Arabia.. Report: A new baby has been added to my family members.... Gender: Female (But Deep Inside as I grew up....I Figured out that its a Wrong Answer!) I'm not a Female, Yet not a Male...I'm Just a Creature that lies in the Middle...... Not a He or a She ! I Dont know what Am I !! In My Place, Having a big family and loads of kids would be a source of Man's Self Imaged Pride among his tribe, Especially if his kids were mostly boys... I've never treated like a girl thou, maybe my parents thought that I have a Disorder or something mental... The reason as I realized later that I was spoiled by Gran…

One Year Post Op (FtM Top Surgery) http://youtu.be/db-v8FKOwsw

I was flipping through channels on television and this show was on, decided to watch it. It's about a female, at the time of the show was 32 years old. His story has many up's and down's where the main focus was on his relationship with a cisgender woman and his desire to have bottom surgery. The show was by no means sugar coated, lots of emotions, arguments on many levels. Unfortunately I am not sure what channel it was, either ShowTime or Stars as my cable provider went down shortly after the show and my focus went to their service center. Any ways I would highly recommend watching this show if at all possible. Okay, I found it on Amazon and is free for Prime customers…

Out Transsexual vs Closeted ADULT LANGUAGE http://youtu.be/45IyVzBROxA In this video, I share thoughts about living stealth instead of openly trans, and adding further commentary on the reactions received when disclosing my history and how being known as trans affects my interactions with people.

Im at that stage where, I look like a guy convincingly but am still a girl. Whenever I use the womens change rooms at a pool or go to the loo, the girls look in horror and point and stare. It's getting way to embarrasing and I don't want to get confronted by someone about it. What should I do? Is it okay to go the mens toilets if no one sees you? I really don't know what to do.

How can I get testosterone without a prescription This was the Only Question that pop into my mind at that time! Thurday wasnt the best day for me eva! Woke up early, after a very busy night...My GF who is travelling to Poland with her Family has been missing me.. Horraaaaay!!!! thats why We were on Skype till late hour of the night.... right now.....My Doctor just txt me back with the Community board's Result... Result was One Word: He let me down....! When it came to choosing between (his Career and His Patient)He chose (job security) Over his patient and refused to approve my Needs to get testosterone treatment....Damn! I Cant Do it without a prescription! …

Hey everyone, I've been away from the boards for awhile do to the move across the states, finding a new job (argh), and starting hormones, etc... Chest is healing really well. I just started using "scar zone and it seems to be working. I massage it on twice a day/once in the morning and once at night before bed. I massage the cream in for approx. 2-3 minutes. The left side is looking pretty good compared to the right side. The right side is going to be stubborn!! lol Anyway, the scarring on the left side started disappearing before I started using Scar Zone so that is a good thing!!! There is another brand name that is a little more expensive, but do not rem…

Quincy couple talk about transgender son's sad journey Boston.com In early elementary school, Kristen insisted on playing football, so her parents signed her up for Quincy Youth Football. She was the only girl on the team. When she finally realized that the boys were getting much bigger, she moved on to ice hockey...

I found this site today and I'm working around it:) I related to the profile comment of one of the moderators (Michael) and would like to know more of what this site entails.

(I'm trying to keep this as PG as possible. I hope this is all okay) Hey all. I'm recently coming out to myself. I'm still trying to discover my own gender. I was born with a female body. I'm attracted to men. I lost my virginity as 17 to my boyfriend, and he's the only person I've had sex with. Sex always hurt, I was diagnosed with vaginismus, a disease where nerves cause your vagina to close up when anything approaches it, causing huge amounts of pain or a complete inability to be penetrated. Now at 19, I'm realizing that more than anything this is probably a result of being trans. Do any other guys have experience with vaginismus? I'm mostly just trying to fig…

Hello, I'm new here and I'd like to share experiences to people with female to male. I'm just the other way around (male to female disorder) but I think it's more interesting to find out why people would have those things I liked to remove. For instance: beard growth and why it isn't an option to live as a wife? If I was offline here, you can reach me in the instant messengers (view profile). Best wishes from Germany ;-)

So, I want to shave, and I don't exactly want to slice my face up by accident lol What do I do? Up or downward strokes? Shaving cream? Where? I know nothing. Teach me please This 'bumfluff' hairs that females have, is well, very female looking and may not be helping me pass, even if it is a tiny issue i guess.. but still. i want it gone. And.. will anyone know that i've shaved? If someone were to touch my face, they would know yes? Anyway.. any advice and help is much appreciated Kevin B)

So. I Came out to my whole family yesterday, But the result was surprisingly painful. Pretty much. for the last 17 years i've been a ministers daughter. Four older brothers, a step mother who's into gender roles.... You know every 17's year olds life dream to live in a religious jungle. So, I sat everyone down and spoke. Told them how every third Monday night I go to church... Well a church.... I go to a support group... they've been driving me to transgender support groups.... They're response was pretty sickening. My dad asked me what I was doing at those in the first place. It's bad enough that I was a lesbian. My step mother walked away. My biological brother …

How am I expected to stay calm when my emotions are raging like its no ones business when someone who i liked called me a "Gender challenged he she".... I was on the phone with jasmine when my ex-boyfriend called me and said "So i heard you were like gender challenged or whatever" I said nothing. Then he said "I dont want to talk to you anymore if this is what you choose." I said to him "Well you werent (effing) talking to me in the first place, i kind of stopped after you asked me for my best friends number and then cursed me out later. who the (eff) do you think you are?" Im like beyond the point where i might just flip. Im tired of my parents mocking me, Im tired o…

Spent most of the afternoon with my Dad. Feels so great to again have that father - son relationship. My Dad always treated me as his son until puberty hit. Then, it was all down hill. I could'nt stand being around him. In the past couple months, that has all changed. I have my Dad back. Feels great to be out in public and hear my Dad say, " This is my son." I now, again, really enjoy being with my Dad. It was comical when I left him this afternoon. He reached out to shake my hand. I shook his hand, and then gave him a hug. Told him, "hey fathers and sons do hug." I am so thankful that God has restored to me...that relationship. It's the greatest feeling in …

I just wanted to take a moment to recognize my brothers who were born in a female body who identify and strive to become male and let you know that while you may often be overlooked in many discussions concerning transgender issues, I do try to make the effort to remember and include you guys in with any information or TG topics I discuss, although I must admit I am also guilty of not always remembering to give you equal time, but I do try to make the effort to remember that you are all going through the same thing as your MtF sisters. While it seems that FtM transsexuals may not be as common as MtF (although I could be wrong) you do suffer all the same trials just as mu…

I've now been on Testosterone for two weeks. I feel so much happier now, but I'm impatient. I want my facial hair! When did you guys start noticing face fuzz??? I'm on Androgel, one sqoodgie a day. Halp plz?

I finally found a doc and she got my precripton filled. I will start hormones next week. Its not cool that she is a 3 hour drive away, 6 hours total drive, but for now it will have to do. I found out thru my insurance that she had to call it in and get it approved first and so she did just that and they approved it without hesitation. waaaahoooooo So, my insurance is going to cover it. I only had to pay $10. My doc put the reason I needed the "T" is because I have a low level. They asked no questions other than where to send it. It sucks in a way because they have to ship it to me, not happy about that BUT, I start "T" next week and I AM SIKED ABOUT THAT!!! lol …

So I've decided I'm going to try and talk my parents into helping me figure this all out (even though my mom still wonlt acknowledge it). I want to know how to start this all. ILve come out to my friends, my boyfriend and my friends. I'm going to talk to my parents about gender therapy. Also, if I want to do srs by the time i'm 18 or 19 when would be a good time to start the hormones and real life expierence...btw what is real life expierence?

Hello everyone. Its been a while since I have been to these forums, but I am here in hopes that a question of mine can be answered. I am a transsexual woman. I have seen all kinds of surgeries for MTF folk. However, out of curiosity I wanted to see the Metoidioplasty and Phalloplasty surgeries for FTM. I can find pictures but never any videos of the surgery. If anyone can lead me in the right direction it would really satisfy my curiosity. Much love to you all, Nicole ^_^

I have been revealing in my new found identity with packing and asking people to call me by a different name and binding. I have loved it. What I did not see coming was that summer meant swimming and bathing suits. I love swimming. I live near both a pool and the ocean and I love playing with my kids. I taught swimming for several years during high school and college. I just do not know what to do. I have literally no women’s clothes left that I wear. NONE. What the heck do you guys do to go swimming? I can’t pack and I can not bind. I feel so exposed. I hope some one has some ideas. Christopher :o