Male to Female (MtF) Transsexual Discussion

As a Pre-op female, I was just wondering if being a female is more disired by more people. I know we are all female in early stages of life. Could this be the reason that their are more Mtf then Ftm (With apoligize to ftm). The percentage of mtf is much higher. Also males tend to crossdress and women crossdressers are much lower. Just intrested in hearing opinions? Where the majority of people born, meant to be female?

My son is in the other room slurping down his first solid foods (cereal in formula). It's freakin' hilarious ... he's grabbing at the spoon to try to get it in his mouth faster, and then once it's in there he shoves his fingers in to aid in the process... I think... Ahhh I live a strange life. It's a little like an ink-blot, depending on who looks at it and from what angle, it looks like two totally different things. I had some real momentum and steam built up in March, last time I posted on here, for giving up the last of my guy pretenses. Then a random set of occurrences happened. First, my relationship with my spouse developed some fractures. (Thankfully fixed n…

I know that some of us have had counseling and have gotten through what has happened to us in the past. I know i have but i still don't hide it and i am open to talk about it. Hey oprha winfrey also talks about her past abuse. I just think that much of this potential abuse does direct us in our preferences both pre and post transitioning. Personally, i was sexually abused ( / beaten naked with a radiator brush and my body was aligned to get erection with the use of the nuns habit/cloth) by a nun at 12 yrs old. I ended up in a mental hospital at 13 and 14 for two times of 4 months long. Once it was for wearing womens clothing. I was also sexually abused by other ki…

I have read repeatedly about how transsexuals need to be cautious when using female hormones. Some websites go into great details about possible harmful effects female hormones can have on one's health. I am curious as to whether any of you have had any detrimental side effects, especially serious or potentially serious, using female hormones. Or do you know any other transsexuals who have had such effects on their health? I am taking relatively low dosages of female hormones and spirolactone, but at 57, I occasionally wonder about how many transsexuals experience health problems related to using female hormones. I also am curious if anyone knows, preferably…

how long did it take for your breasts to grow in full? or able to walk outside with a chemisole, and not look like a young girl?

So, today I found some free time and decided to finally get the ball rolling on the name change since my family is now more or less on the same page as me and that I now live completely full time since I now *also* work as a woman. Now, the reason I only focused on the name is due to the fact that PA, where I live, states that you can only change your gender on state identification if one of two things occur: Your birth certificate, in the state you were born in, states you are of the gender you are changing it to.. or You have documented proof from your primary care physician as well as the doctor who performed the surgery that state you have undergone complete…

I'm in late phase 3.

As i start my journey into womanhood, i just have a question for all! You know the whole story about penis envy......is vagina envy possible. I have always been that way. Just wondering what your thoughts were!

My sister inlaw outed me on face-book and one of my young adult relatives wrote me this letter in reply... I am really down today.. I will have to bleap some of the slang.. Relative writes " I should stay out of your personal life, but I'm concerned with what you are doing to my family.. Look, I really dont care what you do in your free time but when you have 5 young children and a wonderful wife at home, this is the kind of stuff that should be done BEHIND CLOSED DOORS. I have honestly never heard or scene anyone that I know personally do something so selfish before. You have single handedly pushed my beautiful aunt into alcoholism and it wouldnt surprise me tha…

I'm a pre-op MtF and ever since I can remember I've prayed to God to PLEASE let me get pregnant. Although I know on an intellectual level that someone born with a penis isn't going to get pregnant, emotionally I can't help but to want to give birth to my own children. I know how insane this sounds, but I see this as one very big indicator that I have a female brain and tell psychiatrists about this thought when they ask why I think I want to have srs. Sorry if this bothers you, really, I just needed to get it out. :ph34r:

Dear All, I'm a post-op woman who had SRS with colon graft vaginoplasty in 2005 in India, and introitus revision in 2006 in Thailand. Both surgeries left my vaginal entrance too small, although on examination the inner canal is adequate in diameter and depth. Aside from this, I've been experiencing frequent arousals from my genital area, even when just merely touched on the face or hands. I know that many post-SRS women experience orgasmic episodes, of which I am lucky to be among. This excessive sexual stimulation is becoming uncomfortable; awake or sleeping, I experience powerful orgasms then find out that some clear fluid in the clitoral/urethral areas wer…

I've been reading a book about depression and helping oneself through it, learning to avoid ways of thinking and situations that make oneself depressed. So when I get a night like tonight, where I would usually just shut down and do something as mindless as possible until I can sleep (say, reading) .. I guess a commonly recommended strategy is to refocus one's energy towards activities that usually make one feel good about oneself, encourage positive feedback and so forth. This comes and goes for me, depending on who knows what. I have a pretty good idea what started it tonight. There is some part of me that finds this dispassionately interesting because it's just an e…

This was written by me in April of 1999. It was my first published internet editorial, and addresses my earliest impressions of this community. You will see that philosophically I have evolved beyond the opinions expressed here, particularly as they apply to my own life and plans for the future. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~THE LADDER~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I am a fairly recent arrival to the transgendered "community," for want of a better word, having first made contact with you all in January of this year. Until that time, I traveled this road in total isolation-- had never spoken to or met another person like me. In the four months since my first foray onto the internet, sp…

I'm 20 and i've been on hrt for 10 months (going on 11), and I've noticed that my hips are widening. The reason I raise the issue is that i'm thin enough that I can see the edge of my hip bone, so it's not fat. And all the HRT faqs i ever read said that hrt wouldn't effect bone structure. But after talking to some other transsexuals my age that doesn't seem to be the case at all. It's certainly not my imagination, i've gained 1.1" to my hips, at the point where I can feel the bone under the skin (clearly visible as well, trust me, i'm pretty skinny). Young transsexuals seem to experience a widening of the hips in some cases, thats not strictly due to fat. So I just …

I'm leaving to have surgery in Montreal tomorrow. I'll be having a vaginoplasty and a tracheal shave. I'm really excited for the results, I am also a bit frightened of the procedures. I have an existential fear of local anesthesia, and surgery in general is just a scary prospect. I'm also not looking forward to the recovery process. If I could just fast forward I would, but I suppose that all good things require some sacrifice. I'm just hoping it all goes without a hitch and that I have a relatively painless recovery. I also had a great party tonight. Not everyone came that I would have wanted, but many of them were out of town on vacation, or working night shifts, so…

Everytime you search transgender, transexual period there are always sites that pop up with a shemale having sex. Now no disrespect to girls on here who are non ops and all! I just think they all give us a poor image. We are not just chicks with dicks. We are women. We are women on the inside on some are on the inside and out, heart body and soul women. Just some of this girls make me sick. Yes I'm planning on getting surgery down there and my BF knows not to touch me there now, cause it is a part that I hate. I do not play the dom role at all as I am very feminine and submissive. Thats just me on rambling. Sorry must be my harmones raging! KELLIE

So, for the past year now, it seems, my sexual orientation has been slowly changing from queer to bi, if not straight... Simply put: I'm not interested in women like I used to be; I prefer the thought of being with a man nowadays. I had figured that I was bi from the ages of 14 to 18, which is when I realized that I'd never really been physically or sexually attracted to a man... I've always been emotionally attracted to them because they have what I lack: masculinity. I first noticed that that wasn't the case this last April when I decided to dance with a rather sweet guy I met at a mini concert at a local pub in Trinidad. (My mother and I visited to get a feel for th…

Hey everyone. I know the idea of talking hormones around here is a tad bit, um, touchy, but I was curious if anyone had any helpful insight on this issue. My friend who is in law school, and also a trans individual, has told me this is 'all in my head' or just completely unrelated to my taking spirotone. At any rate, about a week ago, last monday, I began taking spirotone (generic spiro anti androgen meds.) Now, the first concern I have is, ever since about the third or fourth day, anytime I take it, shortly after (sometimes it takes an hour, sometimes as quick as 15 minutes) I feel weird aching-like sensations in the, um, crotch area. It isn't specific to any ge…

I have an appointment to see my gender therapist on the 2o=0th July. That's cool and everything but my wife wants to come along to the sessions, to hear what the therapist has to say and to hear what I say to the therapist. She said she still doesn't believe I'm transgendered and that we haven't explored all avenues and she won't quit on me until we've explored every avenue. I was like WTF, it seems as if I'm a kid and she is my mom taking me to see a docotor to find out what is wrong with me. How do I talk her out of this or what do I say to her. I have no idea what to do ?

If money was no object at all, what makes some women feel they MUST have SRS, while others are perfectly content as is. Of course I understand that assimilation into the female populous is a need for all women, just wondering why some dont care about SRS while others will get it done if it's the last thing they do. Take finances out of the picture, what are the driving reasons? Also, I was wondering what needs to be done physically, if anything, before you can actually change your drivers license/passport etc. Can you also get your birth certificate changed? -Kim

One of the first questions I faced when talking to people about being transgender and married to a woman was that they asked how that could be possible because they thought I would be gay. Around here we all know that gender identity and orientation are separate matters though they are also often related. I thought hard about the female mind and looked deeper into what types of attraction I had for both sexes. I supressed my femininity so much that I didn't face the reality of what kind of attraction I had for men. All I can say is that to me I like both men and women, but it is so difficult for me to understand this myself because what I hear on the news an…

I discovered about six years ago I did not have any sperm. Last year I began trying to ascertain the possible causes of this condition. One of the possibilities seemed to be Kleinfelter's syndrome, as I seemed to exhibit in much of my life some, but certainly not most, of symptoms associatd with this condition. A lab test last summer confirmed I did not have Kleinfelter's. However, it was discovered my Y chromosome had two copies of the short arm and some loss from the long arm, which resulted in me being infertile from birth. Neither the physican who prescribed the lab test, a gender therapist I went to last summer nor a genetics specialist who later contact…

Hairy. ugly, horrible creatures. Why do we like them so much?

I feel a little silly posing this question, but I have been occasionally wondering about it for many years. Tthere are sleeveless dresses, short sleeve sweaters, especially babydolls and chemises that reveal so much of one's body offered for sale among women's fashions during the fall and winter, compared to flannel shirts, long sleeved sweaters and cotton pajamas, among men's fashions. Looking at the Victoria's Secret website, they are currently offering much more skimpy lingerie to sleep in than comfy pajamas. Therefore I wonder if females may be, on average, a little less sensitive to cooler temperatures than males. I often feel cold during the late fall and wint…

:unsure: Hi, it is Virginia again. I have so many fears and questions regarding my transition. I'm I too old for surgery? (47) How do they create a vagina? Is it convincing? Will I be all scared up? What is the average cost. Are there financing programs? - Virginia -