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Emma, Thank you for your support. This journey most likely be a marathon. That's okay. As long as it happens by the time I am 45 years old. Love, --Lisa

For me it's not about having to do this before I die. It is more about how I want to live. If I found out that I only had 2 weeks to live and hadn't transitioned, that would be the least of my worries and honestly, I would have no regrets. No matter what I do, I do know that I will regret not transitioning now and later in life looking back on it. Because my feelings won't subside. There is always the possibility that they will, kind of like they did for a number of years until lately. But I doubt it. I'm in a different stage in my life, where it's not about advancing my career. So once those took a back seat to my life, everything has changed for me. I wouldn't call it a mid-life crisis. I would call it a re-prioritization of my life.

Hi Lisa, I'm also happy that you kept a copy of this post - I'd hate to miss it. And I'm glad that you're finding that the blogging is helping you. For me it's so helpful to write out my thoughts so I can gain some perspective and not have to try to juggle them all in my mind. We're all in 100% support of you and your journey, wherever it takes you. I hope you're confident of that. Hugs, Emma

Your comment about being an "imposter in the TG House", I used to feel as well. Especially if you go to a group where several have transitioned or are in the process of transitioning. I felt like if I was not in the process of transition that somehow I was a fraud. Someone said they felt like a fraud and someone else felt like they did not have courage as well and I said that I felt the same way to the group. But, we can't feel that way. We all have our own individual journeys and should not feel like we have to transition, have SRS, etc. For example, I may never transition. If I did transition, I may have FFS, but will most likely not have SRS or at least have it for a while. Yet I feel the need to present and express myself as female. And look good. It's true that gender is between the ears. But we all have a need to express our gender in some way. For me, it has to do with how I am perceived and what I've learned that society finds acceptable. For others, it may be different.

Muchas gracias to both of you! I really appreciate your support and comments. A recurring issue for me is, as Veronica says, let the chips fall. It's hard for me to let go. I'm working on that. It's all part of my own Finding Myself Journey I suppose. Maybe I should have satin baseball jackets made with "Emma's 2015 Tour" embroidered on the back? Kidding. I'd never do such a thing. Warm hugs for you both, Emma

Thanks for sharing Emma, the way I see it you are trans* by all means, no question about it and I say that in a good way. And I enjoyed reading this blog entry. IMHO it is not the clothes, heaven forbid I am not one to put on makeup and fancy clothes to say to the world "Hey, I am female". My best friend is relentless in trying to get me to purchase very pretty outfits but I will not have that. I agree to somewhat that it's between "here" that indicates I should be female or I should be male dependent on the person but to me, it's in my head. There are days in the past year I went out to teach a class and wore the appropriate clothes and not even attempt to look female but yeah I did and that is just fine with me. In the end I am comfortable in jeans with my hair in a ponytail. PS I am not one for sitting in a group to hear myself chat with others but instead a willing participant to share knowledge that benefits the group.

Congratulations, Karen! :D

:) have an awesome weekend KAREN ! Veronica.

One thing I truly do when there is a long process and I want to move forward I am like a freight train and do not stop until I get it. I hope what I write about here inspires others otherwise it's all for nothing as I am on the private side and only become public in the hopes of helping others and at the same time others can help me :-)

I am usually pretty long winded.. so I'll just say "Thank you, for not giving up and continuing to inspire"

Congrats, Karen.. :)

Wonderful news Karen. Do you mind if we call you that ? Hugs Veronica.

Congratulations Karen! I'll bet that's a big relief. One more thing you can cross off the list.