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Saturday 27th June was a nice day, after getting in the weekly supermarket shopping in the morning, I asked my wife what she wanted to do, as usual she said things that she thought I wanted to do, so I said no what do YOU want to do? She wanted to go to see the rose garden at Coughton Court, this about 10 miles or so from where we live in a little village called Kings Coughton. The Court is a National Trust site (sort of stately home and gardens open to the public and owned by the Trust), and it's main reason for fame is that co-conspirators of Guy Fawkes lived there centuries ago when they hatched the gunpowder plot to overthrow parliament. It was quite a sunny and warm day so I dressed accordingly and took lots of photo's with my i-phone, my wife took one of my with my phone too, see below, anyway the place was very busy and at times children were told to move out of the ladies way, this made me feel good inside, it really lets me know that I do pass as female when out and about, however I have to be careful about what I wear to hide masculine shoulders and lack of hips, but the very lightweight coat is almost a cardigan, and so thankfully I didn't get too hot, and didn't get strange looks from people thinking why is she wearing a coat! Any way we finished the visit off with an ice cream (strawberry for me and salted caramel for my wife). we then returned home and rested before we had friends around for the evening. My friends are all trans, two of them (a couple) are post op and the other pre-op as am I, well we all had a great evening, I had cooked coq au vin which seemed to be enjoyed by all, I also introduced them to Aperol Sprtitzers (3 parts Prosecco, 2 parts Aperol, 1 part soda water with lots of Ice and a slice of orange), these were definately enjoyed along with all the rest of the drinks consumed into the small hours of the morning. Down side is that I am now feeling a little "empty headed" as I type this blog entry, but I look back at the week just passed and reflect on how happy I am with it, Monday at ChX GIC with the changes in my hormone treatments and Finasteride, Wednesday with my once every 12 weeks Decapeptyl injection, and yesterday's day out and an evening in with great friends. The photo's are me being dwarfed by a massive potted flower display outside the rear doors to Coughton Court, and me with one of my friends Louise in our kitchen. I hope that you all have happy times too, it'd be nice to hear of them. Cheers, Eve

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For so many years I would dress in the morning in tactical clothing which includes a firearm inside my trousers and a revolver at the ankle and would stay that way until bed time. Slowly this became coming home at immediately disrobing into female jeans or leggings and a female top with flats. Those days are completely gone now hurray for that other than use to taking 15 minutes in the morning to 30 to 40 minutes in the morning where the majority of this time is "what will I wear today" which turns into "that looks good" to "Oh, wore that two days ago" to "wore something similar yesterday" to "I think this will do but not sure about the shoes" Yeek. Yes I do the same thing with my undergarments too. The funny thing is as the weather becomes increasingly warmer (yeah in the nineties plus) I find myself when at home undressing down to a tank top, no bra and panites and keep my capris close by for when someone comes to visit. Also, no shoes (really). It is fun looking back in time to how life was for many years to evolve into "I'am getting closer" to "I have arrived". For many travelling this path I can say with utmost certainty that baby steps are better than taking huge leaps from one gender to another gender. It gives one time to accommodate both the mind and body to your true gender. Think of it as a per-teenage girl growing up where they learn through the years to become a woman rather than one day declaring they are a woman. Same goes for female to male, lessons are learned and you are acclimated to that role. Some will think "I can't wait to be away from the day to day burden of this wrong body" but I urge you to take time to become accustomed to not only your body but also how people see you and people can tell (thinking male to female) when you do things out of place which goes back to my recent entry Feminine Movement. I find myself doing cisgender things in the past few months that I was not in the past and see men noticing me more and more, you can tell "that look" which is "hottie" or "is that a man or female" and I am getting the "hottie" look more and more (and I like even more when females give me that look). So take your time and be the man or woman you are comfortable with. “Where should I go?" -Alice. "That depends on where you want to end up." - The Cheshire Cat.” ― Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland & Through the Looking-Glass

Out here in Oregon there are incentives for people to use public transportation and many of my friends use it and can afford to drive. We do have those whom you indicated also so everyone is in a mixed barrel and yes we have those bike riders too but only can tell by what they wear and gear as biking is huge out here.

Karen, What saddens me is that this discourages my inviting any of my TLGB friends here. Also, when I am dating, I can't give a "positive spin" on where I live, as I would not invite a dog here. Have to retract my offer for you (and everybody else!) to visit, because of the obvious. It seems to get better in my building and in downtown Beacon, and get worse in Wappingers Falls. Thank God I no longer live there. The dormitory has been closed and, God forbid, the landlord rented the dormitory quarters to ANOTHER Mexican family! LOL! Not enough for the landlord to bring queers into town! LOL!! Public transit outside of major cities is seen as "for losers." Many passengers are angry because their license was suspended (probably this lady's problem), "DUI Bicycle Club members," and the disabled. Public transit passengers are seen as "second class citizens." This is THEIR problem, and they are welcome to take their lousy attitudes, walk PAST my bus stop, and wait at another bus stop. Unfortunately, I am seen as a second class person in the dating scene because I am in public housing (although very high quality . . . you can't tell it is public housing by looking at it), low income (I have always paid my own bills) and disabled. Am discouraged because I feel I can't bring much "to the table" except that I am a kind and supportive person, which is of little value in today's society. This is why if I stay, I hope to find a long distance relationship (I would get together with her physically every three or four months, but maintain contact every day or couple of days). Monica

Eve, Nothing like ladies having a good time! Monica

It's sad that people that bullied you have lead you to your spirit dying, nobody should have to take this and have to consider moving as an option. One thing I do know is if they see it hurts you they will continue which is even worst that they must continue with their crap.

Okay so I wanted to throw up a really quick blog entry for my friend Amy, who has recently decided to start up her Youtube channel with an introduction video If you guys/girls would like to check it out, please feel free to give her a thumbs up and some support (my brain is so fried from no sleep i wrote thamb up and some supper lol guess im hungry XD) Sending some love your way, Amy!! Warren

Monica, thanks for your insight. In regards to law enforcement, I have been working with law enforcement for a long time, have done executive protection and have and still teach empty hand techniques that apply to various types of attacks. You are correct about not calling a bullet back which is why I also had other weapons, firearms were only one of them. I did this from 2001 until 2013 for company security and executive protection. I could easily write a blog entry on this stuff but refrain from it as it would be very disturbing to many here as it entails shooting and such. I have been trained by elite entities over the years where many are only open to military and law enforcement. If there is a decent size group that commits to one of my classes anyplace in the United States I will come to them for one or two days.