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Your world can change immensely in one day. Days, months, and years of trepidation gall away once the switch changes. Decisions, once made and committed to redefine the way we engage with the world. in March 2015, I boarded a train for Montreal to take me to the Centre Métropolitain de Chirugie where my body world be transformed for the last time. The record of my musings was recorded in this existing blog. If You like what I wrote, please let me know. I may continue at tgguide.

The week started off with me finding a really cute (age appropriate) top that I love so I purchased two of them. I have a habit where if I like something be it clothing or not if it appeals to me two or three are in order. Then I received my results from my hormone test done last month. The results indicate that I am midways, smack in the center of the scale in three separate test. Early on in the week I became friends with a younger woman (43 years old) whom I fibbed about my age, said I was 50, don't all woman lie about their age. At one point she said I looked younger than 50 which I then had to tell her the truth that I would be turning 59 shortly and was perfectly fine with her. She has invited me to her place next weekend for a BBQ and think she will become a good friend. Today I made plans to visit Portland's Saturday Market with my best friend but she has issues with a kidney stone so instead will be meeting with an old female co-worker. Will most likely then visit my friend with the kidney stone as were I am having lunch with the other friend is 10 minutes away. Thinking of the weather in recent weeks, I have been stripping down to the bare minimum for the over 90 degree weather, no bra nor panties while home wearing a comfortable summer dress or tank top and panties. What a change from last summer when I had to tuck that thing between my legs which in hot weather made if difficult to keep tucked and comfortable. Did I mention this is the perfect time for thongs, so far I have purchased at least a dozen thongs in various colors and pattern. I don't wear them everyday but tend to wear them more so on the weekends as during the week it is nearly impossible to change pads often enough as I am fairly moist down there and tend to need pad changes several times a day even with good quality pads. Before surgery I was concerned a little that I would not be self lubricating but thankful that I am and more so when having erotic thoughts. I was told that at some point it may be somewhat uncomfortable in regards to stimulation of my clit in daily life. Believe it or not I was driving down the road and made some movement that got me so aroused that I had to pull my car off the road until the arousal went away else I could not concentrate on driving. That is such a wonderful feeling that unlike arousal of the penis this sticks with me for sometime and is slow to go away.

Hi Tara, Welcome to TGGuide. I enjoyed reading your blog, I liked your style and openness. Congratulations on your transition! I suppose it feels like it's all downhill from here? I hope so and hope you're doing well. For me, I'm less likely to go to a blog outside of TGG. Call me lazy but I tend to read what I see here and comment if I'm compelled. No matter, you're welcome to join and add your voice. Please do! Hugs, Emma

Yes that would indeed do so.

My stars! Thank you for letting me know. Now it's public, and I have an explanation for the abysmally low traffic to the blog :-p

Ohhhhh No, she just often looks that way

Hello, seems that your blog is setup for invitation only.

Christie, I was referring to her expression, or are you being even more humerous with your reply LoL

Bunch of things I like to get out there but are too short really for multiple blog entries Went for a long overdue pedicure yesterday where I always have a good time. My lady told me that not only my facial features were female but complimented me on my overall physical appearance and said that all the ladies that work there agreed. Now I was going to get a color matching my fingernails but decided on French nails for my toes after seeing the customer next to me up until one of the other employees sat down next to me and got the color shown above and let me tell you it became a struggle similar to being indecisive like many of my mornings are after picking out what to wear five million times. Since I could not make the decision two of them said I should get this color as they said my eye's really opened up after seeing this color and let me tell you the photo does not do the color here justice. One of the things I had to be concerned with un-like in my prior identity was to figure out how to weaponize myself (some say I am a weapon lol) when wearing little to nothing as in this image below, Since there are no pockets I found myself what is called a paddle holster which slips on, in this case to my skirt and when using the restroom can be easily detached and placed either besides me or on the toilet paper dispenser. Some days I do miss not having pockets but with a little ingenuity it all works out being concealed by a loosely draped cardigan. We all would like to believe that violence will not come to you but sadly trans* and gay etc are much more susceptible to violence then the cis-gender people and in my honest opinion better to be safe than sorry. Next item, over the past month I have been getting the strangest cravings, first, about three weeks ago got into kitkat candy were I can't even begin to remember the last time I had one, maybe 20 years ago. After a week and about four extremely large packages the urge died. Last week an this week it's potato chips, have to force myself from not dipping into them first thing in the morning, oh how I can't wait until this passes. Yeek, now I know how pregnant woman feel. Then there is a glorious event, I have gone (in the beginning) from gobs of lubricant for dilation to cutting it in half then cutting it in half again to zero lubrication jelly to smearing it on my middle finger and I can slide the large dilator right in. Matter of fact if I open my legs the dilator will slowly pop out unlike a month ago it would stay in place. So with that I have three eight oz and six four oz containers of lubrication jelly that is going to take forever to go through now. Lastly, getting ready to head off to my electrolysis session for work on my underarms. Thought I would not worry about this area but since breast augmentation it's almost impossible to shave at the lower-area to get all the hairs. Last month was the first time for this and we agreed to work the majority on one side. Any ways can't wait till this is done

Thanks for your thoughts Monica!!!

Dear Karen, First the toes! ABSOLUTELY love that color and design! Glad you received feedback from other women as they can see your facial expression while you look at various colors and designs, thereby cluing them into what looks good on you. Obviously, you can't see your own facial expressions, so it is good to shop with women whose fashion savvy you can trust. About weapons in the restroom. Think it would be safest to place them on the tank of the toilet or on top of the toilet paper dispenser, rather than on the floor. My philosophy is that if I feel the need to carry a weapon to be somewhere, then I shouldn't be there at all. About cravings . . . when I feel a craving, I try to go without indulging eat for two or three days, and, if the craving is still there, then, what the *el*, I'll indulge it! Sometimes I will psychoanalyze myself, and ask myself, what is going on in my life? Personally, I do not allow potato chips, soda (not even diet), hot dogs, etc., in the home, but, I must confess, even though I have cut back, I still enjoy various forms of chocolate in the home! Interesting, even though I have cut back on salt, fat, and sugar, I have noticed that my body shape has changed (my chest has lost inches, my bra cup larger, waist gained six inches yet lost pounds). All my life, my chest and waist sizes were the same. For the first time in my life, they are not. Have seen my doctor about it last Monday. What concerned me the most, is that this happened rather suddenly, even before the hot weather hit. Have heard women's bodies change through the lifespan, but not suddenly, say, within two months. Had a complete physical and blood work done, and will let you know what she says. Karen, we DO live in changing times. Today I would not live in Sheepshead Bay, Brooklyn, especially as a single woman. Am amazed how much gratuitous violence I am seeing in NYC and other large cities, for no reason, at all. According to my best friend, my old neighborhood is no longer recognizable. In your case, you do not "look" Gay. BUT, you are an attractive lady, that looks years younger, and there are troubled men who resent/hate women to watch out for. To sum up, WE MUST LOOK OUT FOR ONE ANOTHER. Your friend, Monica