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Lucky I've been like a teenager my whole life when it comes to being a girl, can't wait to see what grown up lady brings me. Grey hair I call golden streaks.  Enjoy the new look Karen.

Congrats Christie.  All the best with the remainder also struggling this side with all documents needed.

Love

Michele

Now show the work will be done and I'm the obvious choice for the permanent post.

That is good advice, and that is why I started using my script not at the end of the month when I go for my script, but a bit more then a week into the new month, so even if they don't have my whole order, they are maybe the half of the medication and I can go fetch it on another day.  And I have been struggling with my Spirolactin for the last few months, and also had to return between week 2 and 3 for my remainder.

Lots of love

Michele

Thank you for the best wishes and inspiration Stephanie.

It only lasted a bit more then a day, and I lost 3kgs, roughly 7Lbs over that time frame.  I gained most of the weight back, so I am happy, but now spring is here is sinus problems of running noses.  I hate seasonal changes.

Best of luck with your relationship or the nullifying of it.  Which makes you happiest, you should remember is the answer you were waiting on.

Only treating the gastro with the oldest solution in the world.  And it taste yucky, and lucky one is under control, the other, will never let anyone control them

XOXOXOXOXXO

Michele

Thanks gals.  But I'm sitting with cramps.  Why did my medically induced periods have to be from today, when gastro strikes too.  So a double whammy and both is causing me cramps.  And he is trying to comfort me although I told him not to be around me for the next few days.

XOXOXOXO

Michele

Hi Brigsby

Its unfair for your family to expect that you must accept what they throw at you, but not allowing you to just be who you want to be.

I have uncles and aunts I cut off completely, because they were toxic.  One tried to re-initiate us talking a few years back and my college had to ask them to leave because I said the evil ghost has entered the office I was working in and I font speak to the dead.  Told him how we had a fight and I got written off and I it answered, "Fine, but never talk to me again as you are dead to me too."

With my siblings I only talk to my oldest sister as she was the only one that accepted me from a young age and even back then offered to pay for the surgery, which I refused and said I'll do it on my own.  I'm talking about 31 years back.  I frequently go to my brother's place (not the one who past away in 2005, but the middle child), not to see him but my niece as I can't make him change his mind.  Funny enough is in laws accepts the change and actually encourage me to stay true to myself.  But my sister slightly older then me, I physically speak to about 10 minutes out of the year as she and her husband are both dictators that decided I should listen to them as I am selfish to want to be happy.  My mom acts supportive, but she isn't, and it's fine.  I'm not relying on there support as I never needed their strength to continue on in my life.

What I can say is.  Make yourself happy, as it will reflect in how others see you.  And maybe they come around if not.  At the very least you'll get a, do what pleases you, but don't expect me to make life easy for what was left for you by your father (mine past away in 1999).  So, your ID changes are your problem to prove who you are.

If you like me, you'll take every blow as it comes and hopefully no one brings you down.

You are strong enough to cope with life.  You have a support system.

Strong's

Michele

Hi Karen

Once defender of rifgts , you'll always be fine.  Good outlook in life, and I always remembered that I said I'm doing this as soon as I find the right medical practitioners I feel I can trust and follow my heart.  Definitely interesting to see peoples reactions after realizing I'm doing what I said I would.

Keep strong and happy.  Support your dreams, aspirations and that of loyalty.

Hugs

Michele

The skin color in my family isn't an issue, but I sometimes fear my mother's response which comes over very harsh at times.  Heaven help a 72 year old woman.

Monica

I get all the support from friends.  But ask some of them, they'll say we family.  CIS African males, none the less.  I'm just the quirky sister with a lighter skin.

I've got a limited amount of TLGB family AMD the support is overwhelming at times, but we manage to survive.

I've got a friend that wants to marry me off to her brother.

You'll enjoy the next entry I'm going to post now, Massage gone flustered

I'm a traditionalist to the point where I am feminine, but I'm modern as in independent, strong will and minded, not physically all that strong but determined to succeed, pants wearing, automotive and weapons loving, hand to hand girl.  So not a typical girl, just a fun loving and emotional girl.

Monica

I can't agree more.  We all are spiritually growing with the beliefs, knowledge and social acceptance.  But we still get those stinted minds that refuse change and only grows hatred.  My school life was filled with questions from others and dictatorship, not that I allowed people to rain on my parade, throughout my primary and high school life.

I do understand American terminology even though I live in South Africa.

Michele

Thanks for the encouragement. The thought of the persecution towards myself is what keeps me fighting. Still waiting on the answer to my proposal. Hopefully it gets looked at and I'll actually enjoy doing this. Using my intellect as opposed to using brawn.

Thanks a lot.

The only choices I needed to make was when to start and when I'm old and strong enough for some of my family members. Come out of a family with old school rules, your elders decide if you may or not.

My career was the first rebellion and my life has always been a rebellion, as I couldn't face a world of not being me.

So good to be positively female.

Emma

Whining sometimes is used as a method of maintaining my sanity and perspective.

So will continue.

Michele

Ps. Thank goodness for mother choosing my name at birth, and me loving it. Amd also never needing to hide my inner or true self.

Hey Warren

If a person is toxic in your life, its sometimes better to treat the toxic as an allergy.

Like you at work, I do have a few obstacles, but most wont even dare to confront me on be a sweet soft petite girl. I think they scared I'll punch their teeth out. My family will be stubborn and want to titlelize me as male, and then I shoot a look and all is well, they only argued once with me on shoes. I told them, my body, my rules, my life, my choices in life and I'll always be me. Funny enough when its a physical or dangerous problem, they run to the baby (which is me), if its money wise my mom runs to my older brother, oldest was never reliable.

I know how toxic some people can be. My father had 11 siblings and all I wrote off as toxic and invisible. So I understand seeing that I was close to one, till I mentioned searching for a doctor and specialist.

But you dont sound as cold or cut off from my emotions and people that doesnt mean anything to me.

Hope the persons you want back in your life has a break through of understanding.

Hugs

Michele

They are inspirational and I do understand that sometimes the harder you fight for your right to be precisely who you see inside. We need the persons who are fighting for all persons rights. Some days I'm strong enough and others I just climb into a bed hiding for a few days. But hey thats my time to recover and refocus my energies on all fights coming my way.

These powerful trans ladies are giving us motivation to continue.

They are inspirational and I do understand that sometimes the harder you fight for your right to be precisely who you see inside. We need the persons who are fighting for all persons rights. Some days I'm strong enough and others I just climb into a bed hiding for a few days. But hey thats my time to recover and refocus my energies on all fights coming my way.

These powerful trans ladies are giving us motivation to continue.

Body structure does not dictate the persons capabilities or knowledge. If that was the case, men would know everything about firearms and fighting in general, because their bodies makes them have the heart to also engage in danger for a Law Enforcement member signed up yo traverse these arenas.

In reality more men run away from danger as a police officer, because the FLIGHT part takes over when fighting is needed to stop a situation, and females know they have to switch it off or no one will want to work with them outside ever again. Double standards I know, but unfair.

The finality of a firearm if used accurately, will always make it my last choice. I was probably one of few persons trained to use a firearm as a means of controlling anger. Not the best way, seeing that martial arts didn't work on me personally, but was extremely effective for me at a young age as I loved and still love the responsibility a firearm dictates for it's users. And immediately calms me down as soon as I get one in my possession, and keeps me calmer through all situations.