Moe

What exactly am I looking for if, God forbid, I'm single again. Being 79 years old, my time is precious on this earth, but that does not mean I can't experience what I've wanted my whole life. Being a man has ment that I fought the battles, lead the charge, protected the family, was the bread winner and all of that. I would love a women that is 100% vested in our relationship and my transformation. A women that takes the lead in all aspects from day to day, to sex, to my transformation. We need to have a 50/50 relationship except her 50% is worth more than mine..lol. Throw out my mens underwear and replace it with women's bras, panties, etc.. Replace.my clothes with more feminine attire. Teach me how to use makeup. Teach me how to be a women. In return she will have my love, affection and respect. She will feel safe. She will be nurtured. We will sleep next to each other feeling the warmth of our bodies and smelling the essence of each other. Hold hands, kiss, caress... two women in love! - 30-

Why do I have this desire to become a women, I don't know. My father died when I was six, my mother was an unhappy alcoholic and married a weak useless man. Did these affect me, don't really care. I am living and dealing with this. When I was a freshman in high school I had my first and only homosexual experience with my best friend. Had no idea what I was doing but enjoyed pleasuring him. I dated two women that could have encouraged me to fulfill my needs, but I was such a fool I did not recognize the possibility. My dream would be to be with a women that would support me 100%; To help me become the women I want to be. -30-

My dream is to have breasts. I want to wear a bra because I have breasts. This is something I've wanted most of my life. Breasts are the mark of a women. No matter the size, breasts and nipples make a women. I've been looking at different doctors that do breast augmentation, post photos on their web page and specialize working with men. If I ever have the opportunity, one of the first things I will do is to walk out of the doctor's facility with a wonderful set of breasts. Some doctors websites say that because of a man's chest structure, they want at least 18 months of hormone therapy. To be complete, I need to have breasts. -30-

Growing up as a male, you are expected to do male things such as the clothes you wear, your friends, your occupation, military service, drinking beer, hunting, fishing etc. It's not the activities for the most part, but the pressure to do them to conform. Why can't I wear women's underwear. Why can't I cry. Why can't I be accepted for who I am. Many years I went deer hunting, and underneath the blaze orange outerwear I wore a nice bra and panty set while in the deer blind. Talk about the perfect example what we should be able to do without the pressure of "being a man". Reminds me of the Lumberjack Song! -30-

I'm 79 and just starting my journey that I may not complete. Good for you to find your own self!

I've had a love hate relationship with my penis. Sure it felt good while masterbating or having intercourse, but it always was the cause of problems. Relationships to me were always penis centric and the women came (no pun) last. Then when I was in my middle 60s I discovered male chastity devices. I was able to lock my penis up and this gave me a great sense of relief. And, I was able to come out to a friend who is a lesbian and understood exactly what I was feeling. By this time, my second wife and I were not having relations and slept in separate bedrooms. Then, I was operated on for prostate cancer and later had radiation treatments for the remaining cancer. The outcome was my penis is now just 2 inches long and I cannot ejaculate, which is a blessing. I can push both my penis and testacles into me and with tight underwear, have that smooth area between my legs that I always wanted. Part of my dream is to have a Orchiectomy leaving me with just a tiny penis. -30-

Starting before puberty, I had this drive, this need, that I did not understand. Many times I would try on my mother's bra and panties (think she knew but these are things that were not talked about) and wish I could wear them all the time. When the Sears catalog arrived, I went directly to the women's "Foundation" section and not only wished I could wear them but had breasts to fill the bra and no penis or testicles so I would be smooth in the crotch. Before the internet, had no idea that I was trans. Many times when I was out of town, I would by women's underwear and wear it under my suit while conducting business. My first wife never knew and coming out would have been a quicker divorce than we had. Now I know what I am and know why I can't do anything about it. This will be my journey in this blog! -30-