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  1. A new name this weekend - Called "Babe" by one of the life guards as I was heading for the pool.  My hair was in a pony tail and I was in red biking outfit.

     

  2. Dawn13

    How many times have you been mistaken as a girl

    Not sure if this fits here - It does show some my mistaken gender ID, I Have been following all the Jenner news. This has stirred some of my recent thinking. What is the core of why we have our feelings and want so much to change. I think there is a certain desire to see ourselves as beautiful. Women express this better than almost all men. When I put on a dress I feel changed. When I see other men I see most of them as lazy/unkempt, fat/heavy and scuzzy. This is the excepted image of most men. I do not fit this image and I know I am stared at a lot by other men, usually in restrooms, who do not expect a beautiful looking man. When I look beautiful (Handsome) day-to-day, I am often mistaken for a girl, even when in unisex or masculine clothing. I usually do not go out of my way but I am well groomed, very tan, fit and now have longer styled blond hair. I think some of why I wish I could change is rooted in the concept of beauty - and if men could also be beautiful in what is currently a woman's norm early in life - I think fewer would be unhappy with their body image and fewer would want to change. Here is another thought. I think is more acceptable to be changed completely into a woman than it is to dress and adorn ones self in a similar fashion. Yes, I would love to wear a colorful attractive dress and show off my small waist and still not try to hide that I have a somewhat feminine looking male body. However, I feel less anxiety when I go through the complete effort of hiding any maleness as I look completely like a woman. Also, I actually feel safer in woman mode as I do not see myself as a homosexual; not wishing for men to lust for me in this fashion.
  3. Have been following all the Jenner news.  This has stirred some of my recent thinking.  What is the core of why we have our feelings and want so much to change.  I think there is a certain desire to see ourselves as beautiful.  Women express this better than almost all men.  When I put on a dress I feel changed.  When I see other men I see most of them as lazy/unkempt, fat/heavy and scuzzy.  This is the excepted image of most men.  I do not fit this image and I know I am stared at a lot by other men, usually in restrooms, who do not expect a beautiful looking man.  When I look beautiful (Handsome) day-to-day, I am often mistaken for a girl, even when in unisex or masculine clothing.  I usually do not go out of my way but I am well groomed, very tan, fit and now have longer styled blond hair.  I think some of why I wish I could change is rooted in the concept of beauty - and if men could also be beautiful in what is currently a woman's norm early in life - I think fewer would be unhappy with their body image and fewer would want to change.  Here is another thought.  I think is more acceptable to be changed completely into a woman than it is to dress and adorn ones self in a similar fashion.  Yes, I would love to wear a colorful attractive dress and show off my small waist and still not try to hide that I have a somewhat feminine looking male body.  However, I feel less anxiety when I go through the complete effort of hiding any maleness as I look completely like a woman.  Also, I actually feel safer in woman mode as I do not see myself as a homosexual; not wishing for men to lust for me in this fashion.

  4. Monica - Trying to figure out our new site. My voice is very male sounding so you might be surprised even though I can be quite feminine in appearance. I hope to join a telecom soon but must be on a day my wife is out. 

    My wife has become a bit jealous of time I spend with my transgender friends.  And I know she would not like to overhear my conversation as she now wants me to limit my time on this site.  She does understand, but we have been going to counseling with the goal of containing my transgender tendencies so we will remain married (And I do love her). 

    This is all good and I do appreciate your friendship.  I know I will talk to you someday.  I still try to grasp with who I am in a world that makes it hard to allow me to be me.  Love and Kisses - Dawn :)

     

    1. MonicaPz

      MonicaPz

      Dawn,

      Thank you for your patience with the upgrades on TGGuide.  Most of all, there will be an increase in security.

      Many of our married members are dealing with the same issues as you.

      Yours truly,

      Monica

  5. Dawn13

    System Update 2015

    ​Was out of town - Assuming the Galleries will be back soon - So far so good, still trying to find some of my items - I do like the new format
  6. Was sighing up for a sporting event today and before I spoke up I was directed to the womens packet pickup.

  7. Many family things to deal with of late - hoping to post some newer feelings and photos soon.

    1. MonicaPz

      MonicaPz

      Dawn, welcome back!

  8. Dawn13

    clothing/shopping experiences

    I have posted a portion of the photos of the outfits I found in the dressing room in our Galley. These were the items that had been in the dressing room before I went in. If you look, tell me if you think I made good decision? I was jazzed. Dawn
  9. Today was a milestone - 8,000 friends/people have viewed my page/s.

  10. Here is another dream I had - 19 July Dream about sleeping. My wife and I were in a group sleep clinic. Everyone there had to put some kind of Jell-O like mouth wash in their mouths. Mine was some king of green stuff that I finally washed out of my mouth. Then there were various sets of sleepwear on hangers and we could pick out the sleepwear we were wearing. My wfe had some kind of soft lounge wear sleepwear with long sleeves and long bottoms. I noticed I was wearing a white teddy and a white wrap around top. When I looked down at myself and I had breasts inside of my sleepwear. Then My wife and I looked at some of the beds and saw one that was a crib, we were going to sleep in the crib. Then the dream shifted to being on a train with many cars heading for a tunnel in the side of a mountain. It seemed like we were getting stuck behind many cars. All of a sudden I got very large and started to knock train cars (Like box cars and coal cars) into a valley below (We were on a train bridge). It was like the cars belonged to a toy train. Then I was flying over some place with green grass and some kind of place where there was a lot of equipment an supplies. On the way there were several people laying down in the grassy fields with mud over them (Mud baths) I think this was a continuation of the dream clinic. END of DREAM Please share a dream or two. Dawn :)
  11. I was actually dreaming when I first thought about this topic. I have found that when I dream I believe that I am being very honest with myself. I have dreamed I was a woman experiencing womanhood. Even having a baby in my dreams. When we dream we are beyond male and female. We can fly in ways beyond imagination. Please share with me your thoughts and dreams. I will be looking back over my dream diary and sharing some of my real dreams with you. Dawn
  12. Stories of your life or dreams - We all have them - please share a few if you can afford the time. Dawn :)
  13. Dawn13

    clothing/shopping experiences

    Repeated Item from my Blog. Wow! Today. I was at Dicks Sporting Goods looking for some tennis panties and a superman shirt. I started looking first for the Under Armor, pink for best cancer superman shirts and a male sales representative said "Mam can I help you." Because I was really trying to look male today, I corrected him. Then he told me he saw my "long blond hair," under my ball cap and thought I was a girl. I explained to him that I was retired and felt free to wear my hair long. He then helped me find the right size. Ended up being a boys XL. Then I went over to the women's section looking for a short that would work well under my NIKE tennis dress. Looking at the clearance rack I also found a couple of unisex looking sport T's. I was just a bit concerned that I was now being read as a male. But the store was quite large and I had really only talked with a couple of the dozen or so sales reps that were there. As I was shopping the female store manager who was doing some restocking, asked me if I needed help. I said no, but after I had made my selections I asked her if she could help me into a dressing room. (Apparently my male voice did not turn the tide as she read me as female) Without batting an eye she took me directly to the woman's dressing room. This time I did not correct her and I went right in. This is when I had a really pleasant surprise. The room was full of women's sportswear right there for me to try on. (Capris and winter outerwear.) Whoever was in the room before me must have been close to my size as almost everything fit. I actually bought two of these outfits and I may post photos of me wearing them. I am sure after I left they sales staff may be having a chuckle as I expect they will trade notes and figure out I was a guy. Still this was a truly interesting adventure for me today. Dawn :)
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    Anyone watch this one yet?

    Thanks for bringing this video to my attention. I relate very well with it. At first I saw it as a repersentation of being a crossdresser which is also what I used to think I was. The reality of actually being transgender I understand in a real way. I especially liked the stage performance. So sexy and lovely. This speaks of freedom to be yourself. I was touched Dawn :)
  15. Dawn13

    How many times have you been mistaken as a girl

    Wow! Today. I was at Dicks Sporting Goods looking for some tennis panties and a superman shirt. I started looking first for the Under Armor, pink for breast cancer superman shirts and a male sales representative said "Mam can I help you." Because I was really trying to look male today, I corrected him. Then he told me he saw my "long blond hair," under my ball cap and thought I was a girl. I explained to him that I was retired and felt free to wear my hair long. He then helped me find the right size. Ended up being a boys XL. Then I went over to the women's section looking for a short that would work well under my NIKE tennis dress. Looking at the clearance rack I also found a couple of unisex looking sport T's. I was just a bit concerned that I was now being read as a male. But the store was quite large and I had really only talked with a couple of the dozen or so sales reps that were there. As I was shopping the female store manager who was doing some restocking, asked me if I needed help. I said no, but after I had made my selections I asked her if she could help me into a dressing room. (Apparently my male voice did not turn the tide as she read me as female) Without batting an eye she took me directly to the woman's dressing room. This time I did not correct her as I went right in. This is when I had a really pleasant surprise. The room was full of women's sportswear right there for me to try on. (Capris and winter outerwear.) Whoever was in the room before me must have been close to my size as almost everything fit. I actually bought two of these outfits and I may post photos of me wearing them. I am sure after I left the sales staff may be having a chuckle as I expect they will trade notes and figure out I was a guy. Still this was a truly interesting adventure for me today. Dawn :)
  16. Dawn13

    The Importance of Body Language in Passing

    Thanks for this insight. I think I patterned my after after my mom. (There is quite a stoy behind this) I do most of these and I don't even think about it. So when I cross my legs or cross my ankles I am doing something unusual? I am also a talker and love to smile. I am not sure about my walk but I have been told on multiple occasions I do have a natural side to side hip motion. (Not normal to a male) The only gentleman things I really do are when I am in a unpleasent discussion or a location, where I am concerned how I may be perceved, I dont speak much. Also, I have always tried to give a firm handshake. I guess once patterened it can be very difficult to change. But really learning some of these sounds a bit like brainwashing and maybe couner produtive to a person bcoming the real person they were meant to be. Dawn
  17. Today was a milestone - 8,000 people have viewed my page/s.

  18. Dawn13

    hair today and tomorrow!

    Wow! really gutsy. I don't know how I would do in a lounge, I am not much of a lounger - but I do like company. Well good for you. Dawn
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    My Story (Part 1)

    Hello Dawn, I too love women most and to a small extent men. I also like to see what beautiful women wear or look like and try to match them. Dawn
  20. Thanks Karen - good dream - possible sole mate I think there is somethng to possible past life experiences. I have had one dream that recurred several times. (Dream was before 2009) I was in a village and I felt like I recalled/dreamed a past life where I had been a girl. I was in a village setting and I recalled wearing a very long white dress with blue accents and had long brown hair. I was always minding my own business doing some village chore. A passing knight/soldier would come up an after some discussions about how I was pretty would violate me. I always felt theres was a struggle going on in my mind in this respect. How much of our dreams are windows to our real selves. Here is another dream from my diary. 2011 Diary -18 June – Was with a couple of other guys and got into a fight or struggle with a large group of girls and the girls held down my arms and stripped me and the other guys of our clothes. (Stripped off our shoes, pants, etc.) Then they put our underwear (brightly colored bikini style pantys and tank tops) on hangers – when displayed together they looked like some kind of a woman’s bathing suit – maybe these were trophies. We were naked and the girls were admiring our clothes on the hangers. END of DREAM.
  21. Dawn13

    I need help with makeup how to`s

    Less can be more - basic base makeup matched to your skin is good. There is a men's (stage) makeup & concealer called Menaji - really works well. I have also used cover girl liquid but this make up is harder to use without looking a bit fakey. Always use mascara and a light blush product. Really don't need much blush. Unless you have a major brow issue just a fine line of dark brow pencil and then brush it in. It is easy to go overboard with eye lining and shadow. I actually love to play with colorful combinations but this is where mistakes are usually made. Better to brush some light brown around the eyes and call it a day. (Again less is more.) Lips can also be over done. Line lips = OK. More lip plumping and less lip coating. Do use a lip gloss top coat. I love lip gloss. Dawn
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    Letter to the Girl I Used to Be

    You know something - our thoughts are a lot alike, just coming from a different direction. The issue is we can never separate the what we were, from the who we are. We can only build or grow on it. I just wish gender did not exist. I love to wear dresses so why should I have fear when I wish to wear them. I do crave acceptance but it may be impossible to ask or expect. The very system that provides order also represses. Dawn
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    Why did I ever cut my hair...

    Dexxy, I definately understand hair, as I Iove to have longer hair today, after having to cut it short, and keep it short, for my over 30 years in an office environment. I remember when I was 18 enoying the freedom that my long hair gave me and yes I looked female, but I did not care. Then I went into the militay and my hair was gone. This was hard for me to deal with at first. For a job I sacrficed my freedom. Now I have long hair again and I am happy about it. Many of my friends have told me they see me as free spirit. Yes, I can fly. Dawn
  24. Thanks - I had heard that the gun can cause problems. Appreciate all of the comments. Dawn
  25. I posted a question last week about finding the best place to go to to get my ears pierced and now Iam thinking there is really a lot of things to consider. Please provide me your thoughts and best advise. Would also like to hear your experinces and what earings work best? Dawn
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