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  1. Today was a milestone - 8,000 friends/people have viewed my page/s.

  2. Here is another dream I had - 19 July Dream about sleeping. My wife and I were in a group sleep clinic. Everyone there had to put some kind of Jell-O like mouth wash in their mouths. Mine was some king of green stuff that I finally washed out of my mouth. Then there were various sets of sleepwear on hangers and we could pick out the sleepwear we were wearing. My wfe had some kind of soft lounge wear sleepwear with long sleeves and long bottoms. I noticed I was wearing a white teddy and a white wrap around top. When I looked down at myself and I had breasts inside of my sleepwear. Then My wife and I looked at some of the beds and saw one that was a crib, we were going to sleep in the crib. Then the dream shifted to being on a train with many cars heading for a tunnel in the side of a mountain. It seemed like we were getting stuck behind many cars. All of a sudden I got very large and started to knock train cars (Like box cars and coal cars) into a valley below (We were on a train bridge). It was like the cars belonged to a toy train. Then I was flying over some place with green grass and some kind of place where there was a lot of equipment an supplies. On the way there were several people laying down in the grassy fields with mud over them (Mud baths) I think this was a continuation of the dream clinic. END of DREAM Please share a dream or two. Dawn :)
  3. I was actually dreaming when I first thought about this topic. I have found that when I dream I believe that I am being very honest with myself. I have dreamed I was a woman experiencing womanhood. Even having a baby in my dreams. When we dream we are beyond male and female. We can fly in ways beyond imagination. Please share with me your thoughts and dreams. I will be looking back over my dream diary and sharing some of my real dreams with you. Dawn
  4. Stories of your life or dreams - We all have them - please share a few if you can afford the time. Dawn :)
  5. Dawn13

    clothing/shopping experiences

    Repeated Item from my Blog. Wow! Today. I was at Dicks Sporting Goods looking for some tennis panties and a superman shirt. I started looking first for the Under Armor, pink for best cancer superman shirts and a male sales representative said "Mam can I help you." Because I was really trying to look male today, I corrected him. Then he told me he saw my "long blond hair," under my ball cap and thought I was a girl. I explained to him that I was retired and felt free to wear my hair long. He then helped me find the right size. Ended up being a boys XL. Then I went over to the women's section looking for a short that would work well under my NIKE tennis dress. Looking at the clearance rack I also found a couple of unisex looking sport T's. I was just a bit concerned that I was now being read as a male. But the store was quite large and I had really only talked with a couple of the dozen or so sales reps that were there. As I was shopping the female store manager who was doing some restocking, asked me if I needed help. I said no, but after I had made my selections I asked her if she could help me into a dressing room. (Apparently my male voice did not turn the tide as she read me as female) Without batting an eye she took me directly to the woman's dressing room. This time I did not correct her and I went right in. This is when I had a really pleasant surprise. The room was full of women's sportswear right there for me to try on. (Capris and winter outerwear.) Whoever was in the room before me must have been close to my size as almost everything fit. I actually bought two of these outfits and I may post photos of me wearing them. I am sure after I left they sales staff may be having a chuckle as I expect they will trade notes and figure out I was a guy. Still this was a truly interesting adventure for me today. Dawn :)
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    Anyone watch this one yet?

    Thanks for bringing this video to my attention. I relate very well with it. At first I saw it as a repersentation of being a crossdresser which is also what I used to think I was. The reality of actually being transgender I understand in a real way. I especially liked the stage performance. So sexy and lovely. This speaks of freedom to be yourself. I was touched Dawn :)
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    How many times have you been mistaken as a girl

    Wow! Today. I was at Dicks Sporting Goods looking for some tennis panties and a superman shirt. I started looking first for the Under Armor, pink for breast cancer superman shirts and a male sales representative said "Mam can I help you." Because I was really trying to look male today, I corrected him. Then he told me he saw my "long blond hair," under my ball cap and thought I was a girl. I explained to him that I was retired and felt free to wear my hair long. He then helped me find the right size. Ended up being a boys XL. Then I went over to the women's section looking for a short that would work well under my NIKE tennis dress. Looking at the clearance rack I also found a couple of unisex looking sport T's. I was just a bit concerned that I was now being read as a male. But the store was quite large and I had really only talked with a couple of the dozen or so sales reps that were there. As I was shopping the female store manager who was doing some restocking, asked me if I needed help. I said no, but after I had made my selections I asked her if she could help me into a dressing room. (Apparently my male voice did not turn the tide as she read me as female) Without batting an eye she took me directly to the woman's dressing room. This time I did not correct her as I went right in. This is when I had a really pleasant surprise. The room was full of women's sportswear right there for me to try on. (Capris and winter outerwear.) Whoever was in the room before me must have been close to my size as almost everything fit. I actually bought two of these outfits and I may post photos of me wearing them. I am sure after I left the sales staff may be having a chuckle as I expect they will trade notes and figure out I was a guy. Still this was a truly interesting adventure for me today. Dawn :)
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    The Importance of Body Language in Passing

    Thanks for this insight. I think I patterned my after after my mom. (There is quite a stoy behind this) I do most of these and I don't even think about it. So when I cross my legs or cross my ankles I am doing something unusual? I am also a talker and love to smile. I am not sure about my walk but I have been told on multiple occasions I do have a natural side to side hip motion. (Not normal to a male) The only gentleman things I really do are when I am in a unpleasent discussion or a location, where I am concerned how I may be perceved, I dont speak much. Also, I have always tried to give a firm handshake. I guess once patterened it can be very difficult to change. But really learning some of these sounds a bit like brainwashing and maybe couner produtive to a person bcoming the real person they were meant to be. Dawn
  9. Today was a milestone - 8,000 people have viewed my page/s.

  10. Dawn13

    hair today and tomorrow!

    Wow! really gutsy. I don't know how I would do in a lounge, I am not much of a lounger - but I do like company. Well good for you. Dawn
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    My Story (Part 1)

    Hello Dawn, I too love women most and to a small extent men. I also like to see what beautiful women wear or look like and try to match them. Dawn
  12. Thanks Karen - good dream - possible sole mate I think there is somethng to possible past life experiences. I have had one dream that recurred several times. (Dream was before 2009) I was in a village and I felt like I recalled/dreamed a past life where I had been a girl. I was in a village setting and I recalled wearing a very long white dress with blue accents and had long brown hair. I was always minding my own business doing some village chore. A passing knight/soldier would come up an after some discussions about how I was pretty would violate me. I always felt theres was a struggle going on in my mind in this respect. How much of our dreams are windows to our real selves. Here is another dream from my diary. 2011 Diary -18 June – Was with a couple of other guys and got into a fight or struggle with a large group of girls and the girls held down my arms and stripped me and the other guys of our clothes. (Stripped off our shoes, pants, etc.) Then they put our underwear (brightly colored bikini style pantys and tank tops) on hangers – when displayed together they looked like some kind of a woman’s bathing suit – maybe these were trophies. We were naked and the girls were admiring our clothes on the hangers. END of DREAM.
  13. Dawn13

    I need help with makeup how to`s

    Less can be more - basic base makeup matched to your skin is good. There is a men's (stage) makeup & concealer called Menaji - really works well. I have also used cover girl liquid but this make up is harder to use without looking a bit fakey. Always use mascara and a light blush product. Really don't need much blush. Unless you have a major brow issue just a fine line of dark brow pencil and then brush it in. It is easy to go overboard with eye lining and shadow. I actually love to play with colorful combinations but this is where mistakes are usually made. Better to brush some light brown around the eyes and call it a day. (Again less is more.) Lips can also be over done. Line lips = OK. More lip plumping and less lip coating. Do use a lip gloss top coat. I love lip gloss. Dawn
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    Letter to the Girl I Used to Be

    You know something - our thoughts are a lot alike, just coming from a different direction. The issue is we can never separate the what we were, from the who we are. We can only build or grow on it. I just wish gender did not exist. I love to wear dresses so why should I have fear when I wish to wear them. I do crave acceptance but it may be impossible to ask or expect. The very system that provides order also represses. Dawn
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    Why did I ever cut my hair...

    Dexxy, I definately understand hair, as I Iove to have longer hair today, after having to cut it short, and keep it short, for my over 30 years in an office environment. I remember when I was 18 enoying the freedom that my long hair gave me and yes I looked female, but I did not care. Then I went into the militay and my hair was gone. This was hard for me to deal with at first. For a job I sacrficed my freedom. Now I have long hair again and I am happy about it. Many of my friends have told me they see me as free spirit. Yes, I can fly. Dawn
  16. Thanks - I had heard that the gun can cause problems. Appreciate all of the comments. Dawn
  17. I posted a question last week about finding the best place to go to to get my ears pierced and now Iam thinking there is really a lot of things to consider. Please provide me your thoughts and best advise. Would also like to hear your experinces and what earings work best? Dawn
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    How many times have you been mistaken as a girl

    Thanks Karen, You are doing something I really have wished I could do. I did take estrogen a few years ago but stopped when I realized I would have to explain my breast growth at my next military physical. And yes I still have a bit of man boobs as a result. Now that am now longer working a government job my interest to transition has abated some. Still I like to feel feminine and when I am coded as a woman without really trying I find this fairly satisfying. Appreciate your comments - Dawn :)
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    My story published

    Neat about your book - will want to read I am sure - Also - Oregon is one of my favorite places and I hope to go there next summer to run in HTC - (used to live in Washington State) - Dawn
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    How many times have you been mistaken as a girl

    Today was another day of bending as I was called mam twice in Kroger. One time was to ask me if I was in a line and a second was to thank me for responding and clearing the path for this other lady. I decided not to correct the women who aparenty read me as female. (I actually found my appearace to a bit satisfying as not trying and being read female was not as stressful as times I had purpously gone to a place in fem wondering if I could be read) I had on womens levis and running shoes. And today my blond sholder length hair, under my runners ball hat, was really showing lots of curls. Still I was in boy mode. Today, I was not trying to go out of my way to look feminine.
  21. We are much alike.As a child, I too was beaten by my father when I wore girls clothes, however my mom actually gave me girls clothes to wear and play in. I did not even think about what I was wearing that much, for me I have always felt that looking like a girl was kind of natural for me. Anyway, now I seem to have the same desire you have -but likely will never make the full change because of the good family ties I currently have. Still I understand your desire to be whole. I do wish you the best in your journey. Dawn
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    I am a newbie, not to just this site but any site.

    Hello RachelDense, Glad you have joined us - I enjoyed learning more about you. As a person who also has a German heriatage I too understand the strict nature you have lived with. Here we learn from each other and often share things we cannot share with others who can never fully understand us. Dawn
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    How many times have you been mistaken as a girl

    Recently I went to my usual six month dental exam. I actually purposely dressed a bit more feminine for this exam. Had silky lace pink panties on - a aqua cap sleeve juniors shirt unisex shorts and sandles. My hair was as long as I have worn it - shoulder length. While I was sitting there my hygienist and I started talking about nutrition. She started telling me about muscle building foods and some hormone enhancing foods she had learned about and was taking. While we were talking I could not help but notice that she appeared to have gained weight from when I had seen her six months prior. Her hair was now actually cut short; much shorter than mine. She actually looked like she was close to my size, which was quite a change, from her 100+ pound body that I had recalled. I also now noticed she was larger up top and wearing a very large dentist scrub. She told me she had just started to body build when I saw her for my last exam. She said she had started to lift weights three hours daily and said she was getting ready for a competition. I saw a picture of her and her bicepts were now hudge. It looked like she had gained up to 30 pounds of muscle. She said she was around 130 to 135 pounds and 8% body fat. Then I told her I was between 18 to 22% BF. It was at that point I started to wonder what she was thinking as she looked at my skinny scrawny feminine looking body on the chair. She then asked me what I weighted and when I told her, between 138 to 140, she jokingly said "I bet I can whip your ass." I responded "you are likely right", sensing she now had bigger and harder muscles than mine. I then said how can we do this? Arm wrestle? I actually was getting a bit embarrassed at this time knowing that my arms actually looked like girls arms. I then told her I hoped she did well in her competition. We hugged as I left and then I really felt her harder arm and chest muscles against my soft body. Though she did not mix me up thinking I was a girl - I still had the same feelings - suddenly next to her I felt feminine - A real gender bender.
  24. MonicaPz, I used to have a book called interpreting dreams. It was useful. I have also found that sometimes a dream has a face value. I really do like to try to figure my dreams out. Thanks for your comment - I will look the newer documents on dreams as you suggested. Dawn
  25. My origional first post on this subject. Help question - Getting ready to get my ears pierced. A bit nervous about this. Want it done right. Was thinking about going to a medical center that does this but there is none in my area. Any good ideas? Dawn
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