I am on my own for birthday, my son was down the road watching his mum remarry and he and my daughter will come to mine for a week tomorrow. I have spent most of this week staying in the house but my toenails are baby blue, my fingernails were sparkly until yesterday and are now coated in clear varnish, but cut back dow. The whole week I have been able to dress as myself and it has been wonderful.

Yesterday I told one of my other long term friends that I am trans. He was gobsmacked but very supportive (he is in Canada so we rarely get to catch up) he admitted he didn't have a clue about that sort of thing, but wanted me to know that I will always be the same person on the inside regardless of my outward appearance or what name I use. He loves me and considers me a part of his family. I nearly welled up with tears, he theen listened to me as I talked him through the last couple of years, but we then just caught up over other things. I am delighted he knows, there is only one other close friend I would want to tell, but while his wife is lovely and I do not worry about either of them supporting me, she is not known for being able to keep a secret lol. So I am setting my sites on telling my mum next.

I have spent most of the morning on video calls to family after taking my dog out to play on the beach, I have D&D later and then a gaming session booked in with Canada because I can sit up all night if I want to. 😘

Today I received a card from my sister with my name on and my first ever bouquet of flowers (in the past I have always only ever been given flowers to pass on)

They made my heart sing and really brighten up the kitchen table, but while I was still cutting the stems to arrange them my doorbell went and I received a second bunch of flowers from the family of the close friend and talkative wife who do not yet know my secret lmao. I am totally floored!

The flowers are beautiful and just absolutely make me feel like a very lucky woman today!

Today I feel more confident than ever about who I am and who I am becoming.

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