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Feeling much better, packing has been removed, virtually no bleeding

Just typed a whole lot and was lost with no idea why

Update, the nurses started to become concerned with me bleeding excessively. About 4PM Marci came in after finishing up another surgery and had to do a few sutures on me. At 9PM no bleeding detected so all is good. Tomorrow I get out of bed and walk :-) PS Saw my new plumbing :-)

Got to walk but got a really bad gas attack, lucky it happened next to my bed because I collapsed onto the bed. Ten minutes later I feel fine

There is no such thing as a "minor" surgery. What you just went through, EPIC, rest and let the angels of medicine work they're magic ! :)

Best of luck for a fast recovery. It might take awhile and some days may be better than others. If I recall correctly, the 3rd and 4th days were a bit more painful. Hopefully you will be comfortable but some rougher days are probably the norm. It will all be over soon and it will be worth it so stay focused on the goal. :)

AWWW, I send my love and light and you have been in my prayers all day...xo

Well Done ! Get some rest! will be thinking of you. TY for the update.

When I wrote that, I was most likely suffering a round of mild depression, and as is clearly indicated - self pity. I think today is the first time I've read it since it was first posted. Sorta surprised me how raw it sounds - I do not normally open that door. Sorta disappointing that I'm still stirring in that drink. Sorta sad that anyone else feels the same way. We need to push away from the bar.... -Michael

Dear Michael, You wrote this almost two and a half years ago, and I wonder, how do you feel today? I like how you are so open and vulnerable on this post. I feel very similarly and appreciate your finding the words for my feelings. Hugs, Emma

Try to remember that the "good old days" weren't good. Although transgendered people weren't publicly reviled, they were privately reviled. They were sinners and absolutely everyone knew it. They were left alone because no "ordinary" person would admit they could happen in the "perfect" world. Those persons couldn't ever be out even though they already were. They never had the chance we "modern" folks have. Now, there are some conclaves we can resort to. Then, they had nowhere else to be. They were the "black sheep" and the "skeletons in the closet." Frankly, I wish every family would admit to one. Then perhaps the children would realize we aren't so abnormal after all.

I can relate so deeply to so much of what you say. It seems to me it was a different time when we were growing up. It wasn't so easy to find resources or support. In my case, conservative adults in my life would have likely made my life intolerable if I had come out. I was so confused I didn't know what I was anyway. So much of life, I believe, is about self-acceptance and being able to enjoy the things you do have, and those things in turn create the hope that carries you into tomorrow. I'm glad you have someone to share love, and hope.