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So first I wanted to respond to a few things in my last blog because posting comments was getting confusing. "May I ask, does your boyfriend consider himself a Straight or Gay man? Do you consider yourself a Straight or Gay man? From my interaction with you and looking at your pictures (I have very sensitive "Gaydar"), you come across as a Straight man. Of course, I could be wrong." The answer to this would be no, Justin does not consider himself gay, and is 100% Straight. Which, yes, confuses the situation a little bit, but I respect his sexuality. I, myself, am Pansexual. So that makes my life a little easier lol. So I'm a fraction of both gay and straight but more open than Bisexual "If this is actually an agreement - she asked for rent and named the amount, then the space in her house that is not considered common area is yours, and she cannot enter your space unannounced when you are not there unless there is an emergency. Otherwise, any entry must be scheduled and you must be notified in advance." We did agree to pay a certain ammount (Justin and I as a couple) but no paperwork were signed so it is not a legal agreement and She can toss me out as just a 'guest' in her house. We live in one house, and my bedroom is literally considered "her sons room" to her and she claims to have free range over the whole house. Either she's right or wrong in the situation, doesnt matter because I cannot avoid it right now. As such the situation has gotten more and more Frustrating. Last night I came home and my bedroom door were wide open (not the first time) giving all the animals of the house free roam of it, which is VERY enfuriating considering some of her EIGHT cats pee on things. Not only that, but my native american medicine wheel and safeguard disk were on the floor in the hallway, both of which my deceased father gave me, CHEWED UP and basically ruined. This is the third time this week that I have come home to my door open and either my razors stolen, my room trashed, things knocked over, things missing, or the room just left open for access of the stupid animals that she is hoarding. Today I locked the bedroom door before leaving but there's no promises that they wont find a way to open it anyhow. I just dont understand how two people who earn (debatable, its sometimes a government disability check) cant just go out and buy their own damn razors or stay out of my room. There is nothing in there for them. They dont like it if I go in their rooms! It's beyond obnoxious, and I hate being there. But as we've all agreed, no point in taking action until I have the funds or job to find my own place..... ANYWAY, its wednesday, and my computer decided to be a d*** and not work. So I did my videos on my ipod which was obnoxious but productive. Here ya go. Warren https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tx6Zx-yCBpY

​Firstly, thank you I try to post videos weekly so feel free to browse around. Second, thank you for the input and THIRD, I have looked into a Gynecomastia Vest, but they costed too much so I hadnt had the opportunity to try one. I'll keep it in mind though!! Feel free to comment on the video with that info for others Warren P.S Nice to meet you!

Hi Warren, I feel kind of strange because I haven't really had any meaningful contact with a F to M trans person before, so it's kinda hard for me to think in reverse, or was it me just being too idle minded to do so? Anyway it's not for not wanting to. But, trying very hard to ditch all my masculine thoughts, looks and bits and pieces, makes it hard to see the reverse process, such a shame bodies can't be swopped around! One common thing that became apparent when reading your blog, is that of lack of respect from others, in your case the woman whom you share her house with, I feel extremely sorry for you, is there no right to be housed by the state in the US? I must agree with you regarding mens toilets, they are absolutely disgusting, so glad I no longer use them or behave in such ways either, but hey transitioning isn't all gain, just like most aspects of life it's swings and roundabouts, gain some, lose some. Anyway I liked your video, you seemed very cute (no I'm not coming on to you!) & serious at the same time. Have you tried a Gynecomastia vest as a binding? Not sure if you are aware of them or not, but just in case you aren't; They are a vest that is made from a very strong elasticated material designed to hide breasts or moobs (Men sometimes gain breasts, usually when young or when older, it's called Gynecomastia caused by hormonal imbalances).The material is similar to the stretchy sides of a bra but far stronger.I used one whilst I was taking oestrogen for 18 months or so at times when I needed to maintain my former male identity, of course in the end I hated the damned thing, but it was extremely effective. Cheers Eve

Dear Warren, About the job . . . if they do not call you by the end of the week, you call THEM and ask about the status of your application. If they have hired someone else, you let them know you wish the other person well, but if they can, to keep your application, and if they have a future opening, to please consider you. Now that I understand you are paying rent, then she is your LANDLADY, and she is being very unprofessional. Please don't give up looking for a job . . . commit to yourself that you will look for work and a place to live EVERY DAY. Why look for an apartment when you do not yet have a job? So that when you get a job, you will have a short list of acceptable apartments that you can consider, especially one near the job. Long commuting distances have been proven to deter job retention. May I ask, does your boyfriend consider himself a Straight or Gay man? Do you consider yourself a Straight or Gay man? From my interaction with you and looking at your pictures (I have very sensitive "Gaydar"), you come across as a Straight man. Of course, I could be wrong. Don't give up! Looking forward to hearing about your housing and job searches! May I suggest you hold yourself accountable to your friends here at TGGuide. We are all rooting for you! Your friend, Monica

This is really tiring, the temperature is above 30o celsius and there's hardly any wind not even a gentle breeze, that may be a walk in the park to those of you who live in hot countries, but here in the UK it's pretty stifling. Can't wait for cooler fresher Atlantic weather. Anyway, it makes me realise how difficult it can be being a 'full time' trans woman, it's pretty near impossible to hide my broad shoulders, my scalp is soaking with sweat, make-up is pointless as sweat runs down my face, I have headaches, I can still hide my hips by wearing long floaty dresses, but without hiding my shoulders I wonder if the effort is worthwhile. However I'd point out that I never liked very hot temps even before transitioning, but I now feel at a disadvantage in this weather compared with my former identity. The only respite is in my car with the A/C turned fully on. Even if I could appear as male in this weather, which would be difficult, I wouldn't, it wouldn't be me, and I just have to accept that this is one of the few disadvantages that I have come across so far........................ It's not as if I didn't see it coming, I just told myself that I'd have to try and cope with it when the time comes. Hell, I had to stop prevaricating, making excuses for inaction and naval gazing, and bite the bullet and get on with MY LIFE, as Eve ! Anyway my guess is that one acclimatises to different temperatures, trouble is that we don't generally have such high temps as this in the UK, 3-4 days worth is the norm folloewed by thunder storms and cooler weather, so there's not much of a chance to acclimatise. But having gone out this morning for electrolysis, I found that few people were out and about, traffic was very light, so it reminded me of a sleepy French village where nothing much stirs in the mid-day sun, which beats down relentlessly, only the noise of the starlings was missing.................if only I could go swimming in a river - no chance of that until post GRS at the soonest. Life with both female and male bits of anatomy was never going to as straightforward as might have been imagined, hot weather will bear testimony to this, wearing clothes that disguise anatomy most other times of the year might not be possible during hot weather, I hope that when my trans journey comes to a conclusion, some of these difficulties will have been resolved. But the point is please be aware of unusual climatic conditions, if you are contemplating transition. Week-end July 11th & 12th is Sparkle week-end. Sparkle is a huge 'Trans event' (rather than an LGBT pride event) held in Manchester, I'm off to see it for the first time with my wife who has organised the hotel and train tickets. Whilst I don't go to these sort of 'trans safe events' regularly anymore, never having been before I feel the need to have experienced it, before I submerge fully into 'normal society'. No doubt I'll put out a blog entry about the event after the 12th July. Cheers, Eve

Pamala FlinnJune 27 at 4:47am · Magnolia flowers as with many plant flowers have perfect flowers or another term bisexual flowers. This means the flower has both a functional male stamen & a female pistil flower part. Also in nature some plants are mono-ecious, meaning male & female flowers are found on different parts of the plant. This is extraordinary to me because in nature it is so common place for organisms to posses both female & male qualities. A magnolia tree could be called transgender, without an...y other conditions or stipulations. If there is such evolving happenings taking place in nature all the time. Are we as human beings not part of this earthly experience? We are so caught up in female & male identities when in nature adapting to ever changes of environment is just all about preserving life. As long as the conditions within the environment are right, nature seems to find a unique way of reproduction.

Eve, It is difficult to give advice about clothing appropriate for any particular body shape, but I would suggest you go shopping with a cisgender (born female) friend who is fashion savvy. Have gone shopping with many of my MTF friends and am glad I was able to help them. Monica

Pamala FlinnJune 27 at 4:47am · Magnolia flowers as with many plant flowers have perfect flowers or another term bisexual flowers. This means the flower has both a functional male stamen & a female pistil flower part. Also in nature some plants are mono-ecious, meaning male & female flowers are found on different parts of the plant. This is extraordinary to me because in nature it is so common place for organisms to posses both female & male qualities. A magnolia tree could be called transgender, without an...y other conditions or stipulations. If there is such evolving happenings taking place in nature all the time. Are we as human beings not part of this earthly experience? We are so caught up in female & male identities when in nature adapting to ever changes of environment is just all about preserving life. As long as the conditions within the environment are right, nature seems to find a unique way of reproduction.

"Now that I understand you are paying rent, then she is your LANDLADY, and she is being very unprofessional." -- Monica If this is actually an agreement - she asked for rent and named the amount, then the space in her house that is not considered common area is yours, and she cannot enter your space unannounced when you are not there unless there is an emergency. Otherwise, any entry must be scheduled and you must be notified in advance. This means that if you attempt to "put your foot down" concerning her treatment of you, she can't just kick you out - she has to evict you, and that requires a thirty day notice. Don't wanna cause any stress between you and your boyfriend since that is his mother, but these are things to consider if it is indeed a landlord/tenant situation, no matter how "laid back" or informal it is. In most places, as soon as money is handed over in exchange for living accomodations, it becomes a rental situation, and even if it's month-to-month, she can't just walk in tomorrow and tell you to pack your things and leave. Therefore, as Monica indicated, work hard at finding a job first... then look for a place of your own. It'll be tough...but just try to stay away from her. -Michael

What Monica recommended is how I learned how to choose apparel for my body type and was truly eye opening. In regards to hiding private parts, that was the worst as I would tuck to completely and I mean completely hide private parts so that I could wear skin tight leggings and nothing showed. Of course the price to pay was dealing with a moist body down there attempting to get everything back in place in ninety plus degrees was in many cases a real struggle but did persevere. I never, ever wore makeup and still don't in any weather as it's more trouble then it's worth.

​Hey Monica, Yeah we do pay rent, about 450$ a month plus 200$ in cellphone and another 50$ in car insurance. Justin does support me in private, but says nothing when she shoves me around. She is VERY homophobic and all I've heard lately is how "stupid" marriage equality is and how "disgusting" that "bruce" caitlyn jenner is.....Im SICK of it. Aside from that the interview went....okay....not great but not horrible. They said they'd call by the end of the week, but they double checked my name vs who I was. I think the trans thing threw them off a little, and they're looking for someone older or experienced. We'll see. I've done a pro's and cons list and I literally only have like....3 things on the pros and 12 things on the cons. Today I came home from all my running around to find my bedroom door wide open, my native american medicine wheel and safe guard disk on the hall flew chewed up by a cat, and half my razors gone. They do this constantly and I'm ready to put a goddamn padlock on my door >.> Warren

It's her house. She can call the shots. And if she is not going to call you Ren or Warren, and interact with you as she would with any other male, you can put your foot thru the floor and it won't change anything. I agree that it sounds like she is intentionally referring to you as female in every way possible. I agree that in whatever way you plan on confronting her, you should be ready for the worst, which could possibly mean being kicked out. If you're not in a position to take that chance yet, I think I would do everything I could to avoid her whenever possible to limit your exposure to her disrespect. When you do have to be in her presense, and since you have legal documents to back you up, stop responding to her when she calls you by your former name. Pretend you don't even hear her. But again, you have to determine whether you are ready to be kicked out if she would go so far. Good luck with the interview. It would be nice if you could: 1) Get a job that you really would like to have, and 2) A job will help you get your own place. -Michael