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I agree Monica, female intuition does exists yet some ignore it. Many good examples can be found in the book The Gift of Fear. I have it and like many did not believe I had it but in time after my real life test embraced it.

​In regards to "takes a lot of energy", simply put, give it time and it will not be hard at all. Seems one day I thought to myself, heck, I am not trying anymore and that was it, I can be concerned about other things in life. That was a long time ago.

I wrote a book - The Definition of Normal by E S Carpenter - because I studied psychology and learned that there is a ton of educational / psychology proof that TG / TV / CD people and their admirers are NORMAL! And I am very tired of the social beating these groups get, from the so called 'normal people'. These lifestyles, along with LGBT have existed since humans have existed, and it is about time someone explain the educational information available, so the non-educators can learn. Seems almost all LGBT / TG / TV / CD education material is in Peer Review Journal Articles - not readily accessible to the general public. I have no idea why our wonderful higher educational system does not gladly offer access to this information - but that is a discussion for another day. I studied the information in the book. The pschological facts are accurate. Yes, they are woven inside a love story. ...Believe it or not, for the reasons the character 'Lorraine' gives in the book: Most people can't process formal operational thought (theory only). SO I wrote a concrete operational love story around the information, so more people would access. The book is free on Amazon to read. See how 'NORMAL'. Then let's talk if you want?

Hey it's been a while since I read your book, and I enjoyed it as a good story, but would have liked much more medical-transition related content, and legal / name change issues, it then would be an absolutely excellent read. And I think I paid for my e-copy if I remember correctly! Cheers, Eve

Dear Warren. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE Do NOT Respond ! It Is NOT Worth It ! It Is Only Going to cause You More Heartache, and Upset ! Warren, You are a Great Guy. Look After You - Warren ! Take Care Young Man, and Look After Yourself. Remember, If You Need Us, We ARE Here. With Very Best Wishes, Stephanie. xoxo

Dear Eve, Steph and Christie, Believe "female intuition," or "women's intuition," does exist, because women, being the "weaker sex," has to compensate for generally being weaker than men. However, I strongly believe women can become very strong, such as by studying the martial arts, for instance, and men can become much more intuitive, by learning to be more mindful of their surroundings and social contacts. In short, men and women can learn from one another! Your friend, Monica

Dear Warren, I beg you NOT to respond! YOUR FRIEND, Monica

i havent been in contact with my mom or my older sister for months. they only call me when they want something or to torment me, and usually I dont answer the phone. The only reason this all occured was because we have...had?.....a mutual friend, Lisa. So Manda saw what I posted on Lisa's page and went...well....Manda, on me. Otherwise I have no contact with my bio-family aside from my younger sibling. The only one who respects me and calls me by my legal name. I have a family, and it's not by blood. I've claimed my family due to those around me who actually care about me and respect who I am. Manda had lashed out ambitiously to that post which I'll show you in a minute, but I was very overwhelmed with love and support from other people who bitched her out for it promptly. We CAN chose our family. And she's not in mine.

Can't wait to read your book

Be forewarned what follows is sexually explicit and there is no need to warn me about what I did as I am an adult and know the risk. The intent here is for others to learn from my mistakes, nothing more nothing less. I take no pride in what follows and hope others will learn from this. So Friday I was feeling frisky but not enough to act out on these feelings as I was comfy at home. So I used my toy and pleasured myself early evening and throughout the night the sensations lingered, went to bed and was a pleasant sleep. Woke up Saturday morning and read something that got me a little excited so I decided to use my toy while dilating. Next thing I know it’s an hour later, did not want to stop but did. I am now thinking I need to find a man as I am about to go crazy needing something more than my toy. I have several men whom I have sexual encounters with, none were available yesterday morning, not until later in the evening. Well I needed it now and then. So I have been in the past to an adult club where I have hooked up with one man several times and was hoping he would be there. Did not get dressed up sexy, never do, they see me coming and the penises stand in salute. So I sit down in a room playing porn. The man I was seeking was not there. Figured since I just paid ten bucks to get in I would sit back and play with myself and maybe the man might come in later. It took all but two minutes and I was surrounded by a group of men with their penises out. One was very polite and asked if he could touch me. I nodded and he proceeded to caress me which felt good. After a while he wanted to get inside of me and I acknowledge his intent and he put on a condom. He tried several times to enter me but failed then turned to another man stoking away and said (I think) “do you want this”, he nodded yes and I nodded yes. He put on a condom and tried to enter me but could not. Then as I see it this is funny, he gets between my legs and strokes his penis against my belly and after about 30 seconds let’s out a moan, turns and the first man asked if he had orgasm and nodded yes. All this time a man next to me was attempting to shove his penis into my mouth and I must have refused a dozen times. Along comes a younger man, built extremely well, he does everything right before entering me and has zero issues and lasted at least ten minutes. When leaving the place I was not in a very good mood even though I finally got what I was after it was not enjoyable in that I had to go through two pigs to get what I wanted and decided no matter how aroused I get will never, ever go back to such a place. Guess what, my urge is back today and I am keeping my legs closed. What I now wonder is how cisgender woman deal with this when they get aroused and a play toy is not enough. I doubt they run off to an adult arcade to get satisfaction.

Dear Warren and Friends, Last night, at 9:30 P.M. EST, my youngest brother called me to let me know he wanted to pick me up at 9 A.M. EST the next morning, to attend the family reunion. Because of the last minute invite, I would not have food to bring to the event. Amazingly, they have signs at the family reunion asking you to not eat other families food! Never saw that in my life. In my book, that means you are NOT part of this family. When they treat each other like that, how can I expect them to treat me well? Reluctantly, I said yes. Was up ALL NIGHT, and at 7 A.M. called my brother to cancel. It was the only way I could respect myself! It takes effort to PUT YOURSELF FIRST, and I STILL struggle to do so! Yours truly, Monica

And I truly wonder about myself and the future, will I be able to resist such feelings and make do with a toy? I do worry about that, and how it might affect my wonderful wife (now termed as partner), I've mentioned before the conundrum that is going through my brain, I think as a comment in one of your earlier postings Karen, I often fantasise about penises but I don't think that I could cope (without throwing up) with the useless flesh around the penis called man, thowing up? yes it'd make me sick I'm sure. But will this change after GRS? There have been so many changes already that I can't be sure what the future holds for me......................... One things for sure though as Steph has said you're only human, (even if you're a 007 clone! LoL - no!, more like a bond girl now with your weapons stashed about you!) and I'd hate to think that you're going to continue to beat yourself up over this episode. You know what I'd probably have done the same anyway and risked all, I'm so impulsive and I will sieze the moment.................. God (if you're a believer) bless you Eve x

Hiya Karen. Sweetheart, You are Only Human. It Is just a Pity, You had to go through All the Nonsense, with The two idiot's. To call them Pigs is insulting Pigs ! L.O.L. It just goes to show, that You most certainly are Female. It would be really nice, if You found Someone, You could really fall in Love with, Someone Who You Could Enjoy making Love with. I Hope that I Haven't Offended or Upset You with The Comment, but I would Not like You to get into a Bad Place ! Karen, I have So Much Respect for You, and I Really do wish Only Good Things For You. Take Care Love. Best Wishes, Stephanie. xoxo

When I started the following was used taken from a place called the Q-Center, on this page. Sequence Obtain a Name ChangeChange the name with the Social Security AdministrationChange the name and gender identifier with the DMVChange one’s passport name and gender identifierObtain a Court Ordered Gender Change in OregonChange the Name and gender identifier on the Oregon birth certificate if you were born in Oregon​I did 1 and 5 when doing 1 because my therapist wrote a letter for doing the gender change which is not actually required with number 1 but is required with number 3. Number 2 was started but had to wait for my new driver licence to complete. The Social Security office was very pleasant and also unlike others there for other services got me through quickly. Did not do 6 as I was not born in Oregon and plan on doing this down the road as I have a copy of my original birth certificate. After obtaining my driver licence I did my credit cards, insurance and utilities. Interesting enough I pay my rent each month since with my new name and never been questioned by the rental company. My work credentials started one month prior to surgery and finished three weeks after surgery as I needed my new social security card which was approved prior to surgery but came while in California for surgery.

I started a list a few weeks ago so that i'll be ready when my name change is final - i add things to it almost daily. I don't even want to think about how long it will take to actually do the changes (I am prioritizing the list of course, and can't wait to start!)

Eve, I'm not sure how much I believe in female intuition per se, but I think that transitioning, and as a result being more comfortable and more in touch with oneself might lead to a similar phenomenon. Put the other way, it's hard to be intuitive when you're trying to pass yourself off as someone you're not, that takes a lot of energy xoxo Christie

The week started off with me finding a really cute (age appropriate) top that I love so I purchased two of them. I have a habit where if I like something be it clothing or not if it appeals to me two or three are in order. Then I received my results from my hormone test done last month. The results indicate that I am midways, smack in the center of the scale in three separate test. Early on in the week I became friends with a younger woman (43 years old) whom I fibbed about my age, said I was 50, don't all woman lie about their age. At one point she said I looked younger than 50 which I then had to tell her the truth that I would be turning 59 shortly and was perfectly fine with her. She has invited me to her place next weekend for a BBQ and think she will become a good friend. Today I made plans to visit Portland's Saturday Market with my best friend but she has issues with a kidney stone so instead will be meeting with an old female co-worker. Will most likely then visit my friend with the kidney stone as were I am having lunch with the other friend is 10 minutes away. Thinking of the weather in recent weeks, I have been stripping down to the bare minimum for the over 90 degree weather, no bra nor panties while home wearing a comfortable summer dress or tank top and panties. What a change from last summer when I had to tuck that thing between my legs which in hot weather made if difficult to keep tucked and comfortable. Did I mention this is the perfect time for thongs, so far I have purchased at least a dozen thongs in various colors and pattern. I don't wear them everyday but tend to wear them more so on the weekends as during the week it is nearly impossible to change pads often enough as I am fairly moist down there and tend to need pad changes several times a day even with good quality pads. Before surgery I was concerned a little that I would not be self lubricating but thankful that I am and more so when having erotic thoughts. I was told that at some point it may be somewhat uncomfortable in regards to stimulation of my clit in daily life. Believe it or not I was driving down the road and made some movement that got me so aroused that I had to pull my car off the road until the arousal went away else I could not concentrate on driving. That is such a wonderful feeling that unlike arousal of the penis this sticks with me for sometime and is slow to go away.

Hi, I've bought the book and have read the first few chapters, for me there's a great deal of resonance in the story................. Cheers, Eve