Leaderboard

We all entertain our worst nightmares when stepping out the door the first time in broad daylight dressed entirely as a female all the while contemplating who others will perceive us. Hopefully over time this subsides and it's all second nature. At my young age of 59 being a tactical instructor I was never concerned about my safety, only that of someone who might want to hurt me for their well-being after the fact which did happen the second week post surgery where in the end the police complemented me on how well I restrained myself and only used necessary force which in the end most likely left the attacker hurting for at least a week or so. What was difficult was presenting myself to the owner of the company who owns the top school in my area for teaching self-defense, an old Marine who I guessed would not take my transition well especially since I was being groomed to take over operations of the group. He did not act rude when meeting or taken back but was treated differently. Leaving this group was very difficult, I spent a great deal of time being a top notch instructor to have 90 percent of it thrown away because I needed to transitioned. I try not to dwell on the past but it's sometimes difficult. So this weekend I will be attending a remembrance/celebration of life for a Marine and good friend where many who know me have not yet seen me since transitioning. This will be interesting to see how those there will treat me. I plan on going in acting like my normal self, assess and react but not to react in a defensive manner which in my opinion might be detrimental. I did not sign up for this, my brain did but after almost two years out and seven months post op this is me and refuse to hide in a dark corner and feel sorry for myself but need to get past this. Once past this point I can check off another group whom afterwards will never discuss my former life as a male but instead use appropriate wording that has me not mentioning gender unless appropriate in a discussion. Guess what, it takes time to finalize things as indicated above but at least for me I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and that light is closing fast which is fine by me as when the light is gone I have done what was needed to close one chapter and open another chapter of living.

I've been a mix of stuck and lazy recently......stuck for something inspiring to post here and too lazy to push myself.............to enter much. Trouble is that life as Eve is so normal now, I just don't think beforehand about doing things and worrying if I pass or not. I just get on with it, of course you never know if you pass or not, no trans girl is 100% sure, if you ask you most definately won't pass! we refer to this as Schrödinger's pass! I don't need him or his pass anymore! However I've been out and about recently in the great (hey it's small in the UK!) outdoors, with my friend Sharon cycling in the Forest of Dean in Gloucestershire, near the Welsh border, a couple of weeks ago, and got plastered in mud from my mountain bike. And last weekend we went back to the lovely Severn Valley at Bewdley and walked up along the river further than previously to Highley. This is two stations further up the preserved steam railway, we stopped for a pint of cider again, at Arley halfway along our walk, and by the time we got to Highley my right knee was killing me (hardly any cartilage left on it, caused by a Norton Commando kick start in my youth). We were very thankful for the return journey by train. This weekend i'm off with my partner Maybelle (that's what we decided our ex husband and wife terminology would become) to Luxembourg on our holidays, with our caravan and some freinds from my previous existance. Oh I 'spose that I should tell of Gossard undies, their superboost bras really grab boobs and push up and together, with matching thongs of course in a smallish size to enable tucking (that begins with a T) I just bought 3 sets ready for my hols...................... Cheers, Eve x .

Frienship is the only cement that will ever hold the world together. ~Woodrow T. Wilson As a transgender girl the need for friends in simular situations grows. The need to identify the right people early on should not be underestimated. People are an integral paet of our world and a great resource for support and guidance. A long standing online friend of mine pointed me in the direction of a girl who run a local support group in my area. This is something that I have felt a growing need for since I started hormones. I contacted her and she agreed to add me to the group and envited me to the next meeting. Another girl approached me from the group and we started chatting. We decided to meet before hand to get to know each other. As circumstance determined we had to meet in boy mode. It's probably my least favourite thing to meet other girls in boymode but I went through with it and we had a long emotional eavening together. My wife dropped in for a bit to meet het too and we both agreed that we liked her. I hope I made a better friend than my last attempt who turned out to be a druggy and blackmailer. Tonight I meet the rest of the girls.

Eve, I love the pics! I'm a city girl myself, don't like too much nature around me, but I enjoy looking at it in photos Enjoy Luxembourg! Xoxo Christie

Hey good luck ! hope that you get a best friend, they're worth their weight in gold, but as I have found out, many are callen, but few are chosen. Those true friends are a very dear comodity, there are are plenty who do not put in any effort to freindship and cannot be relied upon, so look after your true friends..................

Dear Karen, Am very sorry about the loss of your job, but I feel the space will provide an opening for an even greater opportunity. Know this sounds foolish, but I watch a program, one in English and one in Spanish, where cameras follow a team of bailiffs chasing down criminals who do not show up for court. Can't recall the names of the shows right now, but you may want to do a Google search, and learn about it, even if you ultimately end up rejecting it, at least you have looked at it, and seen if it might be a good fit for you or not. Thank you for honoring the Marine, as I have the highest regard for both or women and men Marines, and, of course, for all who have served. Your friend, Monica

Doesnt matter what the surgeon agrees on or not. I cant afford to do it.

Hiya Brigsby. Fortunately, You can choose Your Friends, But, Unfortunately, You cannot choose Your Family ! Your Friends, they are the Family, that You choose for Yourself ! Brigsby, My Parent's blew My Family apart, nearly 18 Year's ago. My Mother, is Nothing but a Complete Control Freak ! I have had No contact whatsoever, with Most of My Family, since. There were just 10, that I did, and the only 2, that I did see, are now sadly passed-away. The only contact I have with the other 8, is card's in the post, on Birthday's, and Christmas. Brigsby, cherish Your True Friend's, the one's who stick by You no matter what ! Here at TGGuide, You are in a Very Safe, and Friendly Environment. Brigsby, I Came-Out, as Transsexual, on 30th. April, 2015; and I started Fully, Full-Time, Female-Dressing, and Living, on 1st. May, 2015. I Am happier now, than ever Before ! Brigsby, I truly hope, that You can find Happiness ! My advice, to You, would be to completely cut ties, with Your Family, change Phone Number's, change E-Mail Addresses, Etc. ( I know it might be hard to do, but, it will be well worth it ! ). Brigsby, Live Your Life, for Yourself ! Take Care, and My Very Best Wishes to You. Regards, Stephanie.