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I watched I am Cait series 2 epsiode 1 last night, it's the first one that I've watched, it was shown on a TV channel called E, which I think is new to the UK. Anyway I had wanted to watch Caitlyn Jenner shows for quite a while but they were not shown in the UK until recently. The episode that I watched was some sort of road trip and seemed to centre around the grand canyon, she had a group of around 10 transgendered friends with her, but I just could not believe her attitude to hearing any political views other than her own. The debate seemed to spring up after one of the group read out news about transgendered people being stopped from using the correct toilets by republican politicians and religious people. Caitlyn seemed to think it was the correct thing to do !!!! She also slagged off democrat politicians too. Please keep her in the US, I really don't want her over here, even if she has placed trans issues in the public eye, not supporting going to the correct toilet is bad for all of us, and sends out a totally wrong message. US political party's seem to bear great similarities to ours, although admittedly not identical. In a similar fashion over here it's easy for those rich people (born with a silver spoon in their mouths or just good at ripping people off? - few have gotten rich by being hard working and fair at the same time) to vote for issues that benefit themselves, they've never been anything other than rich or lived on easy street's gravy train. It was our Labour party over here who gave UK LGBT people most all of our present rights, the conservative party have done very little for us other than same sex marriage in some churches where the vicar (or whatever equivalent devil dodger in some other branches of the church) isn't anti-everything other straight heterosexual partnerships. Anyway, I won't be watching Caitlyn Jenner again............... Cheers, Eve

When to my best friend's today, we went to the mall for coffee and shopping. Didn't get to far, we are walking thru Macy's and she says, I want to get my upper lip done. So while standing there are sale's person asked if I wanted to have her do a make-up session. I thought, what the heck so I said yes. I told her that I am not much for makeup but would consider her doing it but was very interested in my eye area. As she is going through each step I am being told what she is doing and after doing one eye shows me compared to the undone eye. Since it was day time my eye's were done for day time. Next she did my face and contoured my eye brows. You really can't see the great job performed on me, it's not loud, instead it bends in nicely. How much did I spend EEK, $140 for makeup and better brushes. Next morning update: One attempt at doing my eye's, got it the first time!!! Also added a picture of the various products and note that the products are only for my eye's, five products with instructions on paper underneath. Did not include the brushes. One of the most important things is the "DONT STRAY" which is foundation. Yesterday the woman put eye makeup on her arm then another spot with foundation followed by eye makeup (top right) an sprayed both with water. One ran while the other did not. The mascara is to dye for. All the colors I purchased are perfect for my complexion.

This is similar to the social dynamics in my freinds group, when one of the group goes wildly against the rest of the groups deeply held sense of right and wrong. We have one girl that truly believes in the old fashioned submit to her husband at all times lifestyle, and it drives the rest of the group crazy. And then it gets kinda ugly sometimes, when the more extreme feminists start talking about what a problem she is and how they have to do something to fix her, instead of recognizing her as a person who believes in and legitmately a different lifestyle and place in the world than the rest of us, several of whom legitimately feel threatened by her lifestyle because they feel it will derail equality for them because women like her are out there. I like it so much better when its' a tv personality I can turn off and not be in the middle of this mess! LOL

More thinking on this. Let's say that Cait was a staunch Democrat. A very public believer in all that we believe in too. Imagine then how the Republicans would react to her. "Here we go again, another trans liberal wanting us to change our minds about what we know is right." They'd dismiss her. As it is, though, they can't deny her. She is one of them. Another brick in the wall, torn down. I rather like that!

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I don't really care for Cait either. I dont enjoy having having a cup of coffee with someone who has such extreme views that are polar opposite mine. Worse, I can tell that she is so narcissistic that she would be more into hearing herself speak than having a conversation. But. I am a Democrat. I do firmly believe in free use of toilets for all, as well as freedom for trans and anyone to do, be, or present as they please. So, for Caitlyn Jenner, a highly visible and avowed Republican to come out the way she has is, in my opinion, good for us. Her presence creates discourse, even among conservatives like her. In some ways she is putting us on the map. But. Like Eve, I have no interest in watching her shows, reading articles about her, or (probably) buying books about her. Emma

There were a couple of really hot trans girls on the show, and they were sensible too............Canit, I like it!

I admit to watching it but for the following reasons. First, can't remember her name, think it's Candis, she is hot. Second reason, to watch Canit make a fool at herself as in my mind still is working with a male brain rather than a female brain. The show is what it is, something for people to watch and criticize, at least that is how I see it. I record it and watch a segment then pause, go away, come back etc.

Oh, you're with your twin sister again! Is she the same twin sister as in the photo posted last year? I think you were at a party or similar event? Yeah, you're looking good ! Cheers, Eve

So Nikki was explaining binaurial tones to me, especially in the therapeutic uses in various diseases such as Parkinsons and so on, and that they are often used for relaxation and sleep aids. He's not really happy with my out there sleeping habits currently, and he's right, I'm needing the pills too often, and my brain is getting stuck in high gear. So I've been trying them for while, following the instructions, trying to relax, just the tones, the tones with a hypnosis induction, I WANTED this to work dammit...and...they totally don't work for me. I felt nothing, I wasn't sleepy, I wasn't any more relaxed than just trying to be, there was nothing. No changes. They do for him. And when we were discussing it he mentioned it was kinda close to hypnosis, and I did some research because this was treading something else... Nikki never really knows how the dots connect in my head until the reaction erupts... and it is kinda a similar effect on the brain. I'd actually been unable to be 'brain tricked' with some light party hypnosis games before...and now this failure of my brain to accept and enter the state...I'm having to come to terms that I might be one of those 3 in 10 people who can't be hypnotized, something about my brain won't do it. It led to a surprise breakdown. (for him, for me this was my first little steps into something I'd been thinking about for a decade) Nikki had no idea that was coming, and was really confused why I was crying because I can't be hypnotized. But it was the death of a dream that was important to me. I WANTED to go to hypnotherapy, not for my dismorphia or anything, but because the memories of my grandfather are fading. Not the life lessons, and that is important, but the DETAILS of them. I can still tell all the stories in great detail, but when I used to do that, I could smell the places, feel the sun or cold on my skin in my head, hear his voice, and that's all fading like an old photograph. Which is normal. But I had this wild hope that I could go to one of those hypnotherapists, and he could take me back to those days and refresh the DETAILS and FEELINGS behind the stories. Telling them over nad over sort of fixed them in my head like menomics, but it's not holding onto the little details. I don't remember what Assateague Island smells like anymore, although I spent two weeks on it every summer and those were the best weeks of my life. I don't remember the colors anymore, or the sounds. I would spend whatever money the therapist wanted for those memories back, to relive it even just for an hour in my head like I was there again. No room at this particular inn for Bree. I will probably go anyway, and I still sit in that chair and put my whole heart into following that voice and the instructions, but it will really hurt to fail. I didn't call attention to it to Nikki, but when we got robbed and they stole my video camera, they also stole the only tape in existence with my grandfathers voice on it. And now I can't remember it. Time steals things.

Yes Emma, I did think about that, I 'spose that really it's left versus right wing politics just the same as it is in the UK, no matter what your gender or sexuality is. Except the toilet issue thing, which is unforgivable. Very glad that you're Democrat, I think it's fairly obvious to all that I'm a Labour party member. Briannah, it was pretty much exactly as you describe on the show. I don't really care what anyone else's political beliefs are, as long as they don't impinge on others, the toilet issue does though, & I guess the others in the group expected Cait to be trans before Republican, which if she was, she would have complained bitterly about not being able to use the female toilets, no matter that she's Republican.

Omg!!! After the breakdown Nikki quietly spent the afternoon searching the house. They didn't get the tape!!! He FOUND it! Last night we watched it together and now the sound is back in my head. I think I cried for an hour. Apparently they'd dropped a few tapes when they grabbed the bag and he'd put them up and forgotten and made sure which tape it was before telling me He found it. Just so I would be happy with all his sadness going on he's still showering me with love. He said he doesn't think he's being a good husband like this the other day. I know a lot of spouses not fighting depression at all who wouldn't bother worrying about something weird like this. Nikki is the best husband in the world now I have to figure out how to tell him so he believes me.

@Veronica Yes the hormones have changed me a lot over the past 12 months, that is what I am told by my friend in the picture. I am still getting up to speed with the changes and too really see them have to look at older pictures of myself. @Eve yes this is my twin sister, although we are not twins or biological siblings we started calling us sisters because of a comment someone made to us on Facebook so it stuck.

I agree! There is something neat about the little blue( it was blue when I got mine) books. I have no stamps as I'd never gone anywhere that required Visas. I basically only have it because we go to Canada and the Carribbean often and they tightened the laws. We HAD to have it for a cruise to Alaska because it stopped in Canada for literally four hours. Lol

We were having an awesome day until I...um...disgraced myself all over the floor. That is my project for Tuesday, talk about this cough with Bethany. It is so extreme that it forces things out of my tummy without warning from the sheer muscle cramping of the cough. So I went from really great day to holy cow embarassment. Nikki is being great about it though. So weird cuz I FEEL fine. Absolutely fine. But before that we had a great day! WE went to BG, got our yummy calzones, had a lovely lunch and talked about everything and nothing. Then we drove up to Toledo where Nikki got a new Captain American/Iron Man shirt he loves wtih a really good coupon, and I scored a couple of new dresses on sale. It was a gorgeous day, and we took the longer backroads to enjoy it and chatting in the car. Nikki saw some pants he liked at Catherine's, sort of a faux brocade pattern on jeans, but they didn't have his size. He wasn't taken with anything else, but Catherine's is sort of really hit or miss with me too. They do some UGLY vaguely hawiian prints on a lot of things I love the cut of, but hate the print/color choices. He did convince me to buy the red dress I found, I was hesitant because it's a really bold color, but he reminded me he's learned to color correct the red in my face so I can wear it without looking like a beet. I missed it early, I'd actually realized while I was sorting things out after I knew about his gid that I was waiting for him to tell me he was in love with someone else, he was so checked out. I completely misread the situation. Bad Bree.

Yo, Ren! Right on!

I've had feeling like you are having and can complete understand where you are coming from. Like you, I don't do patience very well either.

​Hi Ren. I agree with Veronica. You did handle it like a Boss - Very Professional. Well Done Young Man. I Am glad that Justin was with You as well. Ren, fingers, toes, and everything else crossed for You, and hopefully You will Not have to wait for too long. Your top Photograph, shows what a Very Handsome Young Man that You are. The second Photograph shows how well that You are doing with the Treadmill. You could always donate any larger clothes to Charity. Ren, I hope that Alex and everyone else are All well, also, I hope that Justin is keeping well also. Ren, It Is always good to hear from You. All the Best to Alex and everyone else. Ren, You and Justin Take Care, And My Very Best Wishes, Love Stephanie. xx