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Thank you both, but perhaps my rambling wasn't quite clear. My family (sisters) have all been supportive initially, the eldest two especially, but my mum took my dads death in 1998 incredibly hard and went into a serious depression and cycle of self harm and suicide attempts lasting almost a decade, during that period she was diagnosed with fybromyalgia and was also given a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder some of which stems from events in her youth. Intentional or otherwise she hates not being the centre of attention, she creates drama of often makes up lies that one or the other has allegedly told one of the others so she can play the part of confidante. Yet she really does love us and tries in her own way to be here for us. I am the one person in the family least impacted by her jealousy, but that is because I have the privilege of being "her only boy", in looks I remind her of her husband, something she is constantly reminding me. However it does mean that I can be more honest with her than my sisters, as she cannot bear it when we are not talking. Except for this. It is a 50/50 split how she will react, and I may not have her support moving forwards but her history as a result of trauma she never emotionally dealt with worries me that I may be more like her than even she could understand. So it is something I must deal with. Thank you for your concern though. 😊

UPDATED ITEM - Monica thanks so much for your encouragement and complements on my outfits ♥️ l keep looking at myself and I try to see what you see in me. I am now becoming more aware of how I have physically changed. My breasts are now real and natural - no forms needed any more. Even though I am heaver than I would like to be I feel I have become softer and more rounded It was so neat to pack almost all women's outfits for this trip. Did not waste too much of my space with men's stuff. Yes this experience excites and humbles me. I am starting to be aware of how from feminine I have become. So far on this trip I had a younger man flatter me and called me Mamm and direct me to the Lady's Room. I did not even try to correct him. I am expecting more positive encounters tomorrow. Thanks for being my sister ❤️ Dawn