Actually, I have to say I "began" my journey at a very young age; I have little doubt, at birth. I now can acknowledge that everything I did throughout life, I simultaneously imagined myself as "Jessica". You see, my self-image never matched my outward appearance and I always compared what I thought my life would have been like if it did. With EVERYTHING I did. Growing up, friends, relationships, family, work, play, sports, school, business and career, disappointments and accomplishments. I had never met anyone transgender, except several times when a trans woman in her early stages of coming out would dine in my restaurant with a few of her support group. They may have viewed me as hospitable, welcoming, and respectful, but in reality, I was fascinated. That was 1996, and I would keep my secret tight until 2018 when I began to really understand, address and accept my eventual mortality. The time was then or never.