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Just a little vanity :)

ScottishDeeDee

Entry posted by ScottishDeeDee in Counselling

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Honestly, I just want to commemorate feeling great about myself today lol.

As I finished writing up my wordpress blog today I had such a feeling of happiness and well being that even changing back to my black and grey boys clothes and dealing with more school drama, and the cancellation of my online D&D game tonight hasn't quite managed to quash.

I look at that picture of me in my kitchen, smiling because of how ridiculous it feels to be balancing a phone on a draw in order to try and get a full body shot from closer than half a mile away. I have never been this vain or preened so much over my appearance, because living as a guy I really didn't give a crap.

I like this picture, I like how it makes me feel, and I like how it felt just living my day as DeeDee again.

At some point in the last couple of weeks I have mentally and emotionally accepted myself.

The path to becoming who I am all the time regardless of everyone else is what I need to plan for now. I have been so jealous reading about women over the last two years who have had that eureka moment really quickly, and yet mine almost sneaked by without me noticing. 

Both counsellors today picked up on my mood and enthusiastic certainty (my work one was pleasantly surprised that I am feeling positive instead of flat, but still has not helped me to find a way to build the resilience I know I will need to come out in the church, not that she knows that is one of my goals yet) but it is absolutely down to the fact that I have finally stopped feeling totally overwhelmed by everything. 

Yay!

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Steph53

Hiya DeeDee. How Great You Look Honey !! DeeDee, it is Over 5 1/2 Year's, since I started My Own Transition, and a few day's short of 9 Month's, since I had My Vaginoplasty Surgery ! DeeDee, If You need Someone to talk to, or if You would just like a chat, I Am here Honey. ( I met My Gorgeous Girlfriend - Elsa, through TGGuide ! ).  I Am also on Facebook; Instagram; and Messenger; using My Own Name too !! DeeDee, TGGuide, is the one place, that I was able to find information; advice; and support; when I started My Transition ! DeeDee, Be Happy Honey, because You Deserve to Be Happy, as We All Deserve to Be Happy ! DeeDee, Monica; Emma; Mike; Gennee; and All the Team here at TGGuide, have been Lovely to Me. ( I have Not posted on here for a while, and I Really should start posting on here again ! ) DeeDee, Have A Fantastic Weekend Honey, and the Same goes go Monica; Mike; Emma; Gennee; and All the Folk's on here ! Please, With this COVID-19 Coronavirus, Everyone Stay Well; Stay Safe; And Take Care ! With Our Love, And Our Very Best Wishes, Stephanie And Elsa. xxxx 

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Jessicatoyou

You look absolutely fantastic from my point of view! As I've just celebrated my 66th birthday and guessing your in your 40s? You're way ahead of me!  It's so nice to see you apparently mature in your acceptance of yourself.  I never knew my depression until I experienced my true being and the euphoria becomes stronger and stronger with every waking moment!  Keep embracing yourself😍

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ScottishDeeDee

😳☺️❤️ Thank you Jess, that was really kind of you to say :)  It has taken a while for my heart and my head to get on the same page, but I am glad they finally have, now comes the part of waiting for the professionals to let me progress in the system.

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Jessicatoyou

There is so much you can do while waiting for the professionals to catch up!  Make yourself a list and allow it to become a priority starting with a little every day! I'll think of some of the things I did to prepare and try to  put it in a blog soon. Keep going!!!!

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