Male to Female (MtF) Transsexual Discussion

I'm 18 and financially dependent on my mom Who along with the rest of my family is deeply religious and I'm struggling with how to deal with this or even whether i have the nerve to go through with the trans gender thing because no offense but it goes against everything i was raised with. I think that if i told my mom she would still love me but i fear our relationship would suffer .Also, my Closest cousin is somewhat homophobic so imagine how she would feel about me. i just feel like if i did this i might lose everything and everybody i knew.I also feel guilty for feeling like this and i was wondering if therapy would ever make you feel differently about things. I gues…

Some weeks/months ago, Dear Abby made the news and the board when asked what should be done with the childhood photos where her brother-in-law is dressed as a little girl. She anticipated that children she would eventually have would ask questions if they saw the pictures. Well, of course they would! This week, in the Thursday paper, she printed the responses she received from several transsexuals. I'm surprised it hasn't been mentioned here, yet. "Our" advice universally agreed that she should ask her husband to approach his brother about the question and abide by his wishes. Abby took it all very well. Several letters expressed how we feel -- born in the wron…

Hi Guys, Well, I'm really depressed at the moment. I was in family court today, what a disaster. My wife is moving to Cardiff ( 360 miles away ) I'm only allowed to see my children once a month ( for two days )when she moves down there, It's going to be almost impossible for me to travel down once a month as the fuel costs will be outrageous. It's a six hour drive a 12 hour round trip,I've been handed to the lions basically. She stated in a report which we both had to make that I sexually abused her, physically hit her when she was pregnant with my son, held a knife to her throat and tried to strangle her when she was pregnant, these of course are all lies. How can …

I've been on hormones and in transition for about 6 years, if I remember correctly, now. My voice has softened, my breasts are much larger, body hair is thinner and less coarse, and I'm much more comfortable in my own skin. Adrianne and I have talked, and I feel I'm ready to go for GCS. I'm going for zero depth. The work and effort to maintain a healthy neovagina with depth is more than I feel I could keep up with. I want to know what it feels like to be penetrated, but the cons outweigh the pros. But there are things I need to know first. 1 - I use electrolysis instead of laser due to tattoos. I have no ink on my genitals, but do I need to have the hair on…

Well I really disappeared there for a while. Since my last post a whole lot in my life has happened I guess. I was in another car accident on Oct 1, where a girl ran a stop sign, and so I was without a car for about 6 weeks (got a new one last month). It wasn't a bad accident though. There have been many layoffs at work, but I survived since my manager is leaving soon. In fact I've been promoted. I came out to my family (finally) and they've not talked about it since... the only people who I've still yet to tell is upper management, which will have to be very soon... My relationship situation has changed dramatically. Initially I broke up with my long term gir…

I know results may vary but if perhaps a meta analysis were to be carried out on dosage level vs effect what might the data suggest? Well to the question. I am close the the hrt administration stage and will be pushing for the option of anti androgens and low dose oestrogen. Why? Well ideally I want to ease the mental torment and hopefully taste the "feeling of well being" so often expressed. I also want my face given a feminine boost via complexion and modest fat redistribution. I do not want to expedite any other physical change but appreciate that i could still end up with no facial change at all but a couple of "Dolly Parton" specials! In other words, you don't get…

I'm sure that some of you more experienced TS's would be able to explain how one would speak more femininely, because I'm having alot of trouble with it...

When I first started HRT I was told what the amounts were for estradiol and spironlactone and followed my doctor's instructions. Two months ago I went in for blood work, she [upped the spironlactone]. Then I get a call indicating I was to [double it] and that's it. So I am now getting ready for my regular doctor's annual physical and was writing down my doses only to learn my estradiol is at [a higher dose than I thought]. So from now on I am going to read my labels rather than assume. Note: I have two doctors, one whom I have been using for 20 years and the other for preparing for my transition. After transition my regular doctor is going to assume all aspects i…

to start, I will say that I have been on Estradiol and Spironolactone for two months now. I have a question about one of the hormone glands i think it is. I just recently had a blood panel workup done for my hormone levels and one came back higher then expected, it is the prolactin level for the pituitary hormone. as I am new to all this I was wondering if any one in early stages or whatever stage has experienced this and what it is about it I should be looking our for or aware of? also my breast area last two month (happily) have been like super tender and have already budded out a decent amount for friend to say hey your looking good you have boobies. but a small A at…

I heard vaguely that certain HRT drugs can result in different changes to the body. As in one drug might cause a person to fill out in the butt, but another might cause more breast tissue. Is this true? Which ones to what, if so?

So, as many probably know, dilation is the major post operative pain that coms with SRS. My current surgeon started me off with 5 different dilators, varying in size, and had me on a schedule of 5 times a day at 20 minutes each session, for the first three weeks, with that schedule sliding down to 4 times a day the following three weeks, then 3 times the following three weeks, etc, etc. My question, for any of you post operative women, is that it has been about 3 weeks as of this monday since I have been first dilating. However, there has been about 4-5 days in which I only dilated 4 times a day instead of 5, due to my schedule. I guess this is kind of a two part …

I am looking for longer vaginal dilators and am having lots of difficulty with it. I need at least 9 inches if not more as I want to continue the depth increase I have noticed and the 7 1/2 inch dilators I have are very diiffciult to even keep inside due to the inadequate length. ANy resources? all that I have looked at are shorter than the ones I have.

This is also for FtM's too, Sorry, I should have put that in the title, my apologies. You are in a place ( heaven, a different universe, where ever we begin ) and you have no form but are completely coherent and are intelligent. Standing before you are two children's bodies. One is a boy and one is a girl. You have to decide which one to be born in to. But there is a catch. If you choose the boys body you will live until a hundred years have passed, with a life free from illness, making many friends and have a family that loves you, you will be wealthy and not want for anything but there is no such thing as SRS/hormone therapy and GID has not been or ever will be …

Well I just found out that my brother is getting a divorce.After 24 years he says that they have just grown apart.I dont know I have never been married but I always thought that when u get married u have found they person that u want to share the rest of your life with.About 6 years ago my other brother got a divorce from his wife but with them they fought all the time and they had a daughter so then I felt that fighting around there daughter was not a healthy environment so a divorce was really for the best.What really gets to me is they dont see my side Im not in a relationship so I dont have that other person to lean on or just to grow old with.I dont think they see ho…

I watch a lot of videos on YouTube, as well as movies on Netflix and Hulu. But I never see women with either the amount, or the style and placement of tattoos like I do. I've posted pictures of my ink in an album, but I'm wondering if they make me less feminine. The only things that aren't tattooed are my feet, butt, and genitals. Literally everything else has a tattoo on it. Legs, stomach, chest, back, arms, fingers, neck, and face. A fair number of which I would consider fairly masculine. I'm planning a few coverups, as the tattoo either is screwed up, or something I just don't want anymore. Currently there are 4 coverups in my mind. This is something that has been runn…

Sometimes I'm confidant that I can transition and others i feel like its impossible so I was wondering if anybody felt this way when they started out and how they dealt with it.

I was looking at pictures of me from a few months ago and I look so different now and my moustache and neck hair have grown back Im so sad and scared right now. Im so scared do you think 1 month of 16 year old boy puberty could do too much damage?? I started self medicating am I going to have to wait as long as I did the first time for my facial hair to stop growing? Will my face go back to looking like it used to look???? And it's a very long story as to why I had to stop taking HRT for a month and start self-medicating... very long.

So I am about to get medi-cal and I was wondering if anyone knows of a doctor that will take medi-cal insurance. Current looking for laser,trach, and srs for medi-cal to cover but I need to find the Doctors first for the surgeries. thanks for you help in advanced

Hey all. I'm new here. Forgive me if I am asking something already covered a million times. I scrolled several pages in and really didn't see anything like what I want to ask. Anyway... Just starting my Trans Journey at age 53. I live in Casper, Wyoming which is literally THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE! Hard to find one site that spells everything out in detail what I need to do to keep moving forward on this Journey. At the current time I am starting to research doctors and therapists because I know down the road they will need to sign referrals for any surgeries. So my first question is, how do I find a good therapist, or psychiatrist that I know is going to be …

I read an article at a website about male to female transsexuals where the author said feminization of the body, when using female hormones, especially breasts, will be noticed by others, even if the person does not want her feminization noticed. An article at another website said feminization of the body will be hidden from others, if the person makes proper efforts. This either/or outcome seems dubious to me. I think one's age at the onset of beginning estrogen and progesterone, genetics, clothing often makes it easier or harder for sufficient feminization, especially breast development, to occur to be noticed by others of male to female transsexuals, who are not t…

Jessica mentioned on one of her videos that she used to sing all the time as a male and now she doesn't sing anymore. Why is that? What would be the reason for giving up singing in mtF transition? The voice is not supposes to change but do you ruin the tone quality or something else by forcing your voice to a different range?

This is a list of questions I ask myself everyday. The answer to them all is yes but does that make me a girl? Do I like womens' clothes? Do I like make up? Do I want breasts? Do I hate my penis? Do I want men to find me attractive as a woman? I know I am not gay. Homosexual sex is not appealing to me. I know if I was a real woman I would want vaginal intercourse. I am not a transvestite. I don't get a sexual charge form womens' clothes. It is more of a choice and how I want to be presented to the world. I don't have a woman's or a man's brain. It is kinder and more thoughtful. The way it should be for everyone. Does all this add up to wanting to be a…

So my Dysphoria has been really get to getting to me. Probably because I have been trying to fit into the mold everyone else has wanted me to fit into. Not the one I feel I should fit into. In any case it has made me depressed even worse and making me not want to do anything. So last night I decided I have to be me and if anyone else doesn't like it too bad. So I shaved my legs chest and arms. And soaked in a nice warm bath with the candles lit. It was so relaxing. I feel so so so much better now. Its gonna be hard to stay this way for me but I just need to. For me. When you feel like your mind doesn't fit the image of your body then you got to make changes to help with i…

Hi, Every time that I see my therapist she asks me if I have been losing more weight. At this point I don’t think that my weight loss is a big deal. I’ve looked up the Body Mass Index range for a person of my body type and height and I’m still above the minimum suggested weight. She has suggested that I maintain my current weight and I’ve been doing that for a while. I don’t know if this makes any sense, it’s not that I feel guilty about eating, I just feel happy when I don’t eat. I’ve also come to enjoy the “hunger buzz” that I get when I don’t eat. I don’t feel I’m starving myself because I don’t feel all that hungry. Anyway I’ve got this thing going on wit…

I'm just curious, testosterone blockers, what permanent effects do they have like biologically (do they sterilize you?) and also do they have any effect on body composure such as breaking down of muscle mass?