I myself have always wondered what if about everything in my life. For me as long as I can remember it has been what if I was born as a girl. Then my younger sister was born. My only full sibling and I look at her and say oh that is what I would have looked like. We look a lot alike. She is so pretty. Has a lot of the same hobbies as me. Always been much of a tomboy. My mom fought me several times called me disgusting and still she says nothing to me about who I am now. But still gives me that look of disgust when I am in more of a girl mood. I kinda swing back and forth depending on who I am around. I think I will always have to be that way.