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So, I know it has been awhile. I have so many positive things to share and also some negative ones. So the Fall semester hit me like a freight truck. I had forgotten the inevitable stress that went along with being on student government. Luckily, I survived. The highlights of the fall semester are that I, with the support of the student body and government, began a campaign to get a gender neutral bathroom on campus. In doing so I’ve had the privilege of representing our community at my school and alerting the faculty and staff of the issues that will and have arisen for many transgender students. We will see a gender neutral bathroom in the middle of campus. It has been approved, and is currently being planned. The second victory, is a personal one. I started Testosterone on November 19th, 2015. And the following week I got a tattoo to commemorate that event. I have certainly found out a lot about myself since doing so. I’ve found I am an introvert, I like Cars, I’ve begun painting, and I love physical activity. A few of my tastes have changed, and I like it. I no longer feel restless and anxious all the time. This Spring Semester is half over for me, and I find myself enjoying life more than ever before. Though I know I still have a lot of work ahead, I wanted all of you to know that I didn’t fall off the face of the earth. Since the school year has begun I have not quit in my goal to bring transgender, and non-binary gender identities into the spotlight in gender education. Hopefully I will get to post again soon.

I had my weekly therapy session today and she confirmed that she had faxed the needed letter to my surgeon to authorize my top surgery - yay! In this case insurance doesn't actually require it, but the surgeon does - needed a letter from a therapist confirming gender dysphoria. I called and confirmed that they got it, and they did - tomorrow they'll be contacting the insurance company to start the pre-authorization process. It isn't happening until August, but I still was happy to see it moving forward

Hey Ben! Great to hear from you, and I'm so happy to hear about your success with the bathroom, starting T, and mostly, feeling good in your very own skin. I think that's awesome. What are you studying in school, by the way? Hope this semester is a great one for you. Hugs, Emma

This past weekend we hosted a moot court competition at our school, and as Moot Court staff administrator I was very involved in the planning, and naturally attended the Saturday night reception for the event. It was my first real opportunity to "dress up" The picture below is me (on the left) and 2 students. I did realize on Friday night as I was packing up for the next day that I had never really dressed in plum before, so I didn't know what color make-up to use - fortunately Google exists and I found that lavender works perfectly! Overall a very fun night! My next opportunity will be the Law Review Banquet on April 1 - of course I just wore this dress, so I'll have to come up with something else for that occasion.

Hiya Chrissy. WOW ! You look absolutely Gorgeous in that Photograph. Chrissy, Your Hair; Make-Up; Ear-ring's; and Dress; are Beautiful. You are one lovely Young Lady, and You can Be Very Proud Of Yourself ! Well Done Chrissy. Have a nice evening. Take Care, And My Very Best Wishes, Love Stephanie. xx

Nikki's blood pressure is refusing to cooperate. It's still high, and they managed to conquer mine even. I don't know if he's stressed out under the depression and unable to really feel it to deal with it, or if there is something more serious going on. I know it sounds early to worry, but Nikki has a history of a minor thing suddenly becoming a health crisis. So I worry. Cuz I can't imagine being without him. He's made an appointment with her after briefly discussing antidepressants, she wants a full appointment and to talk to his therapist before she helps him choose what to try because she was quite clear that being sure that there are no early warning signs of a variety of conditions matters, to avoid actually making him feel worse. I love her, she's very clear and open about things. And actually looking to help. So that will happen in about a month. And didn't look at me funny when I abruptly ran out of the room to get to a bathroom, my cycle does weird things to my digestive system. She changed my blood pressure stuff due to the coughing, because the one I"m on can cause that, but it should clear up in two to three days if it's the pills. Please go away now cough, changing prescriptions is easy and preferable to something being wrong with my throat. She was a little worried about the heartburn, but it's ONLY just after I cough, and only lasts a minute or two. So acid reflux was tentatively ruled out. And I did hit the target blood pressure. Apparently I'm reasonably healthy! Go me. I'm persona non grata at work. There was A Letter. Basically, my aunt who is my immediate boss and office manager is retiring. So she's leaving. But Mark's smoking is becoming awful, in addition to the generally toxic nature of the place, so I'm leaving sometime between June and August. Originally they had a plant hat she was going to keep working part time and I would to, but the schedule she wants to force on me didn't work at all for Nikki and he wasn't interested in me vanishing into that place so told me to quit after we hit a few more financial goals. So they have to hire a new full time person to replace us, and Jan was honest about the smoking issue, and the staffing place wrote us a letter on why they are unable to help us until it's resolved. So many liabilities whether they get a smoker or non-smoker. SO somehow this is MY fault, and smoke addict is ignoring me unless absolutely forced to deal with me. On the one hand, insulting. On the other, it's more peaceful. Pros and cons. Had a conversation with Nikki when I realized all the dressing and needs conversations we've had were focused on or around the depression crisis. Which is fine, immediate needs must be addressed first, but it also occurred to me to realize that eventually he's going to get better. He's putting all in with conquering this, and I believe in him and his natural happy state. So...he will recover and regain himself and his emotions. So...what does all this look like then? No promises, no bans, no rules, just a conversation about what he thinks it might look like in the interest that this is the rest of my life, and I'd like a sort of vague directional marker where it's heading. He asked if the crossdressing doesn't go away is it a dealbreaker, and I'm like no, I'm not really expecting it to go away, I just wanted to know what it all would look like. What changes in our current need/stress driven routines did he think would fit in with his life the way he remembers it being, with the understanding that I am just exploring the topic and not expecting a cast in iron polaroid photo. It was nice. He was relieved, but said that once he was okay again he'd put it back in the box if I needed him to. And I just didn't. Six weeks ago I would have looked at myself like I was nuts, but I really did adjust to all this. So it can stay, it's welcome, let's just figure out how it works when it's happy instead of sad. I like happy better.

When to my best friend's today, we went to the mall for coffee and shopping. Didn't get to far, we are walking thru Macy's and she says, I want to get my upper lip done. So while standing there are sale's person asked if I wanted to have her do a make-up session. I thought, what the heck so I said yes. I told her that I am not much for makeup but would consider her doing it but was very interested in my eye area. As she is going through each step I am being told what she is doing and after doing one eye shows me compared to the undone eye. Since it was day time my eye's were done for day time. Next she did my face and contoured my eye brows. You really can't see the great job performed on me, it's not loud, instead it bends in nicely. How much did I spend EEK, $140 for makeup and better brushes. Next morning update: One attempt at doing my eye's, got it the first time!!! Also added a picture of the various products and note that the products are only for my eye's, five products with instructions on paper underneath. Did not include the brushes. One of the most important things is the "DONT STRAY" which is foundation. Yesterday the woman put eye makeup on her arm then another spot with foundation followed by eye makeup (top right) an sprayed both with water. One ran while the other did not. The mascara is to dye for. All the colors I purchased are perfect for my complexion.

Hiya Ben. Good to hear Your news Young Man. Congratulations on starting Testosterone. Well Done with the Gender-Neutral Bathroom. Also, I love the Tattoo! You look a very happy and contented, Handsome Young Man. Ben, Thank You so much, for helping to Promote the Trans' cause, in such big way's. You Can be Very Proud of Yourself. Ben, Have a Good Day Young Man. Take Care, And My Very Best Wishes, Hugs, Stephanie.

Still no clue to who you all are talking about........but i get asked about that person all time and get funny looks when i say who is that , i am a bit old school i don't watch much tv maybe a one show if that on the history channel , from i am seeing diffently a show i would not watch.

Good Luck Chrissy. And happy 1st Anniversary. Cheers Eve

Update, came home today and the pass-book and documents arrived woohoo.

Thanks for the kind words Veronica. I am hoping next weekend will be even better regarding the club with socializing and play time. Doubt very much I would move on from here as I enjoy like minded people and sharing so others possibly may learn from what I have gone through and continue in this life.