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About Chantel

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  • Birthday August 28

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  • Gender Transgender
  • Location France
  • Interests Cooking, Dancing, Music, Sailing, Knitting

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  1. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: Time   

    Hi Christy, I have also had similar experiences and can relate to what you are saying. Thanks for sharing.
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  2. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: Two year anniversary   

    Thanks for sharing Karen. I have heard similar stories from other ladies too. I look forward to the day when I am post transition and hope I can say the same. Big hugs. X
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  3. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: Breaking walls   

    Hi Emma, Having someone who is in or has gone through similar experiences is so important. I have often had to dealt with things on my own but I have always appreciated having someone to talk to.  
    I thought that being an older lady would mean that I would struggle with breast growth and my body would not feminise so easily but my experience so far has been quite good.  I have to accept that there are some things I cannot change but as long as people don't look too close I can pass and for that I am very grateful.  My other experience has been how kind and accepting of me as a female people are in general.  I don't know why but its really scary coming out to friends etc but the warmth I have received has been fantastic so don't be scared but don't put yourself into risky situations. Its just common sense and remember your a girl. The rules are different for girls.  Good luck. X
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  4. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: Breaking walls   

    It is now 22 months since I wrote the above and I am now 64. I am really pleased with my breast development and I certainly have more than a handful., My breasts now fill an A cup bra easily and I can even fill some B cup bra's as well. When I feel my breast I can feel that my milk glands are well developed and my nipples and alveoli have definitely grown bigger.  When I started i could cover my alveoli with one finger but now it takes two. I don't think they are perhaps quite as large as a cisgender women's. But then again are all cisgender women nipples large?  
    I have been using Estradiol patches throughout my transition and the dose has been slowly increased in response to my blood tests. I have also been taking Spironolactone to suppress my Testosterone and this has again been reduced over recent months in response to my blood results.  Finally I have been taking micronised Progesterone for the past few months as it is felt that this is best commenced once the breasts are growing. I think it is the progesterone that has been responsible for my aveoli and nipples growing as this followed on from me starting the Progesterone.
    My skin has gotten a lot softer and the hair on my chest and back has completely disappeared.  The hairs on my arms and legs are a lot finer and grow much more slowly.
    I have also noticed that my finger nails seem to sort of peel which I am tildes not uncommon. I was advised to use olive oil on them but I have been using Shellac nail polish which seems to protect them. Another experience that I am told is common has been my nipples producing a few drops of clear liquid when stimulated.  This has been constant now for several months.
    Another observation is that I am now much more emotional. Instead of getting angry I well up inside and want to cry. I readily cry at anything sad. I have also noticed that I am less of a risk taker now.
    I am now living 24/7 and that emotional journey into full time womanhood is a big story and so I will leave that for another time.  I can only say that my journey is something that I can only wish I had been able to start when I was a child.  I know that my first gender awareness was when I was five. I didn't understand it but i knew i was being made to conform and against all that adult and peer pressure I had little choice than to accede.  My greater understanding came when I was ten and it was then that I really did know I was a girl. So what I am trying to say is that from my experience we must learn not deny our children the experience of growing in the gender that they feel most comfortable with.  This does not necessitate any surgery or intervention in our early years it is just a freedom to explore. Bigger decisions have to be made later at the start of puberty.
    Well i hope people find this useful. Just go and be the best you can and love who you are.  It is better too see than spend your life blind. Love to all.
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  5. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: 8 Month Update   

    Go, go, go. :-)
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  6. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: Small and Treasured   

    Hi Emma, I can share some of your reflections and add some of my own. I remember playing mummy in the Wendy house as a five year old too, playing tea parties.
    Joining the girls and wanting to be one of them. It was ok for them to play with me if they were alone but not so much when they were in a gang. They wanted to be mummy or a model and being a boy I was last in line for that role I was also confused and just didn't understand why I had a boys body when I was a girl. I had no interest in being a boy and so I became isolated. My boy friends were always those like myself who didn't quite fit in. Well no good getting maudling. I know I learned that it was wrong to be how I felt and learned how to suppress it even at that early age. My shame and guilt guided me into pretending to be a boy.
    My advice to anyone reading this is not to do as I had to. Things are so much more open now. Don't build walls around yourself to keep yourself safe. Take a risk, knock down the walls and take your inner girl out to play. She will love you for it. X
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  7. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: Good night   

    Hiya Jay, wow you sound so good and positive. Best of luck with the script. X
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  8. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: Observations, the female voice in LGBT M to F   

    Hi Karen, What you say is very true and I am sure most of us would like to sound right but our aptitude and abilities vary. I know how difficult and how silly I feel when I am practising my voice. I have every sympathy but you are right we should try harder. Thank you for spurring me on. X
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  9. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: Haha! Turned tables!   

    Sounds like your in love? X
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  10. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: Coming out to family   

    Hi Nicky,
    I totally agree with Steph and Brianna. Best wishes. X
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  11. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: Sometimes it doesn't matter how hard you try.   

    Hi Brianna, big hugs, you're better than this. Dump the shame, it's from controlling stuff that society or others have dumped on us. Once it's out it's out and cannot hurt us or control us anymore because it just is if that makes sense. Then realise that It's not you that should feel embarrassed in this case and finally a great big snoggy kiss from me. :-) (oh dear how embarrassing is that) lots of love and snogs.
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  12. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: What next   

    As above, my love and best wishes for you too.
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  13. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: Sometimes it doesn't matter how hard you try.   

    Take a deep breath. Count to ten, scream and shout then cry a bit and look for the positives in your life. Sometimes life is like a shed full of stored stuff. When it's full we have to sort what to keep and what has to go. Not easy. I had a hundred old shirts once. Lots of hugs and cuddles.
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  14. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: What Is It...   

    Ahh thank you Emma, sorry I got the wrong end of the stick. Big hugs. X
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  15. Chantel added a comment on a blog entry: Top Surgery   

    Hi Chrissy, congratulations and best wishes, XXX
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