I can't really say I've experienced "trauma" either as a cause or effect of transitioning, and know I'm fortunate in that respect. But then again, life was not nearly it as fulfilling as it has become once I resolved to accept "my own authenticity". Yes, all of us are different yet the same.
Thank you all for your responses, as folks who are confident of who you are even though you have had different life journeys, you each possess a perspective that I do not. I find it helpful that I can ask these questions as sometimes I cannot see the woods for the trees.
This morning I was watching someone do a cosplay tutorial for Nebula from Guardians Of The Galaxy and she had a really hard job gluing and hiding her hair to put on a bald cap to then paint over - I would totally have an advantage if I ever chose to cosplay her and my friends would be blown away if I got it right. (hope comes in the strangest of places sometimes).
I use my blogs as a journal Monica, I do not write them for others, but mostly as letters to myself, I just know that sometimes other people read and interact with them. It gives me something to go back and read and I can quickly remember how I felt and what was on my mind. It is why I try to keep up with weekly posts even when I am not necessarily blogging about trans issues. I have never been one for keeping a diary but have found that kind of journalling useful and therapeutic.✍️
Thanks Christa - I guess that I do still struggle with whether or not this is going to improve my quality of life. Being Dee at a Pride event was one small moment, it was a weekend full of fun and without all the normal day to day mundane moments of life so I am trying to work out if I feel more complete facing these as Dee and if so why. I am still working out what do I truly want and need and why?
Dear Friends,
Have written articles, journals, letters, etc., and come upon them 6 months, 1 year, 2 years later, etc., and said, "did I write that?!!"
You should expect that. It's called growth!
Your friend,
Monica