KarenPayne

Great to hear you are making progress  

Thanks Emma for sharing "I am a Girl" and could not be in more agreement about her.

In regards to "Stop Thinking!", that was me at one point in time but could not accept myself as the feelings were relentless and overpowering that acceptance was impossible. Of course everyone is different whether they can or can't just be content at a particular "place" per-say.

This is by far one of the best entries I have read on this site, thank you for sharing and vindicating what I believe to be true.

Veronica, everything was fully functional but did mastered pleasuring myself whilst tucked. 

Actually it was a rhetorical question in that who here would like them

Once tucking is mastered at least for me it would take less than 30 seconds on average to tuck without any telltale signs of private parts showing. There were times when it took longer but not very often. I am going to write a blog entry on this topic this week.

Sorry to hear how life has been for you, hoping things will get better over time.

Hope both of you get well soon.

Congrats on moving forward with breast augmentation. One thing about HRT, the longer you are on this your breast for most will expand and will allow better fit for the new breast.

I was in rest mode for four days afterwards after a three plus hours for surgery. One of the difficult things is restraining from using your arms e.g. can't raise them very high. For three weeks was in a binder and during that time was instructed to apply a special lotion to my breast.

Thought for you, rather than going in with a predetermined cup size listen to the surgeon for their opinion. I asked for B but they rationalized a C cup which afterwards I feel was the correct size.

Personally I just didn't feel right to have my breast done before GRS but I think I am in a small group as most get them first or at the same time as GRS.

Any ways I am happy for you.

​Emma, thanks for the compliment. In regards to can't sleep, I am usually in bed by 7:30 on weekdays, at work by 5AM. It's simply how my body is, guess you could say I am a morning person  

Eve, the picture was taken in the early eighties in Philadelphia Pennsylvania. I believe it's more forgiving now but not nearly as well as the West Coast where I reside now. Now in New York, not far from Pennsylvania they are very acceptive of trans people for the most part.

Veronica,

Reminiscing back to when that picture was taken, I was hit on many times by men who had no clue to my true gender and the frustration came with that of not having female parts so that I might be able to engage physically with these men. Back then and that location was far from forgiving to trans people.  

Veronica,

Where I was coming from was from well done specials, two in particular that followed (two in each) four people going from their born gender to their inner gender. Spouses were very supportive until either surgery or soon after surgery. Also from a series on Life time channel where two men were transitioning and their spouses left way before surgery.

Don't get me wrong, I think it would be fantastic if the tables were turned and only a small percent left but seeing these specials and having discussion with people it surely seems the opposite.

Verbal communication beats out mental thoughts hands down as what may sound good in the brain without speech may not translate well into the spoken word. 

Best of luck today.

Thanks for the reply, i happy for those were spouses support them but have not heard anyone here who had surgery and can attest to their spouse staying with them. Statistics show that keeping the male genitals keeps many marriages together but afterwards many eventually leave.

There are no substitutes for a smooth face like electrolysis for the face. Been there, tried a bunch then did electrolysis 15 years ago and so happy since then.

Briannah, thanks for your response and candor. My main objective for my entry was to get members here thinking past HRT and dressing to GRS as I know many don't and this is more so for cisgender not gay or lesbians who have a higher rate of keeping a marriage in tack.

The thing about "I am still the same person...", I used that term for interacting with people when i announced the hard date for my surgeries and not for relationships as this is new territory as I never dated a man, always females so I can't be the same person in relationships with a lover.

You mentioned the breast forms were not what was expected, hopefully they did not cost a lot. Before my breast augmentation I purchased mine from "The Breast Store" and purchased these forms. When I purchased the forms my requirements had nothing to do with how they felt to the touch but instead how they felt moving throughout the day. I tried many breast forms through the years (over thirty years) and these by far were the best.

Best thing to do is hang in there until after surgery if at all possible. There are (as I am sure you are aware of) many roadblocks, some very real like a brick wall while others are what you make of them.

​We keep a low profile in regards to speed   It is really all about the curves for lead drivers such as me, the majority of the pack tend to get a tad left behind on some drivers which is why we use walkie talkies for the lead and trailing drivers.

Down another 9LB.

Weighed myself today, two pounds less then what I was last year at this time (one week before surgery).

Congrats, sounds like smooth sailing ahead  

All fabulous news 

In regards to top surgery, one thing I learned was first researching a surgeon where mine was selected through a consultation and found him and his assistant to be great along with allowing him to decide to cup size which was spot on and was not the cup size I would had picked but now know he made the best choice for me. 

Best wishes on your ongoing journey.

I still get chills looking back at my scuba qualification (18 years old at the time) the ocean was cold and stormy weather eek. 

​Hi Eve, never gave it a second thought as I know well that sometimes wheels turn ever so slowly