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Just steer clear of the rampant ones for a year or so dear !

Perhaps I'll open my eyes the next time I take a selfie!

Shit Christie, I said funny occurrence, not furry occurrence ! LoL well done !

Monica, The boots are made in Ireland, they're very fashionable over here, I think you must have assumed english riding boots because of my nationality LoL, I don't do horse riding either, but I do love the Northern European outdoors and countryside. Christie, Well actually the pub that we went into was a first too, Eve hadn't been in a country pub before, but I hadn't even realised it at the time, I was just being myself, doing what I'd have done pre-transition, I didn't get treated any differently than a cis woman so it was fine, I 'spose i passed, but I didn't think about it at the time. What can I say about being authentic, just relax, be yourself and you'll present as being your true self, oh and it get's easier day after day. I find on the rare occassions that people read me they just don't know what tro do or say, they just seem to freeze, which is why they stare, they mostly don't seem to do it intentionally. I think my next test is to stop staring back as this probably seems hostile, and to walk over to them and say something like "Yes I'm transgendered, hello, and don't be afraid to ask in a freindly manner, but please, most transgender people do hate being stared at". I hope I can remember all that for when I need it! Cheers, Eve

Well Christie, soon enough you'll look back at this as a funny occurrence, but my advice is, no doubt the same as you probably have now decided, change all you can as soon as you can with regard to identification documents. How are you getting on with other staff and pupils generally? I hope that you're getting on well with your hormones, noticed anything different yet? Cheers, Eve oxo

I have recently purchased some new outdoors / country boots, because they are so much more stylish than my old walking boots which although are pretty unisex looking were none-the-less bloke boots - ughh. So these new boots are Dublin River Boots, they're almost knee length to within an inch (25mm aprx), they were advertised as waterproof and breathable with other desireable qualities too, I think they were originally for horse riding but are also advertised as leisure / country boots. So Sunday's forecast was for heavy downpours of rain, what an ideal day to test out my new boots! So with my friend Sharon, we set off for the small and picturesque town of Bewdley on the River Severn which is about 25 miles west of where I live. I parked my car in the station carpark and walked off north along the East bank of the river which parallels the preserved steam railway. the begining of the walk is along a delightful country lanewhich after a mile and a half or so finishes and becomes a narrow footpath. Now one of the reasons for buying the new boots was because they'd be so much better than ankle boots in tall wet grass, so i soon had an opportunity to try them out in such grass near a couple of reservoirs, they were great and totally waterproof. Continuing our walk under the railway / river bridge we were in very muddy conditions and brown puddles - no worries for my boots. We reached Arley which is the next riverside village north from Bewdley soaked through, our outdoors coats were found very wanting! so we looked like a couple of drowned rats. We had decided to cross the pedestrian only bridge & pop into the pub on the opposite bank for a pint or so of cider, it was truly delicious (Thatchers Gold from Somerset), I gave up trying to dry my hair with the hand dryer in the toilets, and sat with hair dripping whilst drinking my pint. We had decided to catch the train back to Bewdley so we set off for Arley Station a hundred yards or so uphill from the pub. If the walk took nearly 2 hours, the train journey seemed ro take only 5-6 minutes. Before transitioning I used to go to this railway a lot, because Steam engines have been an interest to me since childhood, and I don't see why my transitioning should alter that, I'm highly unlikely to start liking dolls houses etc. Anyway I always used to visit the 2nd hand bookstall on the station that specialises with railway books, and the old guy that runs it used to recognise me. I was always sort of wary about marching in as Eve, but I thought that I'd had such a bvrilliant day so far, this was really the last test for me to go in search for a suitable book, and pay the old guy for it. He had seen me at a local pub in December when I first became full-time Eve and had stared at me making me feel very uncomfortable, so this was a last test of my self confidence, I just had to do it or otherwise I'd never be truly Eve. Well I did it just marched in nonchalently found a book, walked up to the counter stared him straight in the face and he served me politely, charging only £2 for a book marked at £4, I didn't really give him a chance to make me fell anything other than a customer. When we got to the car sharon said that he did look at me with a puzzled face when I walked past the counter, you know what I couldn't care less whatever or whoever he thinks I am, & yes I will return to buy more books in the future, I know now that there isn't anywhere much that I wouldn't go to. We both felt pleased with our walk along the picturesque river and beautiful countryside, the poor weather just added to a sense of adventure, I was in awe of my boots and the bookshop was like the cherry on top of the cake.........Eve can do whatever Steve used to do! Cheers, Eve

It's so nice to hear of positive occurrences, and even nicer to hear that they are not limited to one place or country, it seems to me to be most of the English speaking world along with northern Europe, I'm not sure about Southern Europe. How public attitudes have changed over the last couple of years, I feel very lucky to have transitioned when I did. I can only conclude that the showing of many documentaries about the subject, most recently showing famous people going through transtition, who previously were extremely male, and heterosexual as far as could be deduced, such as Kellie Maloney and Caitlin Jenner has really alerted the public to examine their attitudes toward transgender, dispelling the myths that we're all gay, weak and former sissy boys. Quite the contrary with ex-army captains having been previously televised, and now we have a serving army captain and an RAF helicopter pilot who are transgendered, I'm so grateful to all these individuals for having had the courage to stand up and do what they have done. Cheers, Eve

And I truly wonder about myself and the future, will I be able to resist such feelings and make do with a toy? I do worry about that, and how it might affect my wonderful wife (now termed as partner), I've mentioned before the conundrum that is going through my brain, I think as a comment in one of your earlier postings Karen, I often fantasise about penises but I don't think that I could cope (without throwing up) with the useless flesh around the penis called man, thowing up? yes it'd make me sick I'm sure. But will this change after GRS? There have been so many changes already that I can't be sure what the future holds for me......................... One things for sure though as Steph has said you're only human, (even if you're a 007 clone! LoL - no!, more like a bond girl now with your weapons stashed about you!) and I'd hate to think that you're going to continue to beat yourself up over this episode. You know what I'd probably have done the same anyway and risked all, I'm so impulsive and I will sieze the moment.................. God (if you're a believer) bless you Eve x

Hey it's been a while since I read your book, and I enjoyed it as a good story, but would have liked much more medical-transition related content, and legal / name change issues, it then would be an absolutely excellent read. And I think I paid for my e-copy if I remember correctly! Cheers, Eve

Most females in the UK seem to wear trousers or jeans or leggings, only occassionaly wearing skrts or dresses. Most "t" girls that I know wish that they had more butt!, including me. I have so far found the transition journy to spring amazing unexpected surprises on me and I'm loving it, when I look back it amazes me how much I have missed as male. So I really hope that your journey is as fantastic as mine has been so far. Take care, take it slowly and keep your family relationships intact. Cheers, Eve

Thanks Karen, that's so thoughtful of you, I'm sure others will also appreciate this, & not just from the UK either....

Absolutely! I got a letter from Cancer Research UK (Charity that I give to monthly) to my old male identity, others are from DIY / trade suppliers who are the worst for it. I'm lucky so far I haven't received any incorrectly addressed mail from Goverrnment depts, ughhh don't want them in any address format!. But the reverse is true with the NHS, they've started sending me appointments for smear tests and breast screening....................you just can't win ! Cheers, Eve

Well if they do I'll post the link on my FB and Twitter accounts.......

Steph, follow the link that Karen provided in her entry, and then click on Contact us - top right of the screen. A multi-tier request from all trans people world-wide would be even better............perhaps we should request Google to look at it..................

I have e-mailed US Trans equality, and suggested that they spread their wings a little further, I can only suggest that if others also share this point of view that they do the same.

Such a shame it's only US, with no international options...............

Thanks Christie, as said to Karen it maeans a hell of a lot to me, thanks for saying so.

Well I'm not sure if I like the original blog entry or the after dialogue the best LoL! Fishing lures indeed! is it the vibration that attracts them ! And the thought of Kave girl Karen in cave cooking fish on a stick over an open fire with dishevelled hair, dirty face in a tank top and thong is highly amusing! With regard to libido I fully understand Karens blog, I just want my GRS all the more, I already have a much different libido than was the case before HRT.

Thanks Steph, we've had quite a few messages with one another.........

Following on immediately from my previous entry regarding paint, which I should have posted 3-4 days ago. I think I might have developed a sixth sense, this is completely contrary to what some of my friends inform me, that they didn't think I had any sense at all! However I've digressed, apologies, over the last 8 months or so I have had feelings predicting things happening, starting with the thoughts that I needed to buy National Lottery tickets because I'd win, I did and yes I have won small amounts several times since, I am still left with the feeling that I will (not might) win a sizeable amount in the near future. That as a one-off feeling didn't really make me consider the female intuition thing on it's own, but this intuitiveness seems to have now grown to predicting where the traffic will either turn off, of carry on the same road in front of me when I'm driving. Of course I don't rely on this "intuition" other than not bothering to overtake the vehicle in front if I percieve that it will shortly change direction. Yes I drive too fast, compared to most others, it's an ex-biker thing, and also an ex-male thing too I suppose, but other vehicles do get in my way!! However back to this weird intuition, when I look back at my life I can see (and I discovered this in my teens which strangely is when cross dressing started) that if I desired something badly enough, It would happen eventually by one means or another, either by luck or eventually by my own efforts. An example would be in my early biker years wanting a decent motorcycle (in those days decent meant non-Japenese!), I had to do this by my own efforts with a small amount of luck thrown in. I started off with cheap junk and through repairs , renovations, and trading up ended up with a superb Norton Commando with engine modifications including increased capacity to 920cc, I just wanted that bike so much that it happened, but luck played it's part on the way with opportunities to sell high and buy low. The same can said of my transition from male to female, although at the start I just thought that I had a kinky fetish, I wanted to be able to wear certain provocative clothing and footwear that females wore, hell that was a real desire seeing girls dressed that way day in and day out, and eventually here I am, I've done that, and passed on to dressing comfortably as a female. I also had desires for boobs, well don't most males!, but no I mean my own, I always wondered what it'd feel like to have my nipples sticking out 4-5 inches in front of my ribs, and wobbling when walking etc., OMG this is sounding more and more like a fetish to me! LoL, however I desired them and they happened. So are desires and intuition linked or did the intuition happen because of hormonal changes, I'm not totally sure yet but I surely hope that the intuition thing increases, I love it! in fact I desire it. Cheers, Eve

Thanks Karen your message means a hell of a lot to me, thanks.

In my previous entry I said goodbye, fully thinking that would be the case. A few fellow members have asked me to reconsider, and to be honest, after a week or so I did feel that I had "painted myself into a corner", I now feel that the paint has sufficiently dried to allow myself out, and continue with my entries. So apologies to anyone annoyed at this! Cheers, Eve

Thanks Christie.

You're showing true determination Christie! Well-done girl. Please, provide a link to the head band that you mention, it seems worthwhile investigating. Cheers, Eve

WELL THATS DONE IT ! The paint that I used to trap myself in a corner seems to have dried! I'll post in the next couple of days. Stephanie, thanks for your comment, however I am not post-op yet. Cheers, Eve, oxo