Jessicatoyou

This gal's been busy this past week😱. Met my therapist for the first session last Friday, then right back to Boston to finish out First Event. Wednesday, talked to my electrologist about scheduling something soon. I found her searching the internet long ago and was very happy to learn at First Event she was highly recommended and known. ☺️. Tried to walk in, but no one was there, so called and left a message and she called me back same evening. I told her right off the bat I was transitioning and looking for beard and neck treatments, to start. She lit up and we chatted for about 20 minutes, and recommended I start laser first. I told her I would and we set up an appointment for a week from Tuesday to meet her and for an evaluation. Thursday I went to a not so local, but well known Plastic Surgeon and scheduled 6 treatments over 6 months, the first this Monday. A little pricier than I wanted, but they also do non-invasive facial feminization procedures, breast augmentation, and all surgeries up to vaginoplasty. Learned a lot about all these procedures at the Convention workshops! Walked in, got a private consultation right away, too, with my laser technician. Can't wait for that😲. Again , first off, I told her I was transitioning and she likewise lit up, too. Then, today, my second session, with my therapist. Today was "gender assessment". She implied it was just a formality (I sensed I already won her over the first time), and she's already won me over, she's just what I was hoping for. . We already discussed transgender specialty HRT doctors, methods of delivery, etc. I came across highly knowledgeable , THANKS TO YOU ALL AT TG GUIDE!!!! , you see I pay attention to every word you write.👀 . Probably helped that she's only seen me as Jessica and I've been extremely comfortable this way, now. Well have another session for this Tuesday, and I don't think my referral will take much longer.💇‍♀️ 🙏

Wednesday was the official first day of the Convention, but not a whole lot was scheduled. I woke early, took about 3 1/2 hours to get ready (which was record time for me at that point), and went down to the lobby to see what was going on. Some people were just arriving, most were in their male persona, unpacking their luggage from their cars, all with an exuberant look in their faces and an excited attitude in their strides seeming so happy to finally be here. I went to the restaurant in the Hotel by 10am ( had complementary breakfast coupons) and I have to say it was excellent in every aspect. Simple, but very good on the quality scale and having been catering for 30+ years, I know. There weren't a whole lot of people having breakfast; some were obviously there for the convention, some were not. I sat myself at a table proximity of another woman, a little younger than me. My guess cis. We exchanged smiles and then she said to me that when she first saw me she thought that I was the actress from some show called " Mom and Me". Then she kept looking thinking, no way. She said the mom, not the daughter and chuckled. I said I hadn't seen it but I'm sure I should be flattered, thank you. She was just checking out and we wished each other to have a good day. (Okay, another boost for the confidence just starting out this week even though she probably just forgot to put her contacts in that morning). 💇‍♀️ Finished up and went back out, and more people were arriving. Met a few who were already settled in; many were part of the organizing staff, and one in particular I met was Cheryl. I would come to realize her to be one of the most awesome, genuine people I have ever met in my lifetime; the type of person that when you grow up, you want to be just like? Turned out she was the Head Organizer, and my first impression was right on; she made me feel like she knew me my whole life. By the end of the Convention, it became apparent we have all known each other our whole lives; most of us just haven't met yet.😍 Afterwards got my registration packet, and checked out the venders room, but they were just setting up still, so there wasn't much to do. Hung out on and off as more people arrived and began slowly introducing myself and meeting others. Went out for a drive to learn the area, found my Starbucks, not really a fan of the coffee but like the atmosphere., and went to the supermarket to stock my room mini refrigerator. About 30 -40 minutes in the supermarket; taking my time. One girl came up to me as I was opening a cooler door and said "I just love your nails" Haha. At the checkout, gentleman bagger about my age asked "ma'am would you like your milk in a bag? Double haha! I was sure from then on this was gonna be a good week and it was! ☺️ Later that evening, went to the lounge, sat at the bar and ordered a bottle water, and met and talked to another dozen or so fantastic people, went to bed early.

I've always needed some questions answered as a matter of fact, not a matter of hope, wishful thinking or dreaming and be sure I was comfortable with those answers. What truly would it mean to me to be Jessica, socialize as Jessica, think as Jessica, look as Jessica, go out around town only as Jessica, work as Jessica; how would it feel to not be able to go back; might I regret it or would I embrace it and continue wishing I had the courage to transition long ago?? I heard about Transgender Conferences shortly after joining TG Guide when another member shared with me her experiences attending her first conference. I decided I had to know and booked the next conference remotely in my area that I could find some 4 months in advance, The First Event just outside Boston. I booked a room at the conference hotel from the night before it began through the morning after it ended (6 days) and registered for the Event in it's entirety. My goal was simple but for me it would serve to be a big test, one that would answer most if not all of doubts I had come to worry about thus far in my transition. I had originally intended to check in as my former self a day early and emerge the next day as Jessica, but as things evolved I couldn't. You see I got a taste of going public a few days before (attending church, and starting to get the courage to run in and out coffee shops, going window shopping in a downtown area not too far away. I didn't think I looked to bad, but obviously up close I knew I would be made and then a sweet clerk in one of the coffee shops said she liked my ring. SHE DIDN"T CARE!!!! Why do I??? That changed my attitude. Went to a new church the next morning. not for the church but to get out again in a "safe place"? Met a dozen people and THEY Didn't CARE!!!! Again, why do I???? Stayed through the service AND another hour for Fellowship coffee afterwards and JESSICA actually talked with real human beings and made some friends that only know me as Jessica, no one else.💇‍♀️ So Monday, I finished packing and loaded most of my bags in the car. Still Jessica. I don't know if any of the neighbors saw me but if they did, I DON'T CARE, WHY SHOULD THEY!!! Tuesday... Off to Boston... on the way stopped for coffee and gas and had to stop for a rest room twice, used the ladies room both times. Don't know what the laws are; I DON'T CARE! if I used a men's room as Jessica, now that would have been weird!!! Crossed path's with a woman in one ladies room and SHE DIDN'T CARE, even said Hello. We commented on the weather, another stinking snowstorm but I wasn't gonna let it stop me today😍. Got to the Hotel about 6pm, after getting my bags up (I way overpacked) I went to the local supermarket for some food and Starbucks for coffee. Hadn't met or seen anyone that might be connected to the conference yet; hoped to though, so went back to the room and unpacked what I could. Good Night☺️

Christy thanks!😊 Nothing serious with my self prognosis of depression, though. lol. Excellent advice "embrace life as it comes." Yeah I know the "guy" is a part of Jess. Kinda gives me an advantage when meeting others, both males and females, too😎. Well this guy's gotta get back to work in guy mode now (still partially Jess wearing my breast forms and panties under my boy clothes HaHa💇‍♀️.

Well, I attended my first Transgender Conference this past week called the First Event held annually just outside Boston. It is the first and oldest conference for Transgenders in the United States. Arrived Tuesday night even though it started Wednesday and ran through Sunday.. I didn't check out until this morning, Monday. I'll start my blogs, of which there will be many more about it, from the end, because today could not have been made possible without my experience during the past week. I've been planning this for several months and without any doubt it has met my expectations and far exceeded them. Woke up this morning about 7am well rested for the first time since arriving, .My bags were mostly packed except for what I planned to wear today, my make-up,, and some other incidentals. The male "façade" I have been putting on most of my life had not seen the light of day since Friday, Jan 25. Got dressed and ready to head home, AS JESS, by 10am, checked out , and went to breakfast at the conference center, which has been a ritual since I arrived. When I was done, got in my car, and saw it was gonna be 65 degrees and sunny today. Now I came here in another snowstorm, and the temperatures dipped below zero all week. So, instead of heading west to go home, I decided to head east to the coast of New Hampshire. First I stopped at Starbucks to say so long to my new friends and I'll see them next year. Then I went to Sephora, which was about fifteen minutes from the hotel. I had missed the workshop they had at the convention because I had to run back to NY Friday afternoon for my first therapist appointment. I went to Sephora here already once before to purchase a foundation primer by " Smashbox ", I had learned of at another workshop. This time I was hoping to get a full make-over. She explained I needed an appointment for a full make-over which was free with the purchase of $50 of cosmetics. She could do just foundation, or eyes, or lips without an appointment. I explained that make-up was very new to me, didn't have much of a clue what I was doing, duh, and if she could do the foundation that would be really, really great!! So she did and it came out really good. They have this monitor gadget which matches the skin tone to the make-up shade. Also product for eliminating beard shadow, which is great. I've already gotten pretty good with my own make-up but this was well worth it. Bought about $175 worth of cosmetics but if she showed me the eyes, too, I would have bought more. Still bought a shadow palette and a mild scent perfume, too. Oh, and another woman came up to me and told me how she really loved my boots! 😍 That's been happening to me all week long.😊 After that, onto the Coast! Now, I love the New Hampshire Coast. Have vacationed there every year for over 30 years; proposed to my wife on a "very special rock" at the ocean when I was 32 years old, and funny but always day dreamed what it would be like for Jess every year we went. Perfect drive, listening to Syrius classical music in the car, Beethoven, Haydn,, Brahms on the way. Pulled up to the seawall, got out and looked out over the ocean for about half an hour. I asked a woman walking by to take a picture of me from my cell phone and she was happy to, with the ocean backdrop. She said if I didn't like how it came out, she'd be happy to take more! Afterward walked down to that rock and sat for a while more watching mothers and kids looking for treasures under the rocks. Then drove up to Portsmouth and around 5pm back down to my favorite restaurant, The Old Salt, at Lamie's for a Seafood Dinner. I was treated like royalty!! Well 6:30 pm time to head back, now about a 4 hour drive, all the way listening to Classic Zeppelin, Yes, The Who, Leonard Skynard, Jeff Beck, etc, to keep me awake (blasting). The one and only downside to the last ten days? I don't want to go back to the "male façade" anymore, it's actually depressing me now and I don't think I've ever been "depressed" before in my life. Gonna have to do something about that; I don't like it. Much, much more...…. Jessica💇‍♀️

Well last weekend I had some plans that were sidelined by the Snowstorm. This weekend was open for me from Friday when I got home from work around noon, until tomorrow morning when I work again. Haha, was supposed to have retired, but helping out a business friend Mon-Fri, mornings, about 25-30 hours a week. Gives me some extra spending money and some much needed activity. So, this weekend I'm entirely living my life as Jess!💇‍♀️ Friday was rather uneventful, just real comfortable and relaxing. Saturday, some housework and got out for about 5 hours, ran some errands, window shopped, and to the store for some minor staples. The cashier commented that she loved my ring. Asked if was a real opal. I managed to feminize my voice ( slightly) and told her thank you, no it is just an inexpensive costume ring. That made me feel really good! It is a large very pretty ring that I wear on my right index finger. Only other ring I wear is my wedding band and diamond on my left hand. I don't care for wearing a lot of rings. Then I visited my best friend ever, (I visit her daily and tell her what's going in my life) 👼. She doesn't say much, but I know she's on board with me because some really awesome things have been happening to me lately😊. So last week I missed going to Church due to the snowstorm. Found a Unitarian Universalist Congregational Church a half hour from me in the same City that I've been window shopping in as Jess, What caught my eye is that they are an "LGBTQ welcoming congregation". So this morning got ready and went to Church! 🙏 Which is something because I haven't gone in over ten years despite being very active in the church I went to that many years ago. I figured it would probably be somewhat casual but I wore a modest black ribbed loosely fitting V-neck sheath dress, anyway. That is one of my favorite dresses; I feel totally natural in it., fits well and looks my age and style. My first time in a new church, too, out of respect, 2 inch heels, thigh high stockings (to make it easier to use the ladies room if I needed.) My coat, a wool blend long dress overcoat ( it is still frigid up here). I was the last one to enter right before service started and was seated next to a woman in her 50's?, maybe? She was super friendly throughout, we introduced ourselves, shared her hymnal with me, and chatted idly to help me to be comfortable. And I was very, very comfortable, too. The service was decent, not a whole lot about God, if anything, but mostly about community and everyone being one, total acceptance and inclusion. A lot about MLK, too. I would guess about 150 in the congregation, all ages, all socio-economic statuses. Dress was mostly casual, but I was not over dressed which I was happy about. The most significant thing about my experience, and I just can't get over it right now, was how nice it felt to be myself and around others, and talk to others, and be in fellowship with others "as Jess", people from all walks of life. I think it has to do with getting rid of the idea of "presenting female", and just being "Jess: it's like an epiphany for me! Okay and here is the best part. When the service ends we 're clearing the chairs for fellowship coffee ( I was gonna stay: I really WAS comfortable) and Amy introduces herself to me and asks if I would like to stay for coffee. Duh yeah!!! Amy is transitioning,, 30 something?, well into HRT, I think by her physical features. Anyway we talked for well over a half hour; she introduced me to about a dozen people. She is/was on the governing board of the church, and they have a support group that meets once a month. Jess being Jess 😍

Since joining Td Guide and networking with many in the community and exploring much of the resource materials on transitioning, I've learned of many of the terms used, and obstacles and goals one encounters when transitioning. One that stands out is "Presentation". Presenting female for the MTF group of us and I assume the FTM group, too is a major concern and is kind of a Pre-requisite tor eventually achieving a full transition. We often think we're too tall, too heavy, too ugly, There are hundreds of videos on every category of :"presentation"; walking, talking, mannerisms, dress, make-up, electrolysis, laser, FFS, etc., and I've used the term Presenting Female myself many times. But...It always struck a chord in me. Now I know why. I now live in "Jess mode" as I'll call it from now on, 70- 80% of my time. I will no longer "present female", only "present male" when I need to for work or other similar situations....and I'll work on eliminating the need for that in the future, too.

My only advice...cherish her and the next 14-40 years will be even better beyond your wildest dreams.😍 You are both lucky for each other.

I'm in!! On Cloud 9, (or 10 maybe) at the moment. The therapist I've chosen, great reputation for transitioning clients, and I've been working on it all week, contacted me and is setting up my appointments, and I should know tomorrow when my first session is. Still trying to get in before First Event, but most likely will be right after First Event. Real funny thing....just a little story. This past week I've been helping my son move into an apartment closer to his work. About an hour away, close to a major city in the State I live in. Somewhat familiar with the City, as I did a lot of business there some 30 years ago, but haven't been there more than a couple of times since. So last night he wants me to go with him to a furniture store off the beaten track there as he was told they have a lot of good deals. He GPS's the location and I'm driving according to his directions( Everything has changed since I've been there!; We pull up and ….it's directly across the street from my therapist's office building!!!!!! Have never been there before. I had a good feeling then I would get a call and I did today.

Yep, deep down have always been a funny girl.💇‍♀️ 🤣. Had everything ready but the Yukon!, no uggs, but a decent pair of boots. Great idea; thanks! Haven't run the fireplace in over a year. Gas, not wood, but will keep me warm and in the same mood, and a little warmer. -3 degrees out now! Wind chill might hit -30😱

Well, had the day planned again with the house to myself all day and tonight, this time from 6am on. Figured I'd be ready in Jess mode early, by 8 or 9, and take off!💇‍♀️☝️ Know a couple of churches that are trans welcoming within driving distance that wouldn't know me and that was going to be my first stop. Afterwards was gonna check out a couple of quaint cafe's in the same area I know and MAYBE have a light lunch, if I worked up enough guts after church. I think I would have! Have been feeling a lot more comfortable, natural, and downright NORMAL as Jess the more practice. I get!💕. Then window shop in the same downtown city again that I did last week! Visit a couple of woman's specialty shops. Happens to be the same city I'm planning to go for electrolysis; very artsy and progressive. Then head home before dark, and spend a quiet evening doing some housework, and maybe finishing Ann Vitale's book! ( been only half way through since 3 months ago!) THEN THIS MORNING I WOKE UP AND THERE WAS 30 INCHES OF SNOW LAST NIGHT AND IT WAS STILL SNOWING HARD!!!!!!!! UGH😲 Well, instead I shoveled and shoveled and shoveled. BUT... Still a good day😊 Was in Jess mode by noon and spent most of the afternoon packing for my trip next week. No driving for me today, HAHA. Now some housework, (actually I've always enjoyed it) and then maybe finish that book. Jess😍

Hey Christy, thanks for the Kudos.😊 But no need to be envious, actually I'm as much envious of you, too! LOL Our situations are different and I think you're doing great with yours. I thought early on our paths to transition and our situations were different, but I always tended to think we'd arrive there together, and I still do think that. We both have a ways to go, and it makes me happy you're a part of mine and I yours. No, not really passing with flying colors, just barely without "colors", if you know what I mean. Just trying to keep a low profile, but getting super comfortable as Jess going out and about. Will take a lot more practice, little steps at a time. Was still very nervous but not nearly how much I would have been before, or could have been without confidence. Couldn't believe I actually kept talking! I'm not gullible; that cashier probably sensed but was so gracious she didn't let on and if I was more comfortable, we would have liked to talk more. See, there are a lot of good people out there. Next time, I'll be even more confident and less afraid. Gonna keep working on that; another thing to look forward to haha😍 Yes! Florida. 😎 Wanted to get down again before First Event, but will have to wait until after, like quickly soon after. Helping my son move into an apartment, so when that's done...Watch out World! Will PM you when I know for sure. Would love to attend one of your groups with you, too, if that's okay! Jessica

Well a lot's happening with my presenting, and MY CONFIDENCE! 💇‍♀️. Have had many opportunities to sit tight by myself and refine my make-up, my dress, my mannerisms, my voice, and my mental attitude, most important! Have been moisturizing my skin, face, leg, arms, my whole body and I mentioned before shaved my body, neck to toe. Even trimmed my eyebrows amd they came out PERFECT!😊. Thanks to studying all the you tube videos out there. Today have 20 hours with the house to myself from3pm on, , so I decided it was time for another excursion.😎, Now I recently dumped my truck which I used for business, a huge Yukon XL.for a Malibu sedan. Always had big "manly wheels" before. ;I've always had big Black trucks, SUVs . This sedan is the perfect size for a girl, maroon exterior, light tan interior, like new and I love it. It's my Jess mobile.💜. Three o'clock started transforming into Jessica mode and by 7 went out for a ride. Drove to the nearest large city and took a walk downtown, window shopping. No one made any notice of me. No funny looks, no whispering among people walking about. Tried to make eye contact with several and smiled. Stopped in a Walgreens's and shopped for some make-up. When the clerk rang me up , she commented on my necklace and we briefly talked about how brutally cold it was outside. My fem voice seemed to pass enough; she acted quite normal😊😎 I was a little nervous but will work more getting a handle on that. Stopped for a coffee to go and again didn't stand out! I can get used to this💇‍♀️❤️ Jess First Event organizers e-mailed me and gave me a volunteer slot at the clothing boutique😍. Now, really looking forward to that! 👉 i

Okay, in my last blog I was about to close my business (November) and moved my "belongings" home not knowing when I would be able to resume presenting female if not only in private, but I did NOT purge as I had many times in the past. Hey I just turned 64😎, and there were many. Thank goodness😊. Since then, I have been dealing with a rather extreme life changing event, the kind that would cause anyone to reconsider if transitioning is the right course to continue. Well, prior to that I've had the opportunity to dress in private almost daily ( 5 out of 7 days a week) for two years, if only for short periods at a time. I've practiced make-up, the walk, the talk, the mirrors, the selfies, you get it, and I felt pretty confident that when I picked back up I would be ready to go. …..NOT! 😫. Well, have the house to myself (for the first time in my life!, almost,.... my son's been hanging around some❤️, Little more than a week ago I pulled the stash out from the boxes and dressed and made-up. UGH!😩 . Thought this ain't gonna work. CALL IT OFF! What am I doing????? I looked like an old man in drag! Took a day off and reflected, …..or meditated? Don't know which, but it worked. Haha. Tried again, took my time. Shaved my body, (yep, down there, too). Legs, armpits, chest, arms, back, etc. Eight days later only a little growing back down there; just shaved again today. The rest no sign of hair returning yet. Have lived most of the last week presenting female in private. Still have gone out presenting male on occasion to take care of errands, like getting contact lenses. Haha. Was a bitch trying to apply eye make-up when you can't see your eyes without glasses!👀 BTW they work! The optometrist didn't have a clue why a 64 year old guy would want contacts, but she's happy and I'm making another friend! Seems like everyone's so young these days and just wanna be friends 😊 . So, back at the house, could actually see my eyes and face applying makeup, and with the aid of some "face-lift tape" I looked 80-90% presentable. ( FFS is definitely in my future). Today, went out. I mean WENT OUT! 😍. Put on my best outfit, made myself up, right down to my nails, looked in the mirror, and decided I was ready. Haven't done that since I was 20 something, and then it was at night! Noon to two pm, ran some errands, took a drive, felt the cool crisp air. Nobody noticed and there were many that could have!!!! 😎. Came home, and logged into First Event to volunteer for the Convention. Jess,, feeling better ❤️ .

Happy New Year! What makes it new? To me I recently spent some time reflecting on what has happened in 2018 and a lot of major things in my life have! Several "life changing events", some foreseen and some unforeseen. I believe I made it through them better than I was, at least slightly, so that makes me happy for 2018. My wife recently passed away from cancer, and have been crying more than I have my entire life....but focusing on the many, many, many good memories and times we had quickly brings me out of the sadness of life. She always had my back and I hers and will now need to watch my own back more. Next for me is re-evaluating and planning for 2019. I questioned very seriously whether or not I would move with transitioning and the good news is I didn't purge anything this year and in fact have added many really nice things to my wardrobe recently, which I just love.💜 I pondered whether I could just remain in the closet and live in public as male. I really don't like that idea but it's not off the table yet. 2019 will resolve that issue for me. Some definite tasks for me to take on....First Event is a go👉. Therapist is a go👉. Facial Electrolysis is a go👉, FFS is highly probable👀. HRT is very likely, and hope to start within the month of February, if not sooner. Financially, I just wish to spend a little less than I'm taking in and that's gonna take up a lot of my time and planning to accomplish, All, in all, I am looking forward to the NEW YEAR. Jessica

You for me, me for you, and all of us for each other! ❤️

Found mine at Walmart, "Kiss Everlasting French Nail Kit, can get short or regular. Look very real and natural, acrylic, can be stick on(easy to remove) or glue on (Soak for15 minutes to soften and remove) Supposed to last a week or more I like without polish, really look natural and manicured and have 14 sizes to fit over most size nails. Can get them short or regular. I have the short ones and they cover my nails perfectly!. They can be polished with any color, I assume.😊 about $5

Great! Have had a set for several months myself, haven't tried them, yet, but spy them often! Can be pressed on or acrylic glued, which is supposed to last longer and harder to remove. Soon, though😘 Jess

I see yours and Michael's concern, but I've never been "fearful" of anyone, but have been fearful of myself...no more!.😎, especially those that are indeed fearful, of disappointing their base, of not getting re-elected, and they are on both sides of the political spectrum. We really don't need to be validated by politics, but change will come when our children say "Mom, it's no big deal. get over it" We effect change and need not await for others.❤️ Jessica

Happy Holiday 'to you, too, Michelle.🎄

My memories of being bullied are very vague and limited. I remember about age 4-6 a kid wanting to fight me and getting into a scuffle. Didn't have a clue why, but the second time I lured him into my yard where he met the family German Shepard. Never saw him again! That is my only memory of being bullied. My son in Junior High school became the target of bullying, because of his weight, culminating when he faced it on the bus home one day. For several days prior, I learned a bully was taunting him on the bus, knocking his glasses off, grabbing his backpack, sucker punching, etc. My son was 6ft ; the bully 6-2. I told him, sit up front; let the bus driver know; I offered to speak on his behalf but he would have nothing to do with that! He said the bus driver sees it but does nothing. So I told him warn him once; warn him twice; then pop him. (I told him where so as likely not to cause permanent damage) The third day he did. He got suspended for 2 days, the bully 3. They wanted him to report to school and sit in a detention room for two days. I advised the principal that I had no problem with the suspension, but he would stay home during that time and return to classes after. AND I told the Pricipal during those two days I suggest he and the bus driver would develop a plan to deal with such issues, afterward. He never had a problem again and the bully walked around school for the next 10 days with a mildly noticeable shiner. I think the major issue with bullying has to do with self esteem on both the part of the victim and the aggressor. The aggressor has a warped idea that bullying will remove their own issues of poor self esteem; so they seek out other people with poor self esteem to validate their homespun theory. If their bullying is successful, it doesn't remove their own issue, however. Now discussing the issue of self esteem from my own perspective, and preventing us being either of the players to bullying I feel it is highly relevant and important, that we address our self esteem issues by realizing the value of ourselves and while our current state of self esteem is determined by our past and experiences it is fluid and can be improved from today on. Some may have already guessed I think I'm pretty high up on the self esteem chart; I don't really care what anyone thinks of me BUT I do care what I think of me!! I love myself and the type of person I am, and for the most part always have and always will. I've never hated myself as a boy, just know I would love myself as a girl as much if not more! I began that I don't have many memories of being bullied and I think, but don't know, that subliminally, my interactions with others may convey that fact. I am non threatening, yet will always stand my ground even if I retreat then return with my plan. I have never bullied anyone I am sure. You see If I love myself I can love all others, too. And others will feel they can love me. That doesn't mean I can like all actions of others. I also think this is very relevant to transitioning, too. When I present female I don't expect to have many problems of being bullied. I also don't think transitioning is an answer to solving low self-esteem. Jess❤️

Thank you both Monica and Christy for bringing this issue to the community to discuss. I think it is one of the foremost issues and obstacles on every transgender, gay, lesbian mind when coming to our own realizations of who we are. And WE need to come to terms with it before others do and follow our lead. Much more later when I have the opportunity to. Any others? Would love to hear. Jessica💜😊

Hello Becky, Thank you for checking this out!👍 I, too, last August 26 couldn't believe I would tell my story to complete strangers, yet in a short time I now consider them my closest friends. I truly hope we hear more from you, as we need to learn from each other and I'm sure you have a lot to offer❤️ Jessica

I have very much enjoyed reading your blogs. On this, your 5th or 6th?, I have to comment on the 4 inch heels; got a pair about a year ago and love them, how they look and feel, but can only wear them sitting😄!!! Walking will need a few more years of practice! Have down sized to 2 inch, 1 inch and flats... much more comfortable, and natural walking😍.

Great! I love to sew, too. Rather I would love to learn how to sew😄, too. Was always the "mender" in my house, split pants, buttons, minor alterations, etc. Spent a lot of time researching dress patterns and inexpensive sewing machines before internet shopping really became popular. Go for it!👍