Hi, I'm at a point where the battle within myself has started broiling out, the sense of not being part of a male group everywhere I go has me being seen as somewhat strange.
My first time I dressed was in my very early 20s, the feeling I had was immense, but being from a small community where I'd be lynched for this, I stepped back and for years tried to ignore my feelings. Now in my 50s, I've joined a Trans chat community, though it hasn't been the haven I thought I was seeking, it seems I need to work on some psychological barriers.
Today I dress but I'm still hidden away, I pine to be seen for who I am inside, but I'm so afraid.
Some TG ladies can be very mean in groups on platforms, I'm fumbling through, so I think that getting to understand myself better before being part of groups is a must.